Self Care Sunday ~ Grieving is self care

Rumi 20 years and her death is still my reason. My sister died on March 9, 1999 around 4:30am with me and other family members by her side after two weeks on life support and a battle with a terminal illness. During those two weeks, I sat with her. I talked to her. I read the newspaper to her. But mostly I sat in silent prayer. Honoring the beautiful soul that made such an impact on my life. When it became clear to me that it was end, I made her promises and those promise are still the reasons for my choices today.

I promised her I would live the life I was capable of living. I didn’t live up to that promise for a long time. I promised her I would live up to the beauty she saw within me. I was so blinded by self doubt and bad influences in my life that I couldn’t see myself as beautiful. I also made sure I thanked her. Anything good that is me is there because she loved me and believe in me. I am who I am because that beautiful soul loved me and took care of me since the day I was born.

How exactly do you commemorate the 20th anniversary of the most painful day of your life? I am honoring her by finally living the life I am capable of living. No more playing small. I am making choices that are authentically aligned with my truth now. That’s the only way I can live now. Emotionally, I recognize a need for support so I went out to dinner with friends last night (Friday). It was a beautiful night out. I am going to philly for a day with the family on Sunday. Today, Saturday, I am honoring my body’s need to slow down. I am also allowing myself to feel melancholy for what I lost. I am reflecting and being thankful for how I’ve grown and changed in recent years. I am remembering where I came from with gratitude. I am reaffirming my commitment to embodying love and light as I moved forward in this life. Mostly, I am just missing my sister and wondering how the hell it still hurts so bad after 20 years. The pain of grief never really goes away. You just become desensitized to it. It’s like the chronic knee pain you’ve learned to live with as you get older. I’m still walking but my heart and soul are wounded. So today is a day for me to just allow myself to honor that feeling without pressing myself to be happy or social.

On a positive note, I received wonderful news on Thursday about a career related situation. It looks like the strategic risk I took a few weeks ago is going to work out better that I even imagined. It’s partly official but not totally buttoned up yet. I can’t celebrate yet. The dust should settle in the next week or two. A new beginning will hopefully be on my horizon by the end of March. The best part of this is — even if it does go sideways, I can live with it. I did the right thing for myself and for my Program. If I end up back where I used to work after all of this — well, that must be where I am meant to be. This positive news is helping to keep my spirits balanced on a tough emotional day.

Grief

ACTION
This week’s action is to honor where you are. Feel what you need to feel. Cry if you need to cry. Hit bottom if it’s the only way for you to rise up to the top again. Show yourself some love and compassion today.

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Grief

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Shine ~ Blue Love Poetry

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Shine ~ Blue Love Poetry
Divinely masculine
You are
Divinely masculine
I drink your
Your essence
Through my nipples
To nourish
My sexual fire
With the spark
Of your crystal eyes
I shine
For you

Divinely feminine
I am
Divinely feminine
I open
To your energy
And radiate
The glow of
Your masculine desires
From my hips
Like bolts
Of lightening
I spark
With desire
I shine
For you

You see me
In a way
I never allowed
Another man
To see me
You connect
With me
In a way
I’ve never been able
To experience
With another man
You are
My electricity
My spark
My Fire
I shine
For you

I am
Your Divine Feminine
I am Filled with
Love and joy
For you
I hold your
Passion
Between my hips
Wet with the anticipation
Of the day
You stand
In my energy
To breathe in
The fire of my
Life force
Into your chest
So you shine
Shine with
My love

Shine
My love
Shine
The light
Of my love
In your heart
Shine
For me
Connect
Your light
To mine
And
Shine
Shine
With our love
Shine

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ICYMI: Check out my last post on finding your WHY by scolling down

Love

As Always – I will be including the Loving Kindness Prayer on every post going forward because I believe love can and will triump over evil. Light will prevail over darkness. I believe we need to put LOVE into the Universe. Love each other…

Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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What’s My WHY

What’s My Why

As I sit in professional limbo, I know one thing is for sure…I refuse to make an ego-based or an emotional decision✊

The ego and emotions have no place in making a strategic decision that will affect my career in the long term. My ego would jump at a promotion as a trophy while my emotions would pull me back to my old group/job because they feel like home. The key is for me to practice non-attachment to any outcome as I explore options and let things play out a little bit longer. I just need to steady my nerves to do this 😂 Whatever is for my highest good will rise up in my soul once I detach my emotions and ego from decision making process. Everything is always working out for my highest good even if it works out differently than I expected.

Every conversation I’ve had about this just muddied the water for me even more. I was getting myself confused because I never been one to follow external guidance. I now trust my own inner guidance system more for decisions that affect my life. I was in information and emotional overload which was making the choice more complicated.

Feeling conflicted and confused, I jumped into a hot shower last night. As the hot water pounded on my tight neck & shoulder muscles, I asked myself “What’s My WHY?”

My WHY is GROWTH. Growth is my word! I want potential for long term diversified growth opportunities in my future. This decision isn’t just about what I want to do today; it’s about how I want to position myself for long term growth in the future. Getting back to my WHY cleared up all the confusion and uncertainity I was having. The choice became clear! By the end of the night, I was relaxed and felt like the heaviness lifted.

What’s your why

For now, I need to see how the ball I put into motion plays out first; they advised I they should have a decision within two weeks (if not sooner). There are variables at play and I still feel I did the right thing. I just need to wait and see how it plays out. I also have a preferred contingency plan in place. If that goes sideways too, I still have a job to go back to 😂 It’s all good! I am ok with whatever happens because I know I lived and acted in alignment with my truth and I did what is right for the program I am representing. Wherever I end up, is where I am meant to be 😊

Every choice, every decision has a lesson in it. This one is teaching me patience. It’s also teaching me to TRUST to my intuition and use strategic thinking to evaluate choices instead of my ego. I can’t be reactive and emotional with this decision.

After all of that, I slept great last night and had a visitation dream from my deceased sister. She always comes in my dreams when I need reassurance and comfort😇✌️

If you need to make a big decision in your life, try using strategic logic to help you make the decision. Sit with yourself long enough to observe if your ego or emotions are driving your decisions. Can you practice non-attachment? Can you consider strategically aligning your choice with what you want in the future rather than reacting to the demands of your ego or attachments of your emotions? Seems to be working for me 😊✨

PS: I am feeling like a Blue Love Poem is brewing… Stop back Friday for a Blue Love note💙😊✨

Strategy

As Always – I will be including the Loving Kindness Prayer on every post going forward because I believe love can and will triump over evil. Light will prevail over darkness. I believe we need to put LOVE into the Universe. Love each other…

Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

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Self Care Sunday – I Know The Way Out

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In 2011 I walked away from a life, a lifestyle, circle of friends that had a toxic hold over me. It was one of the most stressful times of my life because I was constantly attacked for being different from them and for not conforming to their ideologies. I was under constant pressure to fall in line to the “Group Think”. I was a round peg hanging around with square pegs trying to put myself into square holes with them. Living in that toxic energy everyday where the people surrounding me where trying to keep me small, almost destroyed me and actually made sick…very sick.

Eight years later and after surviving that hard transition I am in a wonderful place in my life. That hard transition led to wonderful inward journey and sparked many positive changes in my life, I am thriving. I am free from the manipulation. My self confidence is back. I am now standing in my authentic my personal power.

As I look back, I can see God wanted me to let go of that life for a long time. God had bigger plans for me than I had for myself…but I kept holding on. I kept holding on because I was afraid of the unknown and perhaps I was a bit gun shy because other changes I made didn’t work out the way I thought they would. The tighter I held on, the worst it got. Then God brought me to my knees in burnout, depression and illness.

Dear Universe

When God forced me to my knees, I finally learned to stayed there a while and rest. I didn’t rally. I didn’t force myself to get back up. I didn’t play nice. I withdrew and checked-in with myself. I prayed and evaluated my options. After taking some time to strategize things, I made a big move…I changed my life, I changed my lifestyle and removed myself from that social circle. It wasn’t an easy time of my life but going through that struggle made me stronger for everything else than has come after it.

It’s been my experience any time God wanted me to make a big change in my life, he made me as uncomfortable as possible. He broke me until I surrendered into the flow of the Universe. He broke me until I trusted him to show me the new path.

Trust me…Not walking away sooner almost killed me and certainly broke my spirit. But the question is… why was I fighting to stay somewhere I was no longer meant to be and possibly no longer truly wanted? Why was I allowing myself to be beaten down? The truth is…I was so stuck in the middle of the storm I couldn’t see I was in a storm. I couldn’t find a way out. It was like being in the middle of hurricane. You think you are ok as long as you don’t venture to far either way but each day I became smaller and part of the fire of my spirit slipped away. I couldn’t believe something better was out there for me because my self confidence was shattered and the judgment of others had me doubting my every move. I allowed the perceptions of the small minded people around me to become my truth. I allowed the “fight” and the victimization to become my story.

I can’t tell you how I finally broke the cycle. I am not sure what rose up in me to finally fight for myself. I don’t know the exact moment I chose myself but I do know…My life is dramatically different and better because I surrendered. I am better because I finally let go. I am better because I made a new life and chose a new path for myself.

This topic has been on my mind the last few days. The current situation I find myself in work is challenging but I am NOT out of my depth. I am well within the capacity of my inner strength and courage. I know I am brave enough to see how it plays out. I am a strategic thinker and risk taker. You bet your butt I have like three contingency plans in place 😂😂✌️ I also secured support to mitigate potential roadblocks. I am using the leverage I have appropriately and respectfully. I am being careful how I speak and which words I use. I am feeling hopeful that It’s going to work out in my favor. I actually saw some positive affects already but I still don’t know what job I will end up in yet 😂 I’ve surrendered…I took a stand for something I believed in and that was the right choice for me. If I lose, I lose. I can live with it. If I lose, God has something else in mind for me. Trust me, I’ve already handicapped the various outcomes 😂✌️This was a very strategic well thought out risk for me to take. Honestly, I would not have taken this kind of risk a few years ago. I would not have had the courage or confidence in myself to believe I could affect a change like this nor would I have the faith to know I will be ok no matter the outcome. When people spend all day telling you are that are you are small, you start to believe them.

Marianne Williamson quote

The other reason I was thinking about this is a friend is in a tough situation and I am concerned about her. Because of the nature of our official relationship I can’t offer to coach her. However, my unofficial observation is it may be time for her to surrender, let go and give herself a new beginning. While I did encourage her to explore other options, I stopped short of saying it was time to surrender because I believe that’s a realization she needs to make herself. I do honestly believe God may be making her uncomfortable because it’s time for her to let go and make a move. The only thing I can really do in this situation is be a supportive nurturing friend to her while she figures this out. As I do care about her very much, I reached out to a mutual friend who I know can help her. I just wanted to be sure he knew I was genuinely concerned. I believe she needs a coach not a savior or a fixer; I know he will do that for her. Hmm, maybe he and I should be Executive Coaching partners and start a business together??? LOL 😘😉 See, I’m always strategizing 🙂

Head’s Up —- Mercury Retrograde starts Tuesday, March 5th and last until March 26th. This can be a time of technical snafus and communication errors. I typically experience mail issues, phone and clock problems, electrical stuff in the house(smoke alarms), calendar mix-ups and computer problems at work. If you need to sign contracts or possibly accept job offers (I hope 🤞), be SUPER careful with words and communications. Thank God my serious work conversations are out of the way. The ball is rolling so hopefully things should be ok. I also remind folks to be careful with facial expressions like eye rolls especially in meetings. This is also a good time to revisit, reflect, rememberances, rekindling and reunions. Reach out to a friend and catch up 😊 Mercury Retrograde doesn’t have to be a time to hide. Just think twice before sending snarky emails and texts and choose your words carefully.

Mercury retrograde meme

ACTION
The Action this week is just to remember we are all in this life together. Look out for one of another. Help people when you can. Give support to those you care about and, if you are called, take a stand for something or someone you believe in.

Final thoughts…

When God drops you to your knees, stay there a while. Take the time to rest, heal and nurture yourself back to wellness. I can’t remember where I heard the below little story but I still love it…

God dropped me to my knees in a hole of depression and anxiety but guess what? I surrendered, let go and now…

I know the way out now… 😊✌️💙

As Always – I will be including the Loving Kindness Prayer on every post going forward because I believe love can and will triump over evil. Light will prevail over darkness. I believe we need to put LOVE into the Universe. Love each other…

Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

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Self Care Sunday ~ Divine Timing

Pink Himalayan Salt Stone Massage

Self Care has been focused this week on taming stress, anxiety and tension. I celebrated Friday night happy hour at my Chiropractor’s office with an adjustment and a Pink Himalayan Salt Stone Massage. I needed to get tension and stress out of my neck and shoulder muscles. It felt like I was carrying the weight of the world on me and I needed to unload.

Friday quotes

I’ve been seeing the same Massage Therapist for two years. She is also an esthetician and shares an office with my Chiropractor. I grew up with family member owing a day spa so I’ve been on massage tables since I was high school. In my younger years, I would just go about anywhere for a Massage without realizing that receiving a massage is an exchange of energy. It’s essential to be sure the person who is massage your body has good positive energy 💚 In the past, I’ve traveled to spas and getaway weekends with girls friends to get massages and facials. I don’t do that anymore. I prefer to stay with the massage therapist that I know, trust and call a friend. Her style is very nurturing and her energy is balanced and amazing. She is very caring and respectful when she massages my body. I find that comforting and trust-worthy. She knows my body. She understand my concerns. She respects my wishes. When I am laying naked on her table, I am safe. That says a lot. I’ve spent hundreds of dollars in the past at spas for the “spa” experience only to find comfort, safety and trust right in my Chiropractor’s office 15 minutes from home. I now see her every two months for Pink Himalayan Salt Stone Massages which helps with neck and shoulder tension. My TMJ has been way more manageable since I started doing this. It feels good to know I can trust her and totally relax while I am on her table.

Pink Himalayan Salt Benefits

For those not familiar but curious about Pink Himalayan Salt Stone massage, here’s what happens…My therapist heats the stones and dips them in Lavendar infused Coconut Oil before running the stones along muscles in all areas of the body. Her style integrates philosophies of Eastern medicine, Lomi Lomi, Shiatsu, Swedish massage, thermal therapy and salt therapies to create an array of possible benefits: Increase blood circulation, Reduce inflammation, Improve sleep, Induce deep relaxation and Improves overall sense of well-being – plus the hot stones feel amazing and really get the knots out! After the massage I had sushi for dinner and slept great on Friday night. I am always a little tired and very relaxed the day after a massage. I pushed through it Saturday morning and knocked stuff off the “to do” list early in the morning. I felt my body slowing down around noon and decided to retreat to the coziness of my bed Saturday afternoon with my iPad to write this blog post. I love my bedroom. It really is beautiful and comfy 🙂

Bed

I also bought a new book on Leadership by General Stanley McCrystal. I prefer to hold a real book in my hands than read on my Kindle so I bought the hard cover book. The brightness of the reading on the Kindle bothers my eyes when I read at night. General McCrystal asserts you don’t need to take Leadership training to be a Leader! I’m a couple of chapters in and I am enjoying it. It’s making me think. It’s not only an exploration of leadership styles, successes and failures it’s also chuck full of history. I’m learning stuff 😂 It’s a thick book so I will probably be reading this all week plus I need to think about stuff after I read it to absorb it 😊Since I plan to take an Executive Coaching course sometime in the future so I can add that service to my Coaching services, I like to read books on Leadership. It also helps me in my full time job too.

Leadership Books: General McCrystal

I trust my body when it tells me it needs comfort and rest. I listen when it tells me it needs to be still instead of “do”. I am going to Philly for the day on Sunday and know I will be driving a lot tomorrow so I am enjoying some downtime before a busy day tomorrow.

I am still in a transition at work. After I rejected an offer last week, my acting Director asked me to give her a little time to strategize an alternative. I was told the other day, they are indeed looking at alternatives for me so the deal isn’t dead yet 🙂 Here’s the thing, I TRUST this Acting Director that I’ve only known for a year — more than I ever trusted other managers I’ve known for ten years. I do truly believe she is on my side but I also know she will do what is best and most ethical for business. I respect that. I can’t ask for more from her. This situation is requiring me to be really patient. It’s hard not knowing how something is going to work out. I second guessed my decision a little earlier in the week until I remembered I knew in my heart and in my gut the job I rejected, the way it was structured, was not right for me. I trusted my intuition and I still feel good about that decision. I see now it’s not really about WHO I work for. I would be fine working in either organization. My intuition has been telling me this transition is about ensuring I am doing work that I find satisfying and fulfilling. It is also about ensuring I am fairly compensated for my level of responsibility and skills. I am TRUSTING my intuition on this one.

My lesson this week has been to TRUST the Universe and believe in Divine Timing. Divine Timing is the spiritual concept that things happen when they are meant to happen. You can’t rush something. Things happen in a sequence for a divine purpose.

I’ve been using these affirmations to keep my thoughts positive.
✨ I trust everything is always working out for my highest good.
✨ I trust my intuition
✨ I trust my body’s wisdom
✨ I have complete trust and faith in the Universe

Divine Timing

ACTION:
The Action for this week is to simply trust and have faith on the Divine Timing in your life. Work on trusting your own intuition. Practice patience and have faith. Consider using affirmations throughout the day to stay positive. You can use the affirmations I list above if you like, or make one for yourself. Remember…Affirmations are positive in nature; they affirm that something is true.

Diving Timing quote

As Always – I will be including the Loving Kindness Prayer on every post going forward because I believe love can and will triump over evil. Light will prevail over darkness. I believe we need to put LOVE into the Universe. Love each other…

Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

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Fire Starter ~ Blue Love Poetry

Art fire

Fire Starter ~ Blue Love Poetry
May I
Light your fire
May I
Strike the match
To inspire you
With love, support and encouragement
To grow, expand and create

Won’t you come with me
On this journey
Of growth and
Self-discovery
Will you join me in
Exploring the depths
Of our souls
Will you create
Magic
Through the fire
Of my love for you
Will you
Excavate your truth
Through the warmth
Of my empathetic compassion
Can you reach and stretch
Stretch yourself
Beyond all of your
Imagined limits
To find
The highest good
Through your
Connection to me
Your soul
Was called to
Use my love
As a light
Use my fire
As your energetic force
Use me to inspire you
To break through
The comfortable limits
That restrict you
Use me to inspire you
To find out
How far you can reach

What if you
Were just now
Getting started

What if today
Was a new beginning
For us

What if today
We made a new Soul Contract
To love and help each
As we reach
For our
Highest Good Lives

What if
Today was the time
You were supposed
To breakout
Of darkness into
The brightest expression
Of God’s perfect love
For you
Through me

What if
My soul
Was sent
By your Guides to
Shine the light for you
And help you
Set your vision
On something bigger
Than you could ever image

I ask you
To opened yourself up
To all possibilities
And consider
What could you achieve
If you were limitless

May I
Light your fire
May I
Strike the match
To inspire you
To imagine a life without limits
Can you see it
Can you feel it

May I strike
The match
Of Creation
And Spark the
Fire of our desire
In you

May I be your
Fire Starter
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As Always – I will be including the Loving Kindness Prayer on every post going forward because I believe love can and will triump over evil. Light will prevail over darkness. I believe we need to put LOVE into the Universe. Love each other…

Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

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Self Care Sunday – Trust Your Gut Instinct

Gut instinct intuition

For me, Self Care has a lot to do with following and trusting my intuition. It’s not always easy to trust the small voice inside when external forces are trying to manipulate and apply pressure. It’s not always easy to remain true to myself and honor myself while others are trying to mold me into something else. Nope, It’s not always easy to be a round peg in a world of square holes. However, I learned this week that my intuition and gut instincts have been spot on lately! I learned the value of trusting that small voice even though I started to doubt myself under external pressure.

Intuition

It all started with me basically turning down a job offer this week from the group I’ve been working with over the last year. The offer was premature. There are problems and challenges in a Program I’ve been working on during the last year that are above my level of responsibility; they need to be addressed before any long term commitments on my part can be discussed. When the topic came up, I hit the breaks HARD to force the conversation.

Well, apparently folks were shocked that I didn’t jump at the permanent opportunity and I also nixed the request to extend my temporary assignment😉It’s time for me to settle into a permanent spot that is a good fit for me on all levels. This set off a series of events culminating in my DC based Acting Director traveling up to my office to talk to me in person on Thursday 😂 For the record, I have a fabulous relationship with this Acting Director. She leads from her heart. She is authentic and honest; I genuinely like and respect her. I also love her individuality; she rocks a nose-ring that looks fabulous with her Indian skin💁🏽‍♀️ My Outreach Program would not have been able to get off the ground without her. Every read-ahead briefing I sent her in the last year came back red-lined and with comments, lots of comments 😂 She challenged me and made me better. We get along very well 👍

A few minutes into our conversation she noticed I was speaking cautiously and that’s when she gave me the green light to speak openly. I explained that I couldn’t accept a job to continue in my current role because we haven’t had any discussion about the inherent challenges to the program now that the year is over. I explained how those challenges will limit any future success. I gave her detailed information on all of the “internal” challenges including a perception from LEADERS that it is only a “vanity program” for my Sponsor. I can’t ethically represent a program I feel is disingenuous and lacks authenticity unless these challenges are addressed at a level higher than me. Well…that was a lot to say 😂😂After taking a deep breathe, she knew I was speaking the truth to her. She’s been sensing the same but wasn’t sure if her perception was right. It was during our conversation we realized we both were concerned and uneasy and I was looking out for her by slowing things down…She wants to rethink things a bit. I walked her to the van waiting to pick her up. When we hugged, she whispered in my ear that she still wants me to work for her and said our conversation isn’t over yet😂😂😂

All I am saying is that if I didn’t listen to my intuition, I could have gotten myself stuck in a program that has a hard road to future success. I would have also been stuck doing “transactional” financial work that I don’t really enjoy. Lastly, I would have been setting her up for a potential failure too. That doesn’t mean she won’t find a path to success; something could change. I actually wouldn’t mind Budget Formulation work because it is more strategic in nature but I am not interested in “approving” transactions every day for living. Nope, no thanks! Now some would say I should have leveraged this offer to get something in my old group before returning. That felt disingenuous to me. I had absolutely no intention of pursuing the opportunity the way it was presented. If my bluff was called, I would have been screwed. There was no reason to play that game with people I actually like. If the other group comes back with an offer that I would seriously consider pursuing, then I will contact my boss before accepting and have a authentic conversation. I am not a game player😉

On the other side of things, I actually feel good about going back to my old group too. I realized that I was just burnt out when I left them a year ago. I shut down to all conversations and wanted to take a break from them because I was exhausted and burnt out. I am refreshed now. I am also better at enforcing boundaries and taking care of myself now. I recognize that I need to speak up when I am approaching burn out. The problem was that group was in one crisis after another for a long time and I didn’t see an end to it. I took the opportunity to have a different experience and take a break from it. I had a great year and great experience but if it’s time to go back, it’s time to go back. I am looking forward to helping them again. I am just going to trust my intuition.

Intuition

I am still not sure how this all is going to work out in the coming weeks. In meantime, I’ve decided to disconnect from it for a bit. I have four day weekend from work. I am in training on Tuesday and off on Wednesday to go back to Jefferson Hospital for a follow up. Hopefully, I’ll have until next Thursday to take a break from the stress of this situation.

My other exciting news from the week is that I finally applied for Board Certification from the American Association for Drugless Practitioners. Once this done, I can call myself a Board Certified Holistic Health Practitioner and add CHHP after my name. I can still call myself a Integrative Nutrition Health Coach but this will let me order hair and mineral tests for clients as well as state credentialing. I am also interested in taking a professional development course for Executive Coaching certification. I am still looking into this. The course I want is expensive. I am not ready to finance this just yet; nor am I ready to go back to school just yet. I need my career situation to settle down a bit before committing to that. This is all part of my plan to build up my second post-retirement career in Coaching under my own LLC while working on my first career.

ACTION
The Action this week is to spend some time tuning into your intuition. Your intuition is the small voice inside of you that often tells you to do things that are scary 😂 Your intuition is the small voice that tells when something isn’t right for you. Your intuition is the small voice that knows what is in alignment with YOUR highest good. Your intuition is what prevents you from being manipulated!

How to tune into your intuition?
✨ Trust & follow your instincts. The more you do this the stronger your intuition will be!
✨ Limit your use of alcohol and drugs. They numb your inner voice!
✨ Surround yourself with people who are positive and uplifting! Negativity is draining!
✨ Disconnect from noise & distractions. Take a break from the TV, phone and radio!
✨ Meditate and Pray. Some of my best inner wisdom comes to me while sitting in prayer!
✨ Talk to your Guides & Angels – Ask them for help. Ask them for a sign.
✨ Speak your truth even when your voice shakes!
✨ Open your Heart Chakra so you can hear the wisdom of your heart. Wear green and google “Heart Chakra”. Heart opening Mantra is below.
✨ Open your Third Eye Chakra. Wear Indigo and educate yourself on the Third Eye Chakra. Third Eye opening Mantra is below.
TRUST YOURSELF!

Chakras

Heart Chakra

Third Eye Chakra

As Always – I will be including the Loving Kindness Prayer on every post going forward because I believe love can and will triump over evil. Light will prevail over darkness. I believe we need to put LOVE into the Universe. Love each other…

Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

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Blue Love Valentine’s Day 2019

Art Art by Erica Wexler http://www.instagram.com/ericawexler

Blue Love Valentine’s Day 2019
I still
Hear the call
Of your heart
Reaching out
To mine
Reminding me
We are still
Connected
Connected today
By the red
Valentine’s threads

We both know
All the reasons
Why we shouldn’t
Love each other
We both know
Our hearts
Shouldn’t beat
In tandem
To the rhythm
Of our divine attraction

Yet my heart
Still rests in your hands
And your soul
Is still woven
In my mine
Growing
Through me
Growing
With me
Growing
In me

Perhaps
You will always
Be a part of my heart
You staked your claim
To your territory
And colored
My soul
The same color blue
That I see
In your eyes

Perhaps
I will always
Be the love
You never knew
You needed
And now
Don’t want
To be without

Maybe our separation
Was only part
Of our journey together
Temporary
Only
To show us
That even with
Time and distance
Our love has been
Strong enough to
Keep us connected
As two halves
Needing and wanting
Each other
To feel whole

Perhaps
We will remain apart
Living life
Without each other
Holding other hands
And pretending
They feel like
Our love but
Always knowing
It’s each other
We miss
I suspect
I will still
Genuinely love you
No matter
If we are together
Or apart
You’ve become part
Of me now
Unconditionally

Our love
Is big enough
To love each other
Unconventionally
But my body
Craves the fire
That only ignites
Between us
When we are
Together
Face to face
Eye to eye
When your masculinity
Joins my Feminine energy
And lights our spark

I know
All the reasons
Why we shouldn’t
Love each other
But I
Still do

I send my
Love for you
Into the winds
And kiss
My warmth
Into your Third Eye
I light your
Soul with peace and joy
While I hold
Your heart gently
In the palm
Of my hands

Until my eyes
Lock with yours again
Know this
I know all the reasons
Why I shouldn’t
Love you
But I still do
Happy Valentine’s Day

As Always – I will be including the Loving Kindness Prayer on every post going forward because I believe love can and will triump over evil. Light will prevail over darkness. I believe we need to put LOVE into the Universe. Love each other…

Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

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Self Care Sunday – What does your body need?

Body quotes

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It’s Saturday and I had to struggle to get myself out of bed today. I feel old, slow and irritable today. Some days are like this. I’ll be 52 years old next month. While I generally feel good most days lately, some days my body feels every bit of those 52 years. Today is that day and it’s ok. It’s all ok.

I got a chiropractor adjustment last night for the first time in two months so my back is a little sore from that. He told me I was way out of alignment and my right hip was riding like two inches higher that the left. That explained the hip pain while doing yoga in recent weeks. Somehow I’ve managed to walk 10,000 steps every day and close all of my Apple Watch activity Rings every day since December 27th even with a sore hip. As you get older, you get used to moving through pain. I’ve also learned it’s worse when I am inactive for long periods of time. I force myself to move even when I’m sore.

chiropractor quotes

My TMJ and the arthritis in the left side of my jaw have also been flared up in recent weeks. I mostly blame stress and anxiety for that. That’s my stress spot. I aggravated it by eating things that are crunchy/chewy. I went out to dinner with friends earlier in the week and order a delicious hangar steak. I had the left overs the next day. I haven’t eaten steak in a while because it can be hard to chew. I am paying for it but it was worth it. As you get older you collect more aches and pains but you can’t stop moving or living. I slept late today and allowed myself to move at slower pace but I still walked 10,000 steps and closed my activity rings even with a sore hip and a sore jaw! I will confess by 5:00pm I was toast and could barely get off the sofa to make myself dinner. This Saturday has been about surrender and allowing my body rest and repair while still moving.

I did something this past week that I don’t often do. I asked someone for guidance. I never really ask anyone for guidance/help because I’ve learned to trust my own inner wisdom. I also don’t trust a lot of folks because everyone is running their own game and doing what’s best for them. I’ve learned to look after myself and live by intuition. No one looks after me like I do…However, in this situation I was feeling like I was too far in the middle of a situation to see a clear path forward and I don’t know the bigger picture – so many variables are in play.

Ask for help quotes

I went to bed Wednesday night with the situation heavily on my mind and I had the funniest dream. I had a dream BlueLove and I were on a roller coaster and at the top of a steep long drop. I was SCREAMING – I mean SCREAMING 😵😂 I hate roller coasters. As we started going down, I started screaming and grabbed onto him 💙 I held onto him like my life depended on it 😂 💙 He was just sitting there looking at me and smiling with that “you’ll be fine” look 😊 I woke up as soon as I had the dream. I giggled because the dream was true to life 😂 I hate roller coasters as much as he loves them and he does give me that same look when I start to freak out😂 Anyway, I fell back to sleep but remembered the dream when I woke up. After thinking about it, I decided the dream was my intuition telling me to reach out to him for guidance because I do trust him. He’s one of the few I trust completely 💙 I really don’t know how the situation is going to work out. Only time will tell. I will trust everything is always working out for my highest good.

Roller Coaster Meme

The point of relaying the above story is that sometimes self care is about having the self awareness to know when it’s time to ask for help or guidance. Sometimes life is that way. Sometimes we need to ask for help. Sometimes we need to rely on experts. Sometimes another can see things with the clarity we can’t because we are too vested in the outcome or maybe we don’t know the bigger picture. The key is to be open enough and self aware enough to ask. The other key is to be sure to ask someone you trust.

ACTION
The action for the week is to check in with your physical body.
✔️What is your body asking of you?
✔️What is your body telling you?
✔️Is your body asking for rest?
✔️Is your body asking for movement?
✔️Is your body asking for tender, loving care?
✔️Is your body telling you something is injured or perhaps needs medical attention?

Scan your body and notice all your aches and pains. Are any of them new? Have any of them intensified? Is it time to seek help or care? Can you send love to all of your aches and pains and accept yourself just the way you are? 💙

Body quotes

WHATEVER IS FALLING AWAY IS NO LONGER FOR MY HIGHEST GOOD!

As Always – I will be including the Loving Kindness Prayer on every post going forward because I believe love can and will triump over evil. Light will prevail over darkness. I believe we need to put LOVE into the Universe. Love each other…

Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

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Self Care Sunday – The Waiting

Dark hallwayWe are all waiting in one way or another. We are all waiting for something. We are all waiting for someone. Some of us are patient with waiting. Others of us are impatient with waiting. One thing is for certain. We all wait for something at some point in our lives.

Some of us are waiting to be happy. We tie our happiness to a future event instead of today. We place all the weight of our happiness on a new house, new job, new car or new relationship. Instead of loving ourselves today we wait for someone to valid us externally; we place our happiness in the hands of another instead of owning it ourselves today. Are you happy today?

Tom Petty says, “The waiting is the hardest part!”. Waiting to be happy is truly the hardest part. The waiting is limbo. The waiting is the unknown. When we are waiting, we have no control. Waiting can make us feel powerless. Waiting can be filled with anxiety and worry. Waiting can be stressful. The longer we wait, the more anxiety we feel. Waiting robs us of joy today. How do we cope with the waiting? How do we cope with being in the unknown?

The times in my life when I’ve been waiting for something have truly been some of the most challenging times of my life. In past, I was impatient. I looked externally to find happiness and fulfillment. Happiness for me was always tied to a future event. I was waiting on something external to make me happy without realizing the power to be happy was within me all along. Over time I learned to embrace the times of waiting with anticipation and excitement. I started telling myself things like, “won’t it be so wonderful once I get that new job!” I started changing the energy I was sending into the Universe from negative worry/anxiety to positive anticipation and excitement.

Honestly, the biggest lesson I’ve learned about handling the times of waiting in my life is to LET GO! Let go! I’ve learned to surrender. I’ve learned we can’t control what we can’t control. Nothing will change that. Simply recognizing when something is outside of my control was an important step towards me learning to let go of the stress and anxiety of the “waiting”.

I also learned that practicing gratitude for everything I have today in the present moment was an important way for me to find happiness in the present moment. It’s made me more joyful in the present moment. Tapping into the feeling of gratitude creates excitement and fulfillment which counteracts the anxiety of the unknown. It’s about changing the internal dialogue from worry and anxiety to gratitude, anticipation and excitement. This is mind trick! You are training your mind to be excited instead of stressed. It can be challenging to do this at first but eventually it gets easier and it works.

ACTION
This week’s action is reflect on how you feel about the unknown. Are you waiting to be happy in future? Can you focus on finding happiness within yourself today?

Practicing gratitude can be an effective way to raise your vibration and change the anxiety of waiting to anticipation and excitement for the future. A simple gratitude practice is to reflect on five things you are grateful for each morning or each evening before going to sleep. I tend to say thank you and gratitude prayers in my morning conversation with God, Angels, Guides and Spirits while I drive to work.

Gratitude

Gratitude

As Always – I will be including the Loving Kindness Prayer on every post going forward because I believe love can and will triump over evil. Light will prevail over darkness. I believe we need to put LOVE into the Universe. Love each other…

Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

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