There is finally a word for what I’ve been doing for the last few years… I was in an isolationship a long time before it was mandatory 💙✌️🤣
As a natural introvert, social distancing is what I do on weekends when I need downtime. It’s not a hardship for me. Years ago I used to drink wine and beer as a social lubricator to socialize and be a bit extroverted. Drinking is no longer an option for me and I’ve settled into my introverted lifestyle.
My focus the last few years has been on healing myself on a deep emotional level, making peace with painful experiences from my past and focusing my energy on maintaining contact with people with whom I have genuine connections. When people have genuine connections, physical distance is irrelevant. In this time of social distancing, I am still maintaining some form of contact whether it be phone, text or spiritual contact with those I love. I also pray for their safety each day.
Since focusing on myself the last few years, I’ve experienced profound growth and healing. I’ve also learned coping skills. I have an anxiety disorder and I am also in some weird auto-immune flare up right now. I have muscle and joint pain which I was hoping would resolve with getting my Iron levels up but it hasn’t yet helped. Teleworking is blessing. I am still working full time but it also keeps me in my condo all day long. Getting up, getting dressed, putting on makeup and going to work not only takes my mind off some of the weird shit going on in my body, it also gives me a social outlet in a safe space. This requires me to be diligent in managing my thoughts and emotions. I’ve been strategizing ways for me adapt and refocus myself on other things while being stuck at home alone. As someone who has anxiety on a regular basis, this has been critical in helping me get through this pandemic while living alone and being about 60 miles from my family without using Xanax every day.
My main home project during this time is my balcony. I am lucky to live in a beachfront condo with a balcony. It’s March so I am not out there much this time of year. You can see the chairs stacked in the corner which I find very uncomfortable. I am getting rid of them and may see if the local homeless shelter wants them for their gazebo area.
I never really thought about redoing my balcony area because I usually spend most of time at our community pool, on the beach or walking around town. I am not really sure what this summer will bring so I’ve decided to make this space cozy so I can hang out there, maybe work out there on nice days and enjoy the sound of the ocean and moonlight on the water at night💙 I really like the below patio set and I measured it. It looks comfortable and looks like it will fit on the balcony… I am still looking and haven’t committed to this but I like dark wicker but maybe nested ottomans would be better in the small space and I would prefer red cushions. My biggest issues that one will deliver and put it together during COVID🤣 I am pretty handy and have tools 💁🏻♀️I just put together a task chair and a fan but do I really want to put together a whole patio set by myself? UGH! There is no rush to order just yet. I’ll wait a few weeks to see if what happens. I would rather pay someone to do it or have someone help me, than do it myself ✌️
I bought some plants to grow in pots on the balcony. You can see the herb starter plants below (1st photo below). I am going to repot them. I am also growing Kale micro greens from a kit that I bought on Amazon (2nd photo below). A local garden store, Lang’s,Garden, is actually open during the pandemic. I guess gardening supplies are essential🤣💚I order a Drawf Blueberry bush that can grow in a pot and is hardy during cold weather (3rd photo below). I love blueberries so I am going see if I can grow it on my balcony. I am also planting Kale and Spinach in pots too 💚🌱 You can see all of my supplies (4th photo below). In coming weeks, I will be planting and building a potted garden on my balcony. This also gives me something focus on and nurture during this time of uncertainty.
How are you coping during this time of uncertainty? I hope you are well and finding something to believe in and love during this challenging time. I think we will all look back on 2020 and have a bit of post traumatic stress disorder 🤣✌️
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