Grateful for A Great Year

Goddess quote

This is a gratitude post. I am expressing gratitude because 2018 was a great year for me.

2018 was a great year because I found my true authentic voice and learned how to advocate for my needs assertively without creating friction.

2018 was a great year because I focused my own self care the whole year. I focused on nurturing my soul and tending to my own garden without taking care of everyone else around me. While I had my challenges, including breaking my foot in April, I learned to surrender. I learned to accept that I need a slower lifestyle than other folks. I need more rest. I need less social interaction. I need more sleep. I learned it’s ok for me to just “be” instead of “do”. I need less social media and I learned I enjoy the silence.

2018 was a great year because I healed. I healed from past traumas. The truth is I will always have PTSD from being sexualty assaulted by family member. I will always have PTSD from repressed greive from my father’s death when I was seven but in 2018 I learned how to live with those feelings. I learned how to open myself up and feel it. I felt it all. I let myself go to the depths of despair and cry. I let myself sit in silence and depression. I let myself suffer and live with the pain. I let the memories come up so I could heal and release them. I healed in 2018.

2018 was a great year because I grew professionally. I proved to myself that I could take on a big challenge and handle it successfully. Now as I stand at crossroads professionally, I am open to all opportunities. I am looking forward to seeing what comes next. I trust everything is always working out for my highest good. I let go of trying to control the way the Universe flows and instead I am flowing with it. I’m looking forward to exploring my options and am excited to see what direction I will go in 2019.

Abraham Hicks

2018 was a great year because my spiritual practice deepened. My awareness opened. I started to look at things differently. I woke up.

2018 was a great year for me! It was great year because I grew; I expanded and I stepped into my own personal power. I embraced the goddess within.

2018 was a great year. I wanted to take a moment and express gratitude into the Universe for giving a great year before 2019 really gets going. I am thankful for all the lessons I’ve learned. I am thankful I learned to take care of myself. I am thankful I learned to let go. I am thankful I learned to go with the flow. Thank you Universe. I am grateful and I am eagerly looking forward to the future.

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As Always – I will be including the Loving Kindness Prayer on every post going forward because I believe love can and will triump over evil. Light will prevail over darkness. I believe we need to put LOVE into the Universe. Love each other…

Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

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Friday Feeling – Gratitude

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The only words I have today are “Thank You God!”. The 35 day government shutdown is now over!

I’ve been struggling with depression since Monday. When I woke up this morning, I decided to drive up to Philly to spend the day with my Mom and Sister rather than going to a rally for Federal Workers. As someone who is an empath and highly sensitive. I absorb the feelings of others around me and being in an environment of so much stress, anger and anxiety is toxic for me. I needed TLC without any sensory overstimulation.

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After helping my Mom with her Property Tax Rebate forms, she took me to Red Robin for a burger and coke. After I ordered my whole meal “Gluten Free”, the server looked at me and her eyes teared up. She told me she was just diagnosed with Celiac Disease and has gastric polyps. She just found out on Tuesday. She was overwhelmed. She told me her hair was falling out and skin was breaking out. I told her the same things happened to me before I was diagnosed Gluten Intolerant. I also told her my health greatly improved with going Gluten Free. While I am not perfect, I am better than I was and my hair grew back. I gave her some advice. I wrote some things down for her and gave her a recommendation for doctor at Jefferson Hospital. Before she walked away she said, “You have no idea how much you helped today. I was really upset this morning and you made me feel so much better. Thank you.”

After the server walked away, my Mom looked at me and said, “Now we know why you came up here instead of going to that rally. That girl needed someone today and God chose you to help her. God knows you are not happy unless you are helping someone my beautiful child!”☺️I then went to pay the bill and saw it was $22.22. Four twos! 222 is my God sign. It means, “Everything is going to be ok – right one, right place, right time!”. When I see repetitive twos I repeat my personal mantra, “Everything is always working out for my highest good!”

2222 numerology

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Wait, there’s more… I was listening to CNN as I was driving home. It was 2:22pm and Trump was speaking. He announced he agreed to open the government for three weeks so they could work out a deal. 222 was my magical number today. Numbers are spiritual signs. If you are seeing repetitive numbers, google what they mean to unlock the code. Here’s a quick guide:

111 222 333 444 555 666 777 888 999

I have a lot of thoughts on the shutdown in general but let me sum it up with these two sentences. I do not want a President or an Administration that is not capable of feeling empathy and compassion for average American citizens and I will never again vote for a Republican – even if I know them personally.

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As Always
Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

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Happy New Year

Art “Weaving Dreams” – Eva Ruiz, IG: @Evita1872

Happy New Year 🎆 Welcome 2019! ✨

I had a really nice and peaceful New Years Eve. I started the day with a morning mediation class with Intention on growth, abundance and hope for the new year. I recently returned to practicing yoga after breaking my foot and I did my first challenging practicing yesterday afternoon. While I still felt some resistance and tightness as I moved and my foot was sore last night, I felt good to move my body and sweat. It reminded me why I love yoga. I watched the movie “Birdbox” on Netflix early last night. It was good but I am not sure it is worth all of the fuss I’ve been hearing about it. I managed to stay up and at 11:50 I sat on my mediation cushion and meditated until 12:05 using the “Aad Gurey Nameh” mantra as my focus. I chose this mantra for my New Years Eve mediation because it opens the Heart Chakra and it offers protection and project of the Heart Chakra energies. It’s healing. It was a lovely way to end 2018 and welcome 2019.

Aad Gurey Nameh

2018 brought many changes into my life – Good healthy changes. I took a leap and tried out a new job in a temporary position. It has been a great experience. I’ve enjoyed every minute of it. I needed to take this leap. I needed to push myself, test myself and prove to myself that I could operate on this level. I am different now. I guess I will find some way to acceptance and probably keep looking for another opportunity to eventually leave again. I don’t hate it there. The people are all very nice but the work is just not fulfilling to me and that is what causes me the most stress. I know what career fulfillment tastes like now. I don’t want to go back to feeling uninspired.

Perhaps the biggest change happened to me spiritually and emotionally. Graduating from the Institute of Integrative Nutrition as an Integrative Nutrition Health Coach gave me the tools to make better holistic choices for myself. Taking those classes taught me how to take care of myself in all aspects of my life. It also taught me how to have patience with myself and acceptance that everything is always working out for my highest good. I am not working full time as a Health Coach but I have a LLC and continue offer pro bono counseling sessions to folks I know. It was totally worth the money I spent on tuition and the year of hard work. I am very thankful I was able to do it for myself. I hope to work full time as a Holistic Wellness Coach after I retire.

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2018 was a year of deep healing. Deep painful memories and experiences from my past came to the surface to be healed. In a sense it brought darkness to light so it could be transmuted. I’ve learned to forgive myself for not being strong enough in the past to allow myself to heal. I learned it’s ok to talk about what happened to me. I learned it wasn’t my fault. I’ve learned to live with sadness and pain that comes in waves of PTSD flashbacks when I think about everything I lost and gave up because I couldn’t let anyone in. I’ve learned I am worthy of love and I’ve learned men who truly care about me will respect me and my body. Blue Love had the opportunity to be just like other men in my life but he chose to not take advantage of me. I am thankful to him for that and I respect his integrity for making that choice. He taught me to trust. I do trust him with my well-being and trust his judgment. I am grateful he’s been part of my healing and my life.

2018 was the year of growth and healing for me. It was the year I found peace within. It was the year my spiritual practices deepen. It was the year I let go of what I thought I wanted. It was the year I followed the signs wherever they went and trusted my own intuition to guide me to the right choices. 2018 was the year I learned the people who are meant to be in my life, will always be in my life. It was year I truly learned to love myself and others unconditionally. I know I will look back on 2018 and remember it was the year I found my authentic voice and finally found peace within.

I am not sure what 2019 will bring. I am eager and excited. My main focus in 2019 will be on living my most authentic life. Loving myself enough to make good choices for my life and my body. Supporting those I love but not at the expense of my own happiness. In 2019 I will help heal others. I hope to set a good example. I will work for change. I will help good to triumph over evil. I will lean into 2019 with an open heart and mind. I will keep my vibration high. I will offer the Universe the vibration of love and continue to pray for Loving Kindness.

I claim love as my vibration for 2019. I wish you all a beautiful New Years.

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Remember to put a little love in the world with the Loving Kindness Prayer

Loving Kindness Prayer
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

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Self Care Sunday – Lesson Learned

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This Self Care Sunday I am reflecting on lessons learned from the events of last week to prepare myself better for the future.

I was determined this holiday seasons was going to be better than those I’ve had in the past. It was 😊 I did everything to prepare for it. I did everything to ensure Christmas week would be as stressless as possible. The lesson here is some things are out of our control but we still must adjust ourselves and live through these situation anyway.

Gratefully, my family Christmas was great this year. I cooked and baked with Mom on Christmas Eve. Our Christmas Day Brunch was a success. All family members, including those who are feuding, attended. Everything went well and it was especially good for my mother to have everyone around her. I stayed with my mom for two days; I was well aware that she will be 80 in May and she seems to be smaller and more fragile than she was in the past. The lesson here was about having respecting and honor for the woman who sacrificed so much for me and my siblings. It’s also about patience as she moves slower and gratitude that I am lucky enough to still have my mother 💙I’m also grateful I had the kids here for a couple of days. Those relationships are important to me. As hectic as it was, it was fun having them here 💙

I found out bad news on Christmas Day by accident. I walked into the kitchen and heard my sister in law tell my sister that my brother has a mass in his lungs. His appointment at Fox Chase Cancer Center was on the 26th. This news presented me with conflicting feelings because of the complex relationship I have with my brother. He hurt me more than any other man in my entire life; I’ve only recently started to allow myself to heal from those events. I’ve decided to focus on praying for his well-being and supporting my mother instead of indulging too much into the heaviness of my feelings. The lesson I took away from this is just because karma finally catches up to someone doesn’t mean you will be happy about it or feel vindicated by their suffering. It presents a new opportunity for compassion and empathy; perhaps it will lead to true forgiveness finally.

I am not planning to go out for New Years Eve. NYE is an awkward night for me to go out. First, I would not have anyone to kiss at midnight ☹️😂Second, I am sober; I can’t even have a glass of wine to take the edge off. Going on sober and not having anyone to kiss at midnight on NYE isn’t fun 👎The whole night is uncomfortable. In the past, I’ve gone away for NYE on yoga retreats. I didn’t feel like traveling or spending the money this year. I’ll be doing something spiritual to ring in the new year but odds are I may not be awake at midnight 😂😂

The lesson for me this week is to be a good human. Help folks as much as possible. Stay humble and remember life is about more than my selfish needs and wants. Also, don’t be reactionary & lash out in frustration, you escalate problems & make yourself look like an ass. Self control, impulse control, self discipline and measured responses are the characteristics of a strong leader.

As many of you know, I believe in the power of numbers. Numerology plays an important part in my life. Numbers are signs that give coded messages. So, 222 is my favorite repetitive number series. 222 is about partnerships, love and things working out of the best. Whenever I see 222, I repeat my affirmation. “Everything is always working out for my highest good.” And I often say the Loving Kindness Prayer for Blue Love when I see 222. I stopped in the local Boscov’s to pick up bras with a gift card I got for Christmas 💁‍♀️When I got back into my car, I looked up and saw the license plate on the car directly in front of me had “222” in it. Just as I started saying my affirmation, I saw the car next to it had “222” in its license plate too. Now, that is a sign from the Universe so I took the opportunity to send Blue Love LOVE with the Loving Kindness Prayer too 🙂 “Everything is always working out for my highest good!” 💙

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ACTION: This week’s action is to reflect on the events of your week or even the events of 2018. What lessons have you learned? How can you take better care of yourself financially? Can you help others out of your abundance? What can you do to make things better for another person? Also remember to say the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special; put some love into the world💙

Loving Kindness Prayer
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

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LOVE

Thanks & Giving Prayer

Art woman praying Dorina CostrasArt by: Dorina Costras at http://www.saatchiart.com

Thanks and Giving Prayer

Dear God
On this Thanksgiving Eve
I say thank you for
Saving my life
Thank you for
Helping my body to heal
Thank you for
Helping me find peace
Through adversity and hardship
Thank you for
Teaching me the value of
Authenticity
Thank you for
Helping me to
Lean into compassion and empathy

Thank you for
The people who love me
Their support nourishes me
Through hard times
Thank you for
My haters and critics
They have made me stronger
And more resilient
Thank you for the
Love
Deep, Profound
Unconditional love
For all beings
That fills my heart and
Illuminates my soul
Thank you for
The abundance and blessings
You’ve given me
I have more than enough and
I’ve answered your call
To share and serve
It is from this place
Gratitude
I humbly say thank you
On this very special day
Of Thanks and Giving

I ask for your continued
Blessings to help me
Spread the light
And Shine love
Into the hearts
Of every soul
I touch in this world
Use me
Holy Spirit
Use me
To be a vessel of your peace
Use me
To spread love instead of fear
Fortify me with
Courage to stand my ground
Against negative forces
Strengthen me to
Move beyond
My own personal
Heartaches and challenges
To be a light in this dark world

I ask you
Holy Spirit
To Illuminate
Blue Love’s heart
With the light of love
From my soul
And inspire him
To believe in love
And trust in
Our friendship and connection
Dear God
It is in your light
I shine the brightest
On this day of
Thanks and Giving
I offer my thanks
And I commit
To giving my love
Light to the world
Amen

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NOTE:

On this Thanksgiving Eve, I wanted to say thanks to God, Holy Spirit and the Universe for blessing me in so many ways. Poetry is how I express what is in my heart so it seemed natural for me say thanks with a poem.

Here’s an update on my treatment for Small Intestine Bacterial Overgrowth. As you may recall, I had four biopsies done on my stomach. They came back a suspicious and my local doctor was concerned that precancer reoccurred. Thankfully, it was not precancerous. While I will have to be monitored by my doc at Jeff going forward because I am now high risk for Stomach and Colon Cancer, I am grateful this time around it was just Small Intestine Bacterial Overgrowth and Pancreatic Enzyme Deficiency. I just finished 14 days of Doxycycline antibiotic to kill of the bacteria in my gut. It appears to have worked. I no longer have diarrhea, stomach cramps and intense bloating. My doc at Jeff has an App and told me to message him when I finished the first 14 day of antibotic. He messaged me back yesterday. I love it’s so easy to communicate with one of Philly’s Top Docs and an instructor at Jeff Medical School:-) He told me to not to refill the antibiotic but to switch to a probiotic every day and digestive enzymes with larger meals until I see him again in mid January. He suggested I use Align Probiotic available at CVS. He recommends it to everyone who has IBS. He said it’s very effective and He wants me to take one daily going forward. While I am not feeling fantastic yet because we had to use a cheaper systemic antibiotic that came with side effects which are still bothering me, I am so very thankful for this opportunity to heal, learn, share information with others and serve the world with my story.

As I’ve dialed back the noise in my life in recent months, I’ve enjoyed more peace in my mind and body. I’ve learned that I am truly very sensitive to over-stimulation. I need quiet time. I need soft lighting and I need to limit my screen time. Praying, using mantras and affirmations bring me peace. Dialing back my use of Social Media has been good too. While part of me misses Facebook a little, for the connectivity, I just feel less toxic and triggered without it. I am better off without it. Facebook now creeps me out. I am off until they make it a safer less toxic envirnoment. I am still on Instagram and Twitter mostly becauses neither asks for much personal information and I’ve greatly reduced my usage and engagement. Social media is definitely over-stimulating.

If you would have told me ten years ago that I would live in a condo the beach, have a great job, be an Holistic Wellness Coach, be an active supporter of the local Homeless shelter and soon be celebrating seven years alcohol and cigarette free, I would have laughed out loud for sure. I never would have thought this is where I would end or this is what God had planned for me. But, I believe God has plans for us that are bigger than our own. I’ve learned my job isn’t to make it happen. My job is listen to my intuition, follow my inner wisdom and go where I am called. I am living a life I was called to live and for that I say thanks and give back in return.

For Thanksgiving this year, I made Gluten Free Crock Pot Mac & Cheese with a new recipe I found online. O-M-G! It is so damn good 🙌 I put some aside for myself for when I get back home. (Mac & Cheese is my comfort food) 🥘 I am also taking couple desserts. I am looking forward to staying over night with my Mom. I wish you all a lovely Thanksgiving.