It’s interesting 888 has been chasing me for the last two days. It’s interesting because I woke up yesterday morning and felt like this problem I having in work will keep surfacing. It’s happened before and it will happen again.
I decided to at least poke my nose out and see what else is round. I finally updated my resume. I sent it to a few managers in my building including the GM of our local HR Office. I’ve been chatting with her about it. There is no reason for make a hasty decision. There is no reason for me take a step back to “get out”… but for the first time since I landed what I thought was my “dream job”, I’ve acknowledged I’ve reached my limit with it.
I choose me! There is no other way to explain it. When I tune into my intuition, I know this hasn’t been a good fit from the start. I feel like it’s done; I’ve learned whatever I needed to learn from this. With this self awareness and knowledge, it completely changes how I feel about it. It also means I can’t be manipulated with false promises.
So what do you do when you reach this type of crossroad in your life? I pray. The prayer I said was, “I have complete trust and faith in God and Universe to protect me, show me the path and lead me through this!”. Again, the Universe laid 888s on me almost like it was saying, “I am proud of you for letting go; now keep going.”
My new GM did call me early this morning to find how I was doing. She also told me managers have taken responsibility for not listening to me about the risks I was calling out for eight months. They also have all jumped in to help mitigate them now. She actually said, “I’m the type of girl that is gonna jump into a fight with you if someone comes for you. You are the same way. I can tell. Just so you know… I’m all in now!” 🤣 She’s is relatively new in her role and I like her. I respect her. That’s why I am saying there’s no reason to rush out of this job. I just don’t “need” the dream anymore. I want something different. Something in me has changed.
The manager who attempted to push me under the bus instead of her reached out to me later in the day. She gets anxiety attacks and knows I am holistic wellness coach. She actually reached out for an impromptu session because she was about to go into a meeting that could be an explosive. Meanwhile, I was like “Bitch, you just pushed me in front of bus to save yourself and now you want me to help you?” 🤣 Like either she completely lacks self awareness or is just a “user”. I am inclined to think the later. Yes, I gave her a “free” impromptu session and sent her on her way as I sat there shaking my head thinking
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