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Self Care Sunday – September 23, 2018

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This Self Care Sunday is complicated for me for a few reasons. I am just not sure what to do next. I am getting a bit overwhelmed and decided to give into a bit on Saturday. I slept most of the day and watched a few episodes of “The Tunnel: Season 3 – Vengeance” on Amazon Prime which took my mind off of most stuff 🙂 So, here’s what’s happening…

I had my appointment with my Gastro doc on Friday to get my biopsy results. I thought five biopsies were taken. It turns out it was only four. They confirmed active Gastritis and inflammation in my Esophagus. However, the interesting thing is it not chronic gastritis. This means it’s NOT an autoimmune flare-up. This could be good – meaning that it’s another cause. However, the biopsies did not confirm the cause or source. Therefore, nothing was eliminated. My doctor is referring me to Philly for a conclusive diagnosis. He recommended PENN or Jeff and also said since I had precancer removed five years that I could even go to Fox Chase. I have to let him know where I want to go on Monday and they’ll send them my medical records. Initially I thought I would go to Fox Chase since it’s about 1/2 mile from my Mom’s house. However, their specialty is Cancer and we don’t know for sure it is Cancer. PENN is a better hospital for Gastro diagnostics and treatment and they can also treat Cancer – if it turns out to be that. My sisters are going to go to the appointment with me too for support.

After I left his office, I really wasn’t sure how I felt about this. I withdrew most of the day. Honestly, I am just tired and over it. My mom called Saturday asking why I didn’t call her back. I just didn’t even feel like talking about it to anyone. I am glad he suggested that I go out of area to a bigger hospital with more advance diagnostics and treatments. It actually is for the best anyway. My current doc is getting older and seems like he just wants to coast into retirement; he often just wants to throw meds at everything which can be an easy fix for symptoms but it doesn’t get to the root cause of the issue. I believe going to Penn for my Gastro issues will work out for my highest good in the long run but I want to find out who would be the best for diagnostics. For now, I am just trying to relax a bit. I am still not convinced it’s Cancer. The problem is he couldn’t rule it out based upon the biopsy results. Given I had precancerous polyps removed from my Colon five years ago, Cancer is still a possibility.

Professionally, things are going quite well. I am glad these health problems are happening now and not a few months down the road. Since I am in temp position and I don’t support anyone but myself, I have more flexibility in when and how I work. My schedule is mine to manage. I am confident I’ll have the health thing figured out before I go into a permanent job anywhere in four months. Speaking of permanent gigs, I know for sure I don’t want to go back to my old group. Intuitively it gives me a bad vibe and I keep getting signs to trust my intuition. It really doesn’t matter who my boss is. It feels done to me and time to move on. There are other reasons I do not want to go back but I will leave that for in person conversations rather than putting it here on my blog. The exciting news is I had meetings this past week about other opportunities that look promising. Actually one of the opportunities seems to be a really good fit for me with a defined career path working for a Director and GM I really respect. I am working on my affirmations like crazy to help that fall into place for me. That feels good to me.

My self care this week has actually been pretty good – all things considered. Being in DC Sunday to Tuesday kept my mind off of the health issues and I felt pretty good while I was there. It was actually the best trip to DC I’ve had so far. I LOVED the Museum of the Bible. The Conference I attended on Monday was extremely beneficial. I declined the group dinner invitation and opted for a solo meal (Salmon Cobb Salad=delicious) at my hotel’s bar where I ran into a coworker also in town. We chatted one on one quietly for a bit which was nice. I was in my room by 6:45pm exhausted, talked out and over peopling for the day. The below meme is a true accurate depiction of how I felt Monday night in my hotel room.

Empaths

I felt some mental junk creeping up on me on Wednesday so I focused myself on writing sexy poetry for Blue Love. That made me happy. Writing poetry always makes me happy and raises my vibration. I especially enjoy writing Blue Love Poetry. It’s been a long time since I wrote a spicy poem and it was nice to feel that energy in me again. I need those blue eyes and that erotic stimulation my life.

By Thursday, I started to feel some uneasiness creep up into my soul. The Brett Kavanaugh confirmation stuff and sexual assault allegation started to trigger PTSD from my own assaults. My therapist told me when things come up I need to sit with it, feel it and not stuff the emotions down anymore. The only way to heal is to let it come up into the light. The next few paragraphs are emotionally heavy. I hope by writing this it helps me heal and maybe inspires others to start their healing journey as well…so here it goes…

First, please take some time and read the Twitter #whyididntreport stories. There are hundreds of thousands stories of unreported sexual assaults, painful stories, from both women and men. Feel their pain and then you may understand what it is like to be in our shoes. So here’s some of my story. It happened twice. I told family. The first time no one believed me. They said I must have been confused. He was drunk and he didn’t mean. Since I wasn’t hurt and was able to fight him off nothing bad really happened to me. So — How do you think that made me feel? How do you think I felt knowing they basically thought I was a liar and continued to allow him to live in our house.

Telling me I was confused and defending him made them feel better until it happened a second time. By the grace of God, there were witnesses the second time. It couldn’t be ignored. I was injured. People knew, I confronted him both times. It’s our family’s little secret. I never contacted the police or the FBI because my family didn’t want anyone to know. Believe me EVERYONE wanted to push it aside, act as if it didn’t happen and move on. It’s a little more complicated when it’s relative. It’s a little more complicated when everyone assumed I overreacted the first time and even said I was confused. They basically blew it off until the second time it happened. The second time I was injured physically, mentally and spiritually. I was lucky that witnesses heard the noise, saved me and had him removed from the house forever the second time. However, that night was the end of the conversation. That was the end of any acknowledgement of what happened to me. No one wanted to talk about it after that night. They thought removing him was enough and that I wasn’t scarred. I was expected to let it go, move on and make holidays nice for the rest of family for the rest of my life and pretend for everyone that everything was forgiven.

I pretended to forgive. I stuffed it down as far as I could. I’ve been in therapy at least four times since I was 21 years old. I attempted suicide once in my 20s and a second time in my 30s. I must not have been meant to die because I was found both times. I acted out sexually in my 20s and early 30s. I accepted poor treatment from men my entire life because I felt I was damaged and didn’t believe I deserved any better. I carried the burden and paid for his actions my entire life. He’s moved on just fine. I am the one with PTSD and lost any opportunity to have a normal life with a man. I am the one who lost it all while he walks around like king.

It was only a few months ago that I allowed myself to really start to feel this pain and allow this darkness to come up and out of me for healing. I’ve been working through it with my therapist. We agreed it is not worth addressing anything with him again. He will never own is actions nor take responsibility for what he did to me. I did, however, need to re-address it with my Mother which I did about a year ago. I spent over two hours walking her through the events and how it affected my life and my relationships with men my entire life. She always was disappointed I never married and never had children. It was in this conversation she started to understand why. It was in this conversation she could feel my pain. She started to understand how those events impacted my life and what it is like to live with those memories. My mother is significantly more compassionate and empathetic towards me since this conversation. We are closer than we have ever been. I do not blame her but I still needed to be sure she understood me. As she sobbed and said “I’m sorry” over and over again, I didn’t feel validated. I felt sad for everything that was lost because of those events.

My therapist and I were talking about my relationships with men in my last appointment. She looked at me and said, “any man you allow into your life now will need to be REALLY special. You deserve someone special who you can trust enough to let him help you through the anxieties and flashbacks.” Then she said, “Linda, you deserve someone special who can be a friend and a lover; who will treat you with compassion, respect and tenderness.”

Yes, the allegation made by Dr. Ford against Brett Kavanaugh triggered me because I can related to stuffing it down. I can relate to not being able to acknowledge your truth. Mostly, I can relate to how Dr. Ford must have felt when Kavanaugh was nominated; seeing him become the judge on the highest court in our country knowing what he did to her as a woman. Knowing he would vote on cases that involve women. I can relate to a dam breaking inside of her.

The truth is we do not know with absolute certainty the truth between Dr. Ford and Brett Kavanaugh. That’s why an investigation and interviewing witnesses would be helpful. It shouldn’t be rushed. The GOP is pushing a vote through even though they don’t know the whole truth just means they don’t care; getting him in position on SCOTUS to overturn Roe vs. Wade is the top thing on their agenda to appease their hardliners and their base just before mid-terms. That is the truth. It’s all about politics and abortion.

Grey haired old men ramming a judge onto SCOTUS to make decisions about the bodies of women should outrage all women. Honestly, GOP women and men who are supporting him without even knowing if he is guilty means they care more about winning and politics than the well-being of women. I also think they probably never have been a victim of a sexual assault. I believe anyone who has been a victim of sexual assault would want to know the truth. A real man stands with women against sexual assault.

Let me say, I do not condone nor support extreme politics or the “win at all costs” energy coming from either side in Washington. I am more moderate. If these allegation are proven to be false, that would be huge step back. Brett Kavanaugh deserves to be treated fairly as does his accuser. Investigate it! Let’s also remember Gov background checks only go back to 18 years old. This supposedly happened when he was 17 years old and it would have been out of scope of his six earlier background checks. Also, new revelations about his high school year book have his references to “Devil’s triangle”. I’ll let you guys Google that as I don’t want to define it here. His college Frat had a motto, “no means yes and yes mean anal.” He also has a history of gambling debt and alcoholism. If you want to be SCOTUS, you are and should be held to a higher standard. Even if the allegations aren’t true, he is still unfit for SCOTUS. Do women really want this guy making decision about their bodies???? I DO NOT.

Believe me, I knew boys like Kavanaugh and his friends. I went to a catholic college. I went to a frat party one night as a freshman. I didn’t understand why none of the boys were talking to me then one of the guys told me it was “Ugliest girl night”. That meant the boys each put $10 into a pot and whoever had sex with the ugliest girl at the party won the pot. My friend told me I was too pretty and that’s why the boys were not talking to me. I then noticed boys talking to two of my friends. I told my friends I was sick and asked them to leave with me so I could get them out of there. Later that semester that same Frat was put on suspension because members were caught carrying a girl wrapped in a blanket across the quad in the early morning. She had been drugged and raped. I also personally know someone who was raped at a party by those same frat boys. She left school that semester and didn’t come back. She still can’t talk about it.

As mentioned above, take a few minutes and visit Twitter; search on #whyididntreport. Perhaps open a dialogue with the women in your life, especially your daughters. Find out if it happened to them. If it did, give them a safe place to release the pain. Empathy, compassion and being a good human comes before politics. Just because someone was good to you doesn’t mean they weren’t bad to someone else.

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Self care is not just about taking care of your physical body. For true healing, sometimes we have to be willing to feel, confront and live with our darkest pain to finally be free. I started Self Care Sunday with breakfast with my neighbors and other locals at the cafe up the street from me. I wrote this blog post to let it all out today. I will watch the Eagles Game because I enjoy football and I am a lifelong Eagles fan and I will try to stay off of news and Twitter for day to give myself some space.

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Baby Doll – Blue Love Poetry

ArtBaby Doll
I am here
For you
Waiting
For your touch
Ready to
Taste your lips
And feel
The heat
From your skin
Against mine
I wait
In a
See through lace
Baby Doll
Waiting to
Seduce you
Tease you
Excite you
With the
Lust of my hips
And the promise
Of an erotic kiss
Placed softly
On your lips
I wait
To beg of you
To slide your
Hands under
My baby doll
To feel my skin
Hot with desire
And feel
The essence
Of a woman
Remaining on
Your fingers
After you
Touch my desire
For you
I wait
Fulfilling my
Own desires
With you
In my mind
I rest in
Black lace
Waiting
To open my legs
To you
And let you
Into my fire
The fire
You ignited in me
So long ago
Still raging
Between my hips
Beating deep
In my amble cleavage
Pushed up
In my lingerie
Full and ready
For your mouth
To take
Ownership of
Of my body
I wait
On the other side
Of the door
For you
I’ll be standing
There in a
Black lace
Baby doll
See through it
To my naked body
Release yourself
Into my cleavage
And dive
Deep into hips
I wait here
For you
To let me
Seduce you
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NOTE: This was written for Blue Love and inspired by my new see through baby doll nitey 💙😘🔥😈

Self Care Sunday

This Self Care Sunday morning finds me on a train to DC trying to type while I’m rocking back and forth 😂 I have to meet someone at 7:30am tomorrow so I was given comp time and permission to travel today.

Things that made me happy this week were: the absolutely perfect weather this weekend. I enjoyed being outside yesterday. I also went shopping for a new work clothes and a robe. I stumbled across a delicious baby doll nitey. Out of curiosity I tried it on. I look boobilicious in it and fits me really well 😂 While I had no one to model it for Saturday night,I bought it anyway because it made me happy and made me feel sexy 🔥 Who knows maybe Blue Love will need a private fashion show from me in my see through baby doll soon – I like to be prepared and feel sexy 🔥😈Anyways, it made me feel happy and sexy to buy and wear it around the house. Hahahaha 😊💙 I am also happy I am finally going to the Museum of the Bible today in DC. I pass it a lot while in DC since it’s near work but this is the first time I can visit😊

What’s bringing me peace today? hmm? In some aspects I have peace and feel peace in my life. In other ways, things are churning in me and around me. As I allow this to come to my awareness, I am recognizing I’m feeling some instability in my life and it’s starting to feed into feelings of anxiety which means it’s time for me to create stability in my life.

Where do I feel things aren’t stable enough for me? Professionally is the biggest “grey” area of my life. Don’t get me wrong. I will not be losing my job. My job is secure. However, where I work in the “company” is in transition. I’ve been on a long term temp assignment for 8 months. I have 4 months to go. Not knowing what’s going to happen with it is causing me some anxiety. I took the opportunity to initiate conversations around the topic. I am glad I did because things started to become clear for me. As a result, I am now in consideration for a couple permanent opportunities; one of them could be my dream job 😊I have a meeting about that Tuesday. The biggest factor for me is the amount of required travel. I just have to accept & admit I do not like to travel that much. I am comfortable traveling to DC 🙌I’ve been staying at the same hotel near work so I know the area now but twice a month in a hotel is enough for me. I know one position is based where I work now. I’m not sure about the other but I don’t want to relocate either. I like living at the beach 🏖

It was good self care for me to have the awareness to see and admit the situation I am in is causing stress and anxiety. I was good self care for me to have the courage to initiate the conversations. It was good self care to reach acceptance that I need stability in my career. It’s been a fun ride but it’s time for me to wrap it up. I am happy that this experience is leading to opportunities I would not have had without the exposure this temporary assignment gave me. Hopefully, I will know where I am landing in the next few weeks.It’s exciting and makes me happy 😊😊

My health is not stable right now. I noticed today that I have more energy and my stomach is feeling a little better than it did. It’s better but not 100%. A good flare up of Gastritis with LPR can take anywhere from 6 to 8 weeks to resolve. My Doc called for me to come in and discuss biopsy results from my Endoscopy. I go 9/21. I would be shocked if I had Cancer. I really don’t think that’s what he wants to tell me. I do believe we need to change my meds, I may need another procedure and he may want me to have an Oncology consult. I am not really worrying about this too much. I’ve been able to put it out of my mind thanks to the exciting developments at work. I just want to get back to feeling good and figuring out what is causing this brutal flare up.

Poetry always makes me happy. I Included a Blue Love Haiku on this post. In case you missed it, my last post was a new original Poem, “Return To Love – Blue Love Poetry”. Scroll down to read it.

How have you practiced good self care this week? What is making you happy this week? What’s exciting you? Would a see through baby doll nitey excite you? 😂😂💙🔥🔥😘😘

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7pm update: One of my favorite Gospel songs, “Wayfaring Stranger” is featured in the Museum of Bible. So much to see there on this visit. I’ll have to come back a few times😊 I LOVED it. I also felt spiritually connected there. The Nazareth Village of Israel on the third floor is AMAZING🙌🙌🙌 It could be my DC happy place- I really am a nerd 🤓 Also, I need to read Deuteronomy! Every Bible verse quote I really like came from that book and I loved the 11:11 in this one! The next Museum I want to visit in DC is Newseum 😊I walked past it tonight after it closed.

Deuteronomy 11:11

Return To Love – Blue Love Poetry

Blue love artReturn To Love – Blue Love Poetry
The power
Of a glance
Stirring a thousand words
From the center
Of my legs
Until those thoughts
Spiral up
Into my cheeks
Flushing with
Arousal from
The crystal blue
Oceans I swim in
When you look at me
Words licked across
My nipples
Hard and erect
From your desire
Spoken to me
In sparkling blue eyes
Words whispered
Across my thighs
In your
Deep blue waters
I open
As an invitation
To brush my
Flaming fire
On your lips
Opened and ready to receive
My nourishing juices
Into your soul

If you ever doubted
My desire
Or questioned
The authenticity
Of my words
My love
Connect your eyes
To mine
And feel the power
Of the glance
That stirs a thousand words
Strung over my body
Like Christmas lights
Lighting me up
From within
If you’ve forgotten
The pulse of my love
Beating in your chest
Place yourself
In the center of
My atmosphere
And claim
The affection
That has always been yours
If you want to
Be loved
Truly deeply loved
By a woman
Whose soul speaks
The same language
As yours
And hears
The thunder of your heart
Beat in my breasts
When you are near
Return to the glance
Of my eye
My love
Return to our love
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NOTE:
It’s been an interesting few days.

This poem for Blue Love shot out of fingers in about 10 minutes💙🦋 It was inspired for sure 🦋💙 For today, I take my peace and happiness in writing poetry for Blue Love 💙

Self Care Sunday – Happy, Peace, Fire

Eckhart Tolle Quote

I’ve been writing about heavy stuff lately.  I want to write lighter for this Self Care Sunday.  Here are some things that make me happy, bring me peace and set me on fire. These lists are not all inclusive but a start towards remembering what makes me happy and makes me who I am 🦋

Things that make me happy: 😊
Writing ✍️ Writing makes me happy.  Writing is my art.  It’s how I adapt in this crazy world. It’s how I express myself. It’s how I process situations and emotions. It’s how I heal. I write on my blog and I write in my journal.  When I write – this goes for work and at home, I prefer to use only blue pens 💙 I especially love blue gel ink pens.  They write smooth.  It may seem weird or OCD to have such a ritual but I don’t like black ink – period 😂

The first sip of coffee each day ☕️ There’s something about that first sip that makes me happy and comforted all at the same time. The rest of the cup is great too but that first sip is the best part. I also love the smell of coffee. I prefer Dark Roast coffee. Dark Roast is bolder, has more flavor, less acidity and less caffeine which means I can tolerate a large DD or Wawa Dark Roast coffee without any negative effects 😊☕️ If the coffee is organic and single origin, that’s even better.

Fresh clean sheets 🛏 I hate making the bed. It’s big and has a few layers but once it is made with fresh seats it extremely comfy and cozy.

Living on the beach 🌊 I love living on the beach. I also love living in an area of the country that is so accessible to so many major cities, mountains and beaches. More importantly, I love the change of seasons. I like a rainy day like today. I like a hot sunny beach or pool day. I like a chilly day with with boots and hats. I like snow. The perfect day for me is around 70 – 75 degrees and sunny 😊

My Mom calling me honey😊 “Hiya, Honey!  How ya doin?”  That’s what I hear on the other end of the phone.  It always makes me happy.  My Mother and I have had some crazy battles with each other.  My Mom LIKES TO FIGHT!  No joke, she will take you out!  We both can have a tendency to swing first and ask questions later but I have learned to control that impulse. My Mom, however, will go a few rounds before even thinking of asking the questions. Fighting is cathartic for her; I think it’s probably why she’s 79 years old and healthy. Family members routinely try to slide out of her crosshairs before she really gets going on something. If you can go a few rounds with her once in a while, she will love and respect you forever.

Mom and I have said horrible things to each other, embarrassed ourselves and the entire family in public and at parties with our antics but it’s been a fun ride with her.  I was outside of work one day having a screaming match with her when a coworker/friend walked out.  My coworker asked if I was ok.  I said, “It’s ok. It’s just a crazy old lady driving me nuts.”  My coworker laughed.  My Mom said to me on the phone, “Really Linda?  The old lady comment was a low blow!”  We laughed.  It was over and we moved on to another topic.  That’s how we’ve always gotten along. We fight, bicker and annoy each other. Mom is no weak flower.  I am grateful that 4’11” Blue Eyed firecracker is my Mom. The below photo of my Mom and I was taken yesterday at a 30th birthday party for my niece’s fiancé 😂💙

Hanging out with my sisters 💙 Sandy passed away in 1999.  I have two sisters living.  DJ (Diane) is a straight shooter, like Mom. If you don’t want to hear the truth about something, don’t talk to Diane.  She’s full of common sense and will gladly set you straight on any topic.  Terri is my silly sister. She’s the one always made me laugh in church and then I got into trouble. Terri is funny. When Sandy was intensive care the last week of her life, Terri and I were breaking the tension by being silly.  We were making blowfish on the window of the room.  Well, all we heard Diane say was, “you two are fucking idiots” but she also was laughing.  My sisters have been my biggest fans and most loyal trusted friends.  They make me happy.

Signs 🌟 I ask my angels and guides for signs. It makes me happy to receive signs from spirits and intuition. I ask mostly ask for repetitive number and coins as my signs. 222 is my favorite repetitive number series. 222 is symbolic of partnership, love and highest good. When I receive 222 or see 222, I always say to myself, “Everything is always working out for my highest good. The love you give is returned.”💙🦋

Things that bring me peace: 🙏
Writing ✍️ Writing brings me peace. It’s cathartic.  I share my deeply personal stories and thoughts to heal myself, bring myself peace and perhaps help others heal too.

The stillness of early morning just before sunrise 🌅 It’s my favorite time of day. I switched my work schedule almost ten years ago so I would be up at or before 5:00am on work days. I like the early morning peacefulness in the office. I like driving early in the morning and driving while the sun is coming up. I also like sunset and the slow down that occurs in the evening just before dark.

My Pink Himalayan Salt Lamp 🔮 I love the warm glow in the room when that light is the only light I have on at night. Having bright lights on at night is too stimulating. I like warm mellow lighting in general.

Prayer, Mediation and Mantras 🙏💙 I talk to angels and guides all day long.  I pray throughout the day.  It brings me peace. It stabilizes me on tough days, it motivates me when I need a lift, it centers me when I need to be grounded and calm.  Through prayer, I can be the eye of the storm.

Things that light me up and set me on fire:🔥

Knowledge and learning 🌟🌸 I love to learn. I want to expand my awareness and consciousness. The more self aware we are as individuals the better we are as citizens and leaders in society. Take our President for example. A little self awareness on his part would go a long way. Every good thing that has been accomplished by him is being overshadowed by impulsiveness, rhetoric and over reactivity.

Auschwitz survivor, Viktor Frankl, beautifully said, “Between stimulus and response there is a space…In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response, lies our growth and freedom.” Choose your response instead of reacting in the moment is the lesson in his words. You can control the narrative and shift the conversation in your favor with a calm controlled response.

I grew up in a “swing first; ask questions later family” I trained myself over the years to not react. I had to have the self awareness to see I was a reactor and then learn to pull back. I had to learn to strategize the best way to respond instead running down the hall to flip out on someone or firing off a heated text or Tweet. Folks who tend to be hot heads benefit having people who can talk them back in their close circles. Anyone who intentionally fires you up, instigates you and intentionally points you in someone’s direction, is NOT a good influence. Self awareness is the hallmark of good leader and it also includes looking at your circle to be sure you surround yourself with good calming influences. Self awareness is key. Control the narrative. This is a little of the “coach” in me coming out on this topic. 😊

Growth 🌟🌸 Personal Growth through adversity, tapping into my highest good and using every last drop of my own personal power lights my soul on fire. Professional growth is also important to me. I currently find myself in a unique position professionally. While I am advocating for approval for a project I care about, I am also considering career paths that could be open to me at the end of the temporary assignment. I am not sure my current role will stay a full time gig. In my current Org, there are other opportunities in Leadership Development where I could use my coaching certification. There are opportunities as program manager and project lead in other areas. I have an interest in the Chief of Staff role. The current actor is only there temporarily. I am curious what experience would I have to gain to end up in that role. It’s nice to have options and somewhere to grow 🦋💙🌟👍

Poetry 🦋💙 Writing poetry is my art.  My soul speaks through my prose. It’s truly my passion.

Service 🙏 Being of service to others, helping people reach their highest good, motivating people, inspiring people and witnessing for people sets my soul on fire and is extremely rewarding to me.

Blue Love sets me on fire 💙His eyes light a match in me 🔥

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Viktor Frankel quote

Rainer Maria Rilke Quote

Remember George Magazine?

George Magazine

My favorite magazine to read in my 20s and 30s was George, a magazine centered around politics that was published by John F. Kennedy Jr. I actually remember reading the issue that is featured in the above photo. I’ve always been interested in politics. I am still interested in politics. I don’t want to be involved in politics and I don’t want to run for office but I like civilized politics.

I’ve been registered as an Independent or Democrat since I turned 18 years old. My entire family has been life long Republicans. I am the only Democrat. We do not talk politics in the family 😂 I tend to be a moderate blue. I don’t like the extreme ideology of either the Reds or Blues. Extremist are making politics especially troubling these days. The rhetoric is intense, inflammatory and dangerous.

If you know me personally, I am no weak flower. I do not like being bullied, pressured or coerced. The more someone pressures me, the more I will do something extreme to let them know to back the fuck off. This is where I need to make a confession and make amends to my fellow moderate liberals. In November of 2016, my pant-suit wearing friends were flooding my Facebook newsfeed with extremist rhetoric. They were texting me. I can’t even tell you many times I had to tell them to back off. I was a registered voter and have voted Blue in just about every election since I was 18. Just stop already.

Just before entering the voting booth, I got one final text and I just about lost it. So I went into the booth and voted straight Red as a fuck you 😱😱I felt immediately sick after doing it. Thankfully, my state is a Blue state and my Red vote didn’t matter in my state. However, it matters today. Everyday I get little more irritated and hope the end is in sight.

I needed to write this out loud because I felt like I let myself down. I needed to “out” myself to atone for my sins. I am true blue. How could I vote Red out of spite? I am cracking up because as I wrote “true blue” I immediately got a flash in my mind of Blue Love wearing a blue button down preppy shirt looking at me all cute with those beautiful blue eyes ☺️ I am even true blue when it comes to men. I digress, I am true blue when it comes to politics💙💙

While I am not enjoying the extreme politics and polarization in our nation these days, I am enjoying watching the democratic processes play out. I have been watching and following the SCOTUS Confirmation hearings. If you are not for Roe vs. Wade, I am not for you – bottom line! I personally do not believe in abortion. I personally would never have an abortion. However, I believe every woman has the right to make that choice. I am watching RBG tonight On Demand! RBG is about Ruth Bader Ginsburg. I am looking forward to it.

I will say that I do not plan to write about politics on this blog going forward. This is a one and done confession for atonement and just letting everyone know where I stand💙💙💙💙 I may only leave this on here temporarily. I don’t want to make this blog a target for attacks based upon what I wrote here. I will see how things play out.

As far as my work project goes, well my Legal Eagle self found a loophole all on my own while researching Statutes🙌☺️ YAY ME. Did I ever mention I got a Paralegal Certificate while in college many years ago so I know how to do Legal Research and citations? 😉😂😂😂😂 Well, we had four legal hurdles to clear. What I found this morning cleared three of them. Legal advised we only have one more to clear. However, the last one is big! It needs signature authorization as high as you can go in the “company”. We need to strategize the approach on this. I will crafting the documents for his signature & I have the support of my whole Organizational Leadership Team. I can, at least, live with myself now because I advocated to the extent possible. If nothing else, it showed management that I am no weak flower and I will fight for the things I care about 🌸🌺

My tummy is still sore and not feeling great. I am waiting the biopsy results which may not come until next week. They were not back as of this morning. It has to be something for it to hurt like this for this long ☹️

Oh yeah… Fly Eagles Fly

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