Five weeks into a new job and almost everyday I am reminded of a fire hose. I am standing up a new program. It’s a lot of work to strategize, plan and stand up a new Program. Almost everyday someone downloads A LOT of information to me at rapid speed and my brain can only process so much at one time. On my first day, my new boss said, “It will be like drinking water from a fire hose!” Guess what, he was right! I’ve learned to take the downloads and then hit the pause button for a few days. Then I go process and figure out how each new piece of the puzzle fits into the bigger picture.
I like puzzles. The ability to strategize is one of my number one strengths. This week I received a lot of puzzle pieces without a lot of time to process. Next week I’ll be working to fit what I gathered this week together with what I already knew. The good news is the draft Charter I wrote is out for review. It’s being well received and is lining up to be my first quick win:-)
This week has been especially fun. I was in DC on Tuesday for meetings with my leadership team who work there as well as an advocacy group. All of my meetings that day went quite well. Actually, my leadership talked to me about potential opportunities in the future working with them down there. They asked me to keep that in my awareness as I am working on my current project. I told them I am keeping an open mind to all opportunities. I had a wonderful meeting with an advocacy group and I am really excited by the synergy I believe we can create together.
This new job is good stretch for me. There is no other way to say it. I am stretching myself in new directions. I am using new skills. I am being forced to level up. I am setting an example of professionalism while remembering it is ok to ask for guidance. While this job is stretch for me, it is not outside of my current skills set. I am nowhere near over my head. I am, however, swimming a little harder to get to the top than I had to swim in my old job. It’s all good.
Folks were worried that I would be bored in this new group. It’s a slower paced group and less chaotic environment for sure. But, the scope of the project I am working on is so big and there is so much to do, there is no way that I would be bored. The quiet environment is actually healthier for me.
I went to an event with my former coworkers yesterday while they were serving ice cream. It felt good and comfortable. I told them my assignment was going well but I am still keeping an open mind to all opportunities. The truth is I have no idea what’s going to happen between now and the end of the year. I could stay in the role I am in now. I could take another role in the line of business I am in now or I could go back to my home Organization. I am keeping my mind open to all possibilities. I do know one thing for sure. If I do go back, they will need to offer me a role on comparable level to the one I am working at now. I can’t go back to playing small. I have these skills and I want to use them.
As for school, I left work early today so I could come home for two school related conference calls. I am taking a break in between them right now to right this blog. At 6pm, I will participate in a Coaching Circle and will have to give a status update on the progress I am making on goal I set. I will also be learning new Coaching Skills from my classmates. 9 weeks to go until graduation.
The 18th anniversary of my sister’s death is tomorrow. It always puts me in a weird mood. Someone asked me if I was ok today. I wasn’t dress up and had very little makeup on. I am usually more polished. I was a little sad when I woke up. One of my Closest friends is on Clinical Trials for Cancer and it’s not going well. I guess she was on my mind and my sister was on my mind. I was distracted; that’s all. But, the truth is I am absolutely fine.
I’ve also been thinking about this friend I have. I miss being close to him and sharing time and space with him and his blue eyes. I missed an opportunity to connect with those blue eyes because I was distracted this morning and caught up in my head and emotions. I guess I also hesitated because I feel a bit unsteady with him which causes me to worry about saying and doing the wrong things. It makes me nervous with him. I also sense that he is a little nervous around me as well. Not sure why we are both so nervous and guarded😂 I think we need an ice breaker 😂 I think we are nervous and guarded because we both still have feelings for each other and are not sure what (if anything) we should say or do about it. I, for one, will avoid the topic if he will 😂 Deal? 😊 We are moving in different worlds now which is good for both of us and our careers. And, the truth is… he is not mine to hold at night. I’ve accepted that. I guess I just thought I could keep him as friend and in my life. He is still in my heart, on my mind and in my awareness. I hope I am still in his heart too. I just wanted to stand before him and say HI while I looking into those beautiful eyes and talk about stupid shit; no need to deep dive. It would be nice to get back into an easy flirtious fun rhythm with him again 😁💙🦋 But, if he wants me to stay away from him, I can do that too. That would make me sad but I will do it.
My last bit of gratitude today is that I have dinner plans with friends tomorrow night. It’s an annual restaurant week dinner at my favorite restaurant. It’s a little weird this year. There is usually four to six of us. However, this year everyone is sick. So, it’s just me and one other girlfriend. We cancelled our table and will sit at the “Oyster” bar. As of five minutes ago, another friend is starting to feel better and may join us. I am looking forward to the opportunity to socialize a bit.
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