I am writing this because I needed to vent a bit… It finally got to me. The pandemic anxiety caught up to me today…I should have seen it coming.
I’ve been managing the daily anxiety pretty good. I am very thankful that I can telework full-time and will not miss a paycheck. I have a safe home. I have food and supplies. I consider myself very lucky. However, learned a few years ago it’s not good to stuff down my emotions. Just because I am lucky doesn’t mean I am not feeling anxiety and stress for how this is impacting my life.
As I said, I am teleworking full-time until at least April 30th but most likely longer. Well, the heating valve in my living room broke and it’s stuck ON. My desk which is on my dinner room table sits right near it. Let me just tell you – it sucks. It’s hot; dry and making me feel sick and miserable🥵 it’s also aggravating my allergies because I’ve had the windows open🤧 I went to mailroom yesterday and saw our maintenance guy down the hall. Thankfully, he told me me he can fix it on Friday because heat is considered urgent but I need to plan to stay in the other room or go out while he’s working on it to maintain social distancing. I’m not sure where I am going to go because I don’t want to be around anyone. I’m avoiding the COVID! Maybe just a car ride by myself. So, I only have to wait until Friday to get the heat valve fixed — thank God. It was so hot near my table that I worked today on the other side of room sitting on yoga bolsters. It was comfy. I will most likely work there tomorrow too… but it’s weird I miss my cubicle for work😏
I received packages from Amazon today. After reading an article the many of the Amazon Fulfillment locations have staff that are infected but still working, I am freaked out😳It almost wasn’t even worth the stress and anxiety it gave me to receive the orders. First, I put on gloves and a mask just to pick it up and open it. Then I had to wipe everything down. Then I had to wash my hands like twelve times. Then I had to worry if I washed everything enough and wonder if I should change my clothes… It’s exhausting… I don’t think I will be ordering anything from Amazon for a while. As a matter of fact, the same for all deliveries…The virus lives on cardboard for 24 hours. I think as long as you wear gloves and a mask and don’t touch your face, you are ok… but, who knows. Finding out Chris Cuomo from CNN has it too, really got me thinking… Corona Virus is no joke. Has anyone noticed the air is heavy lately? It’s really windy near me lately. It’s weird. I have food and supplies. I am not planning to leave the house for a while.
How are you coping? How is the Corona Virus (COVID19) Pandemic changing you?
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