Eye Of The Soul – Poetry

Eye Of The Soul Watercolor by Linda Long

Eye Of The Soul – Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

Looking within
My soul
I found you
Standing there
As if you were
Waiting for me
Waiting for me
To see you
I wandered away
From you
I was complacent
And eventually
Lost touch
With the fabric
Of my own soul
I heard the whispers
From inside
I just wasn’t ready
To listen
I saw
The truth
Behind the lie
I was living
Every day
I knew
I sold my soul
For a paycheck
And security
I walked around
For while
In complete
Brutal consciousness
Of what I lost
And what
I was becoming
But I was afraid
Afraid to let go
The grass
Isn’t always greener
I made
One excuse
After another
Until my body
Broken down
As if throwing
The gauntlet down
In front of my soul
Forcing me
To rise over the fear
Making me see
My body wasn’t
Breaking down
Out disease or illness
It was breaking
Down
Because my mind
Body and spirit
Were no longer
In harmony
The negative chaotic
Energy that surrounded
Me daily
Caused me constant
Agitation
The overwhelming
Negative chaotic
Energy in my work
Environment was
Holistically unhealthy
For me
But I was still
Still unsure
Of my next steps
And then
One day
It was clear
I gathered my courage
From my blue eyed
Inspiration
I took a deep breath
And
Jumped into
The eye of my soul
I started to see
Things clearly
I started to understand
That this
Opportunity was special
Created just for me
And if I wasn’t open
To receiving it
I may never
Get another one
And over time
Every obstacle
Was eliminated
And I flowed
Effortlessly
Towards my soul’s
Calling
Unsure where
This will take me
I surrender to the
Creation process
And live
Live my life
From the
Eye of my soul
Seeing life
Living life
As my soul
Directs me
I am finally free
I am free
I live my life
Through the
Eye of my soul
I am finally free

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NOTE After my first week in my new job, I can say for sure my new work environment will be holsitically healthier for me than the one I left. I am highly motivated to make my Program a success so I can stay with this new group 🙂

I am sensitive. I’ve always been sensitive to noise, people’s emotions and especially energy. Lately, especially the last year, my sensitives have grown with my intuition. Honestly, The collective energy of the group/work environment I left shifted and it is NOT balanced or stable. It feels too chaotic. It’s in constant motion and that is not healthy for an organziation. My new work environment is calmer, healthier and quite honestly people do not have as much access to me in this new role. Also, I am vision setter in this new role. I have an opportunity to really do something amazing in the “company”.

As I reflect on how I got here, I am grateful for inspiration and courage I got from Bluelove to step out of the comfort zone and pursue this opportunity. I feel like I am finally working in alignment with my soul💙🦋 I am finally seeing life through the eye of my soul. For me, it was learning about Integrative Nutrition Primary Foods that helped me make the connection.

I took my third test at IIN today and passed. We are moving into our last Quarter in school. Most of the nutritional education is over and we are now focusing on Primary Food, coaching skills and business development. Since I do already have a full time job, I plan to only do coaching as my part time job. I also decided to focus my coaching on Primary Foods, Life Coaching and Holistic Wellness instead of nutrition(diet) health counseling. The coaching skills I am learning are actually going to help me at my full time job too 🙂 I am looking forward to graduation in May. It will be nice to be done school and get that off my plate.

If you would like to learn more about Primary Foods or would like to schedule a 30 minutes consultation to explore if my health coaching services would be of benefit to you, I invite you to either visit the Coaching Services page of this website and or contact me directly at:

linda@writingholistically.com

Please visit my Coaching Services Page:

https://writingholistically.com/certified-health-coaching/

For more information about IIN’s Primary Foods:
https://www.integrativenutrition.com/blog/2016/08/why-primary-food-is-integrative-nutrition-s-key-to-health-and-happiness

Writing Poetry Is My Soul Food – Health Coaching

Mermaid Ocean Heart Love Bluelove Are you in touch with your soul? Can you hear it when it tries to talk to you? Do you recognize the voice within you urging to care for yourself on a deeper level?

For me, the voice of my soul often expresses itself through the written word. I write… I write because my soul needs me to write. My soul especially loves to express itself through poetry. I have been writing poetry since I was 15 years old. It is very soothing me to write my thoughts and feelings out in free verse.

Love poetry, especially, is my passion. Nothing inspires me to write more than feeling a deep connection to a man. Over the course of the last 35 years of my life, I have written poetry for a few men but none have compared to the depth and breadth of my Bluelove collection. In writing poetry for Bluelove, I truly found my voice as poet and as a woman. By writing poetry for Bluelove, I learned about myself and deepen my ability to love without conditions or expectation. By writing for him I have deepen my connection to my own soul and honed my craft of the written word.

Writing poetry is a spiritual practice for me. It provides me nourishment on a soul level. To connect this post back to Holistic Health Coaching, writing poetry for me is a mind, body, spiritual practice that balances and nourishes me holistically. According to Integrative Nutrition’s principles writing poetry nourishes me in my Primary Food area of Spirituality.

Writing poetry is only one of the ways I connect with my spirit. I also meditate, pray, practice yoga, chant mantras and paint watercolors.

How do you feed your and nourish your spirituality?

Below is a new a poem I wrote for the Bluelove Collection:

My Blessing – Love, Sex & Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

As we
Move through
This world
In different directions
Each walking
Different paths
Towards our
Highest good
I call on God
And our Guides
To strengthen us
By reassuring
That the depth
Of our spiritual bond
Will keep us connected
I have faith
That our connection
Is not defined
By the closeness
Of our proximity
Instead
It is defined
By bond of our souls
As much I
Want to look
Into your beautiful
Blue eyes
Every day
For the rest of my life
I am also aware
There is something
Happening now
Right now for
Both of us
We are both
Refining ourselves
Stretching into new skin
Transforming our souls
Striving for our best
And highest good
Perhaps
During this time
Of self-expression and growth
We need to
Walk the path
Physical alone
While still
Knowing our
Soul Connection
Our spiritual connection
Is unbreakable
It was today
I felt
I needed to
Remind you
My Bluelove
You are never far
From me
Our connection
Does not require
Your presence
For me to feel you
Our souls
Recognized each other
Before our eyes
Ever saw
The depth of
Sexual lust and desire
We have shared
Over the last five years
As we move
With the wind
Of change
Carry me close to your heart
I am not looking
To leave you
I am only
Looking to
Find a part of myself
I lost a long time
Ago when I settled
For contentment
And played smaller
Than my capabilities
In these years
Of living a life
Less than the one
I am capable
Of Living
I lost the person
I was born to be
The natural risk taker
The girl with moxie
The unhappiness
Of living without
Authenticity pushed
So hard against my spirit
It almost broke me
But it most certainly
Was never about you
You are
One of my blessings
Our connection
Nurtured and fed
My Soul
Until love
Bluelove
Blossomed in my heart
You spark my sexuality
And
Inspire my poetry
You helped me
Grow into a
A stronger braver woman
Who had the courage to
Pursue the call
Of her soul
While my body
Misses the
Energy of lust
You being near
To me stirs
Between my legs
I take comfort
In the knowledge
That our connection
Is strong and
Resilent
It’s capable of
Withstanding change
And distance
It can grow and evolve
With us
And make us stronger
Together instead
Of break us apart
Take comfort
My love
You are still my
Bluelove
And I still
Carry you
In my heart
(C) 2018 Linda A. Long, Highest Good Holistic Health Coaching, LLC – All Rights Reserved

If you would like to learn more about Primary Foods or would like to schedule a 30 minutes consultation to explore if my health coaching services would be of benefit to you, I invite you to either visit the Coaching Services page of this website and or contact me directly at:

linda@writingholistically.com

Please visit my Coaching Services Page:

https://writingholistically.com/certified-health-coaching/

For more information about IIN’s Primary Foods:
https://www.integrativenutrition.com/blog/2016/08/why-primary-food-is-integrative-nutrition-s-key-to-health-and-happiness

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I Am Out Of The Comfort Zone

Comfort zone art

In May 2017 I enrolled in the Institute Of Integrative Nutrition(IIN) online Health Coach course after search on what is health coach on health coaching websites. I did it because I was having health problems and felt I was not managing them properly. I enrolled in the course to learn how to take better care of myself overall. I also wanted to learn how to care for myself holistically by looking at my mind, body and spirit as one unit. Over the last seven months I’ve learned how to eat better as well as pay attention to food labels, food shop better and eat cleaner. I’ve also stopped eating Dairy back in June. I only eat it as treat on cheat days. Since January 2017 I’ve lost 20 pounds.

Something else happened since starting IIN in May. Something so much more important and profound happened to me spiritually. Over these last seven months, I started really looking at my life and asking myself “Am I fulfilled?” IIN teaches about Primary Food. IIN refers to Exercise, Spirituality, Relationships and Career as our Primary Food. In other words, we gain nourishment by finding fulfillment and happiness in those four non-food primary areas of our lives.

It was around the end of the summer that I started to break down those four areas of Primary Food and really look that them in the context of the question, “Am I fulfilled?”. That’s when I realized I wasn’t fulfilled in Relationships and Career. The relationship area of my life is complicated. I have a lot loss and heartbreak in my past. My lack of fulfillment was because I closed myself off from people family and friends who wanted to have a place in my life. I withdrew and disengaged out of fear of loss. In some cases I was feeling like I needed more than some individuals could offer me. The relationship area of my life is complicated. It’s going to take time for me work through things that have come up but at least I allowed myself to see it. I allowed myself to open up and see what was hurting me. I am working on healing those parts of my soul.

While I started working on the relationships area of my life, I was also becoming uncomfortable at work. That uneasy feeling was creeping in. There was a lot of change, constant chaos and churn in work. My jaw started to lock up from stress until it was so clenched and painful I could barely open my mouth. I had to take a week off from work and worked from home for week to allow my jaw to rest. While I was home, I was asking myself the question every day, “Am I fulfilled?” The answer was, “No, I am not fulfilled?” But, I felt I couldn’t leave. I am loyal and felt I had to stay. Well, that was my excuse anyway…

I told myself I would not look for a job and that things would get better. I remember saying to my Mom, “I don’t feel like looking for a new job but if a new opportunity manifests on it’s own, I would pursue it.” The very next day my new opportunity was waiting for me in my inbox. I love when the Universe answers the call that quick. Within a few days I approached my new manager and asked him I could take a one year assignment outside of our organization. Not a easy thing to ask and he was certainly in a tough spot. But, he said yes because he believed it was the right thing to do.

So, I decided to leave a group I worked in for the last ten years and following my soul’s calling towards work I hope will be more fulfilling. Today was my last day. I am nervous. I am scared. I am excited. I am proud of myself for having the courage to step outside of the comfort zone. I am proud of myself for following the signs the Universe was giving me. I am a whole mixture of emotions today. I am trusting that I am being lead to another step on the road to my highest good and I am letting go of being comfortable.

When I started school back in May to learn how to eat better and how to take better care of myself, I never thought it would lead to me changing jobs. My first day in my new job is Monday. Well, honestly, Monday is my official first day but it’s also kind of a transition day so probably my real first day is Tuesday. I will be writing about this exciting journey I am on over the next year. Please read along and see what happens as I start exploring life outside of comfort zone.

I ask you today, “Are you fulfilled in your Primary Foods?” If you would like to learn more about Primary Foods or would like to schedule a 30 minutes consultation to explore if my health coaching services would be of benefit to you, I invite you to either visit the Coaching Services page of this website and or contact me directly at:

linda@writingholistically.com

Please visit my Coaching Services Page:

https://writingholistically.com/certified-health-coaching/

For more information about IIN’s Primary Foods:
https://www.integrativenutrition.com/blog/2016/08/why-primary-food-is-integrative-nutrition-s-key-to-health-and-happiness

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IIN, Integrative Nutrition

My Intentional Difference Exercises 


I’m in a growth spurt☺️😁 Reflecting and evaluating myself to facilitate growth and new opportunities both personally & professionally. I’m working with “Your Intentional Difference”, a Coaching book to help identify what makes me different & how to harness that difference to affect growth & change in my life. A link to purchase the book on Amazon is below.

I’m about half way through the book now. I’m taking a break to review and reflect on the exercises I completed thus far. The first exercise was to identify three words which are my Critical Outcomes, in other words, the words most used to describe me. What’s my Brand? My three words are pretty strong words.

Honesty – It’s important for me to honest and authentic on all levels with myself and others. I chose to be authentic in my words and actions so people can trust and believe in me. This makes me a pretty good employee. I try my best. I have the best intentions. I have integrity.
Undaunted – I’m not daunted when things are difficult. Disappointment motivates me. I like to prove people wrong. In some regards I’m fearless. I will gladly stand up to a bully, I don’t back down. I would rather stand alone than be in any clique. I don’t follow self appointed leaders. That pisses people off sometimes because they can’t manipulate, control me or threaten me. But I have the utmost respect for people in leadership positions and often seek their counsel.
Determined – I’m determined to succeed in life. I’m determine to be a kind, caring, compassionate person while pursuing my own goals. I will overcome obstacles between me and self awareness. I’m determined to do what others think I can’t do. I’m determined to stand my ground. If you take a swipe at me and try to knock me down a peg because you think I need to be, guess what? You just triggered that part of my brain that tells me to dig my heels in further, work harder, grow more, open myself up more and succeed in spite of your attempt to push me down. Remember this… I won’t swipe back. But, I’ll remember and use the experience to grow. Because I am determined it is important for me to do what others say I can’t do. It motivates me to prove them wrong😁 See how that works? Motivation can come in many forms. As Christina Aguleria sings, “Thanks for making me stronger!”

The next exercise was most revealing because it actually helped me work through a professional issue I’ve been having. It was an exercise to identify my Driving Passion.
It started with answering the following questions:
What keeps me up at night?
What do I think about over and over again?
What ignites my creativity?

My answers were:

What keeps me up at night?
The hunger for growth.
The need for self-awareness.
The craving for knowledge and learning.
Serving others with my abilities and skills.
Making a meaningful contribution in this life and at my work.
Expansiveness – The need to expand my mind & experience.

What do I think about over and over again?
Self evolution
Self development
Ways I can help others succeed
Staying grounded and open to change
Strategizing solutions to problems
How to make things better personally & professionally

What ignites my creativity?
Problem solving
Helping others
Unanswered questions
An open mind

What is the one thing that motivates me?
Knowledge
Growth
Self awareness
Making a meaningful contribution
Proving my critics wrong
Standing strong in the face of adversity
Motivating and helping others succeed

After I completed this exercise and I reflected on a current professional situation. I realized what the problem is. I, by nature, need to grow, expand, do something meaningful. While I feel like I’m being held back from growth for the convenience of others.

I inherently need to creative problem solve and relate with others while I feel some of my current responsibilities are restrictive and better suited for someone who more on the clerical level. It doesn’t mean I’m a “Princess”. The talk of my critics is more reflective of their negative nature than mine. It means I know who I am. I know what I am capable of doing. I know what I need to do authentically as part of my nature.

One of my blessings is that I’m lucky enough to learn quick and be good at most things. But it can be a curse when it seems I am held back or pigeon-holed because I do something well because I am a professional and I take pride in my work.. Yet, I despise doing it because it is restrictive and holds me back from expansive work. Just because I am good at something doesn’t mean I should continue to do things I’ve outgrown. It does mean that it is time for me to work with my leadership to use me to my fullest potential. The solution can come in many forms one which is being a dedicated staff member to a group that works to support the organizational mission or a dedicated staff member in managing our Portfolio. It’s perfect fit for someone like me. I’ll discuss this with my leaders later.

I am hoping to work it out to the benefit of all parties. I don’t want to leave where I am for a few reasons. But, I realized I am at a breaking point on this issue which I have been trying to work out for two years. If I am forced to do it without an exit plan in sight & it can’t be worked out, I know now I am willing to let go, move on and try something new. It is causing me a great deal of stress, anxiety & unhappiness. It has to change or I have to change. I may not know what I want to be when I grow up. I realized I don’t need to know that. I like being a Jack of all trades with wide skillset. Opportunities will present themself as long as I am willing to change and let go, if necessary. I do know who I am and I know I need to do work that is authentically aligned with who I am. That is happiness for me. That is authentic for me because it’s part of my DNA. And, that is the crux of the problem I’ve been navigation recently.

So glad I am reading this book. It’s already been really helpful this week. I’m very grateful to one of my Mentors/Coaches for suggesting it. I am also glad I stepped away from the situation for a few days and took a staycation. It helped me work though a few things and gave me the space I needed.

The quote above by Frank Underwood on “House of Cards” resonates with me. Treading water(Standing still)is drowning for me. I guess I need to make sure people are aware of that ☺️🙏

Music “Listen” by Beyonce from “Dreamgirls”. Yep, Listen Up!

Sugar, Sugar, Candy Girl ~ Part Two ~(REVISED)


I rode the Tram Car on the AC Boardwalk today. The Jitney drives like 100mph down Pacific Ave. The Tram Car drives like 5 mph on the Boarwalk. It was sloowwww. I could have walked quicker😄😄

I’m sitting on the third floor of The Pier in Atlantic City, NJ waiting for an appointment at the Apple Store Genius Bar. Since the iOS 8.02 upgrade on my 5C, Safari Browser has been hanging up & I’m getting a download error message on my iPad Air. Both worked fine before the “upgrade”. If it’s way of trying force people to buy the iPhone 6, sorry I’m not interested in paying $300 for a phone AT&T will give me for $100 in September. When Apple Texts me to come back, I’ll pause this blog & resume after the appointment is over. Now for the Sugar update…

I drove up to Philly for an appointment with the Reproducitve Endocrinologist. The drive up was enjoyable. I hit no traffic. I always make my appointments in the city at 11:00am to avoid rush hour. I enjoyed the view of the city on the Schuykill Expressway so much I missed the Vine Street Expressway exit and didn’t even notice until I got to the Philly Zoo. I took the West River Drive back into the city which has a fanstastic view of the city as well.

The Doctor’s appointment was interesting. It’s looking more like my blood sugar & Insulin levels spiking and crashing have been causing my hormonal issues. The Doctor told me a Hystectomy or any invasive procedure is off the table until we see how my body responds to the new diet. She said it could take six months to a year for the dust to settle. But we should have a good indication in another three months. In six months, the multiple Ovarian Cyst and missed periods may not be a problem because stabilized blood sugar should help both or I could already be in Menopause😄 I’m hoping for the later😉

I learned yesterday that there are Insulin Receptors on the Ovaries. High levels of Insulin in the body will cause Ovarian Cysts & interfer with Ovulation. While I wasn’t perscribe any medicine, I was given the following advice:

    Take a 1/2 teaspoon of Cinnamon daily, preferably sprinkled throughout the day. It controls blood sugar and Insulin spikes.
    I was also told to continue the low sugar low simple carb diet.
    High Quality Organic Dark Chocolate in small portions is ok because it’s low in sugar and high in nutrients.

The doctor also told me caffeine is off limits. It spikes blood sugar. Decaf may do it too. I told her I’m NOT giving up coffee but will be sure to drink decaf.Also, I may need another Bladder Scope in a few months after we see what happens with diet changes.

The Doctor gave me a prescription for a Pelvic Ultrasound for the future. She wants me to wait after next week to do it to see if I get a period. If the pelvic pain nags on for too long or if the crazy bad pain i had last week returns, she wants me to try & get the ultrasound while I have the intense pain. She thinks the pain I had last week was actually a cyst on my left ovary rupturing but since the pain subsided, no use having an unnecassary test.

It blows my mind that my blood sugar and insulin are the source of my gynocological issues. But, but knowing it, I feel empowered. I can do something about this. I can do something really good for myself by learning to eat appropriately for someone with blood sugar issues. I don’t need surgery and it’s not life threatening. It’s Sugar. Just sugar. I’ll survive without it.

I had dinner with my best friend last night. We do a one to one dinner once a month. It was wonderful, as always. She finished Chemo a few months ago. She told me last night she had a Pet Scan on Wednesday. There are a few new spots on her Lungs. She sees the Oncologist at Fox Chase which is a few blocks from my Mom’s house in Philly, on Monday. We decided to think good positive thoughts. She feels good and looks great; Nothing like when she was first diagnosed with Cancer two years ago. We agreed to not call the spots Cancer unless the Oncologist says that’s what is. She was diagnosed with Peritoneal Cancer two years ago. Peritoneal Cancer is a female cancer that is especially aggressive and often diagnosed late stage. She has been beating the odds thus far. It’s in God’s hands to ensure she continues to do so.

Just spent two hours in the Apple Store. The boy genius wiped both devices clean and reinstalled my backup. The problems should be corrected. However, the workaround for the phone issue is to use the Chrome App as my browser instead of Safari because Chrome didn’t have a load issue on 5C. If the problem comes back on the iPad, I’ll have to reset it as a new device and not reinstall a backup but recreate instead.
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