Self Care is an act of surrender

surrenderToday is Friday and I’ve been off from work most of the week. I started an antibiotic for my Sinuses and Ears yesterday. I had to wait a couple of days for my tummy to settle down a bit before starting it. I think it’s already working because I am starting to cough stuff up. My plan for today is to just take it easy and let my body heal. I can’t do any more than I am doing. So, I just have to take care of myself and go for the ride.

The Engineers working on the brick outside of my unit are doing a water test this morning to see if any water gets in. They will be in my unit and on my balcony for a few hours this morning. I am glad they are doing it. My unit will be the first done and I will know for sure they are fixing the leak properly because we only get one shot at this. It’s a big expensive job. The Condo Association did an assessment to pay for it. My building currently has two assessment on top of regular condo fees and I heard there may be a third. This is why I would never buy in this building. It’s an old building that needs a lot of repairs.

A note about my Social Media presence. Self Care in the digital era has to include good hygiene and self care on Social Media. I deleted my Facebook account last year. I do not even miss it. Guess what? I could care less what my old grade school classmates are up to. I don’t give a crap what girls I went to high school with are doing now. Most of the stuff on Facebook is bullshit anyway. No one really posts truth. Facebook lacks authenticity and they are manipulating people, basically doing mind control with algorithms. If you don’t believe me, there are plenty of documentaries on PBS, Amazon, You Tube and Netflix to back me up. Here’s one:

I have an Instagram account because I like the pictures and I do find some inspirational stuff on there that I use for this blog. I recently made the account private/locked as I do not want to grow the account any further but if you’d like to follow it, the handle is @HighestGoodLife222

I like Twitter. I have a small Twitter account for writing and holistic wellness that is attached to this blog in the right side bar. I try to keep that account Vanilla and on topic. I am not actively trying to grow the account. I do have a larger political Twitter account under a fake name. It’s my rage against the Administration account. I am not trying to grow but it seems to be happening organically. The handle is @highestgoodlife

As I work my way through this flare up of physical issues, I will admit it’s given me an opportunity to reflect. I looked at my food diary and I must admit I was cheating ALOT. I’ve been physically active and doing good with my spiritual work but my food choices have not been good lately. The Low FODMAP Diet is the best lifestyle for my gut. I feel my best when I stick to it. It’s restrictive but I do normally feel good and avoid IBS flare-ups (bloating) when I stick to it. It’s funny because folks always tell people to eat raw veggies to be healthy but in my situation large quantities of raw veggies are undigestible and rot in my gut.

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The truth is I was out of balance. This hard stop was going to happen eventually. It’s good it happened now before I start the new job when I had a week to surrender. I had a conversation this morning with my new team/boss. I already know what my focus will be next week and I am scheduled to go to DC on Thursday for my face to face 1:1 meetings. For now – I am resting and focusing on self care.

ICYMI – I’ve been posting every day this week since I haven’t been working; scroll down to see all of my posts from this week. I will post again on Saturday and my regular Self Care Sunday post.

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May you be loved

Self Care Sunday ~ The Migraine Maker

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Sigh…long sigh 😔 i’ve had a run- in with the “Migraine Maker” and lost😂 The “Migraine Maker” is the Upper Trapezius Muscle located on the inside of the Shoulder. I tend to carry stress and tension in my neck/shoulders 😳I strained my left Trap last weekend carrying a bag that was too heavy. I think my bra straps were a little tight too. Keeping natural 38 DDDs upright, perky and facing forward isn’t always easy🙅‍♀️These graphics show where the Trap Muscle refers pain.

It’s not the first time I irritated the Upper Trap Muscles. I made the right Trap angry a few years back. It took six weeks to resolve. Admittedly, I didn’t know how to take care of it back then. After a previous round of physical therapy, I know what to do this time and hopefully it will resolve in less than two weeks. I didn’t bother going to the doctor because I know what it is and I know what she would say. Rest, ice and heat. She would offer me a muscle relaxer which would decline. We would commiserate about me not being able to take NSAIDS (Advil, Aleve and Naproxen) because of an Aspirin allergy. She would ask if I wanted an X-ray or physical therapy; both of which I would decline because I’ve been here and done this before. Time is the healer and some way to control pain would be helpful. This was also a reminder to stay committed in doing my shoulder stretches and exercises. I am really kicking myself for cancelling my massage appointment last week. I could have nipped this before it blew up like this.

After a three mile walk today with a migraine and a trip to the grocery store for produce and Green Juice, I decided to surrender. I retreated to my bed with a dose of Fioricet and Magnesium for pain with a moist heating pad on my back and neck. After resting for an hour hoping the drugs would kick in, I am now in my comfy bed writing this blog hoping relief will come soon. So, why did I walk three miles with a migraine? I did it mostly because I wanted to sweat and detox a bit. That’s also the reason I bought Green Juice for the week, produce, Chicken and Eggs. I decided to take the opportunity to limit my diet for a couple of weeks to give my body a reset. I am also detoxing my armpits and body from traditional deodorant so I can return to natural deodorant. I’ll be showering often but could get extra stinky by tomorrow 🤣You have to detox (sweat out the chemicals of traditional deodorant) for a few days before starting a natural deodorant or the natural won’t be as effective. I’ve used natural deodorant but I didn’t do the detox part so now I am trying it. Saturday night detox dinner is Veggies with Ranch Dressing with Bing Cherries & Blueberries for dessert to help reduce inflammation.

Self Care isn’t always pretty or enjoyable. I could have tried to push myself to go sit by the pool in the sun instead of resting in bed but why? A cool dark room is comforting when you have a headache. I also recently bought a Blush Duvet Cover and sheets with Roses on them so my bedroom looks soft and pretty. I wanted Blush on my bed because Pink is a healing color for the Heart Chakra. It helps to balance and open the Heart Chakra energies. I wanted to be surrounded by Pink as I slumber. The hand crocheted blanket was made for me by my sister, Sandra, a few years before she passed away.

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Here are some self care tips on taking care of your Trapezius Muscles below from

https://myemail.constantcontact.com/The–Migraine-Maker—-Can-this-Shoulder-Muscle-be-the-Cause-of-Your-Headache-.html?soid=1101121545271&aid=F4kTfHC2oo4

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If you do have a run in with the “Migraine Maker”, remember to rest the injured muscle before trying to stretch and strengthen it. Also make sure your bedroom is comforting so if you do need to retreat for the day, you can feel nurtured and peaceful in your surroundings.
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May you be loved

Self Care Sunday – Love

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It’s around 11:00am on Saturday morning. It’s about 90 degrees on the breach in Atlantic City, NJ with a heat index already 100. I walked to the coffee shop this morning. It’s three miles round trip. At first, it wasn’t so bad walking in the shade but walking back in the sun was harder than I thought it would be. I also noticed my heart rate was higher than normal when I walk. I have an arrhythmia that has been stable; I don’t need to take any chances with that getting push out of rhythm by heat issues.  I am staying inside the rest of day and not sure about tomorrow. That is good self care.

While I was walking, I was thinking about how do you support someone who is going through a major life transition? The below words came to me as almost a stream of consciousness. I wrote a lot of them while sitting at the coffee shop sipping my iced coffee.
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So you make it to your 50s in pretty good shape. You still look pretty good. You are healthy and have a few dollars in the bank. You have everything you ever wanted yet you are still unhappy and unfulfilled. What the fuck! Right? I know the feeling…It happened to me a few years ago.

We’ve all heard of the stereotypical mid-life crisis when you buy sports cars and bang 30 year olds. That’s not what I am talking about. I am talking about more of a spiritual awakening where your awareness is opened. It’s more about growth and finding fulfillment on deeper level than filling a void.

As for myself, I lived in denial and resistance for while. I held on. I held on until I was almost consumed with sadness and depression. The below photo is an actual depiction of me trying to hold onto to what was no longer serving my highest good 🤣 The day eventually came that holding on was harder than finding the courage within myself to let go.
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Once I let go, I needed time to rest. I wore myself out trying to hold and be what everyone else wanted or needed me to be. I needed rest before I did anything else. At that time I had more questions about my life and my future than I had answers. What I eventually realized was that time of my life was about finding the answers. It was about diving deep within myself to learn who I was and what I wanted for my future. I learned that time was about revisiting painful events from my past to make peace with them and mostly it was a time of self acceptance for me. I no longer was the same person I had been. I changed. I finally accepted it and embraced the journey to finding the new me.

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Since I’ve been through this experience, I can recognize it when I see someone else going through it. My advice is to enjoy the ride. Pull the threads in your life. Eventually you will figure out what you want and need in your life. This is your time to choose your life… While the giver in me wants to help in some way as an expression of support, I know it’s an inside job for the person who is going through it.  I know the best thing I can do for anyone I care about going through this is just give them space and time to find their answers. They already know I love and care about them. I will send love. I will hold space in my heart for them. I will hope to hear from them soon. I will go about living my best life knowing what is meant for me will be mine when the time is right.

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If you resonant with this post and find yourself having a dark night of the soul, I would encourage you to pull on the threads of your unhappiness. Find your answers. Enjoy your time of self discovery.

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Warning, I am about to get political. What is happening in America now is a battle between two extreme political positions – extreme right which seems to have chosen racism and hate speech vs. the extreme left (progressives). But the reality is the folks in the middle like me, a pragmatic Democrat, will decide the election in 2020. I chose LOVE. I choose love over hate. There is no room in my life anymore for anyone who chooses hate or uses hate speech.  I don’t mind friends being in a different political party but I have no tolerance for hate and racism – NONE, ZERO!

#MALA – Make America Love Again!

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Self Care Sunday – Being A Balanced Introvert

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I’ve had a busy week. I had commitments every night after work which means no time to write. Today, which is Saturday, was the first day I was able to relax and daydream a bit.

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I walked five miles this morning because my body always feels better when I move. I also enjoy walking around town and seeing what’s going on in the neighborhood. I love to walk because I feel lighter after I shake off the old stagnant stressful energy I often absorb from others during the week. Walking is cleansing for me.

After I walked five miles, I went my local coffee shop for an iced coffee. A group of multi-cultural kids around ten years old were at the table next to me playing Chess♟ It was really cool to watch young kids mixed nationalities, girls and boys, taking turns playing the winner at Chess. I don’t even know how to play Chess🤣 That’s why I love Ventnor Coffee in Ventnor, NJ. It’s a local coffee shop with eclectic people. It has a very warm small town vibe. Check it out if you are in town. After my iced coffee watching the Chess game, I spent most of the afternoon at pool reading magazines and listen to music.

I tend to lean towards being an Introvert. I could go days – seriously DAYS – without needing or wanting to speak to anyone. However, I do try to remember to call my 80 year old mother even when I am in hermit mode so I can be sure she is ok. But, I am completely comfortable in my own company. I enjoy solitude. Silence is beautiful…Shhh

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One of reasons I’ve become more introverted in recent years is that I hate small talk. Small talk feels like poking myself in the eye 🤣In recent years, I started honoring my need for authentic interactions instead of engaging in small talk. The truth is I would rather talk to fewer people and truly connect with someone on a deeper level than interact with more people on a surface level. Another reason I’ve become more introverted is that my intuition (my internal bullshit detector) has strengthened. I’ve learned to protect myself a bit from being to too empathetic with people. I am sensitive to the emotional well-being of others and sometimes it can be draining for me.  But the biggest reason I am more introverted these days is because I am finally comfortable in my own skin. I no longer need to fill the quiet moments with noise. I no longer need acceptance or validation from anyone. I am completely and authentically comfortable with who I am now. I don’t need noise to distract me anymore.

Yes, I am enjoy my alone time but too much alone time isn’t healthy for anyone. As part of my self care, I’ve been opening myself up to more social activities in recent weeks. I’ve been working to find the right balance of activities that afford me opportunities to socialize comfortably while also maintaining proper boundaries.

Speaking of socializing…I attended a friend’s husband’s funeral on Thursday. I went to the services and spent three hours with friends at the luncheon but I opted to come home after the luncheon instead of going back to my friend’s house. When she asked me why I wasn’t coming back to the house, I said, “Are you kidding? I’ve talked more today that I have in a week. My jaw hurts.” The other reason I left is…that group of friends are hard core Fox News Watching Republicans😳 Well, folks who read my blog know I am an immigrant loving liberal democrat✌️My great grandmother was an immigrant from Mexico; what’s happening at the USA/Mexico border to migrants is stressing me out and making me sick to my stomach. While most folks were well behaved on Thursday, I wanted to leave before they all got too drunk and started picking fights with me. I am trying to open myself up a bit and socialize more but it is also essential I take care of myself by honoring my need to withdraw once I’ve reached my social limit.

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Other news from this week is…I am still waiting on the paperwork for my new job to finalize. While it’s all approved by Management, Human Resources had to revisit my Security Clearance for the new gig. That takes time. Hopefully, it should be done soon. On another note, I am looking forward to reconnecting with Blue Love in the future🥰 He is always in my thoughts. I 💙 his pretty blue eyes😍🔥

If you need Angelic Support this week, Archangel Raphael is a great healer 😇

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May you be loved

Self Care Sunday ~ Spontaneous Movement

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I wanted this Self Care Sunday post to be about movement and importance of exercise to the body, mind and spirit but I am having trouble writing. Some days the words just don’t flow smoothly. Today is one of those days.

I will start with it’s Saturday and I’ve been off from work for three days. I’ve been up early each day. I am active so I’ve walked four or five miles each day and swam each day too. While I’ve been invited to barbecues off-shore, I’ve had no interest in leaving the island for parties. I’ve socialized enough. As an introvert, I don’t really need a lot of social activity. It’s been a really nice weekend. While I’ve had a lot of exercise this weekend, I’ve also enjoyed just going with the flow and not having any obligations. It’s been nice not having a plan and just making spontaneous decisions.

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I will say I am now tired and have a bit of a sinus headache. I was up doing laundry at 5:00am. That’s an early start for a weekend. I was in the cafe up the street eating breakfast with a neighbor by 7:30am. I walked three miles before 9:00am and finished a 60 minutes water aerobics class by 11:30am. After water aerobics, I rested poolside for an hour but eventually ended up in my favorite local coffee shop, #ventnorcoffee, with my MacBook for Iced Coffee by 1:00pm. I got home around 3:00pm and a storm is rolling by as I type this blog. See the below photos from my living room window. The thunder and lightening just started on the beach. The first photo was taken just before the storm started.  The second photo was taken during the storm.

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I am tired but it’s a good kind of tired. It’s the kind of tired you feel after you worked out. It’s the kind of tired you feel after you had a busy day. It’s the kind of tired you feel after a whole day on the beach. It’s the kind of tired you feel after swimming all day. It’s the kind of tired you feel after moving your body. My body feels better when I move – so I move. I’ve had a lot of sun the last three days and I already have a great tan.

As of right now, I am planning Sunday to be a complete and total rest day. I am not planning to walk, swim or work out. I may end up lounging in my Chemise Set (nighty & robe) and fuzzy slippers all day if that is what my body calls me do. I guess I will see how I feel when I wake up.  Maybe check  back later on Sunday.  There’s a good chance I may write more tomorrow afternoon.

Midnight Red - C.M. Cooper

Midnight Red – C.M. Cooper

How are you taking care of yourself today? Does your body need movement or rest today? Do you like not having a plan and living spontaneous?

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May you be loved

Self Care Sunday ~ Break The Routine

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Trying new things is good. It’s good to break the routine and change things up.

I broke my routine this week by taking a couple of days off from work to just enjoy life. I am changing jobs in a few weeks and my current job has been a little chaotic. I needed a little time to relax before things change so I planned a four day weekend this weekend and next weekend. It gives me time to destress. A break from the work routine is always good for the mind and spirit. Living at the beach, I often forget to take time off and just enjoy where I live so I did that this weekend. That is good self care.

I broke my routine this week by jumping on a Greyhound to New York on Thursday. My original plan was to stay over but I decided I’d rather come back to the beach so it was only a day trip. I walked about 14K steps before getting in the bus line home. It was a nice break from reality. I enjoyed walking in different places and I liked being in the city. I also enjoyed the double decker Uptown Bus tour. It was all places I’ve been before but I love Central Park so it was nice to ride around town and enjoy the sites.

I broke my exercise routine this week.  I am a walker. I will walk miles and miles and sometimes even over do it and then my hip hurts. The building I live in has a gigantic pool. It’s the largest on the strip of islands I live on. The building offers a free Aquasize class every day at 10am. I started taking the Aquasize class this weekend and I really enjoyed it.It’s good because it’s a total body workout. I think I may have gotten too much sun and my muscles are a little sore from the workouts but overall I am enjoying it. I am also making friends with new people who live in the building and started playing Maj Jong with some of the women. I like Maj Jong it’s a very strategic game. I like the competition.

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My Saturday went like this…I slept in until 8:00am 😄I took a 1 hour aquasize class 🏊‍♀️ I walked four miles 🏃‍♀️I took a one hour break in the middle of the walk at my favorite local independently owned coffee shop and had an iced coffee #ventnorcoffee ☕️ I went food shopping 🍪 I wrote this blog ✏️By 5:00pm, it was time for a shower, a spaghetti strap nightie, robe and slippers with a movie and ice cream 🍨🤪This is why I can’t seem to stay up past 9:00pm on Saturdays😴 I often sleep through the Tropicana fireworks at 10:00pm on Saturday nights.I still can’t figure out why they had fireworks on Thursday night this week. It was weird.

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When was the last time you broke your routine and tried something new? Consider trying something new this week. Explore a new place, eat a new food, try a new exercise, take some time off of work or perhaps just do absolute nothing instead of being chronically busy.

Break the routine! I breaking routine on this post by sneaking in a Blue Love Haiku at the bottom 🔥💙

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Self Care Sunday ~ Writing is life

Writing is life

Writing is Self Care for me. Writing is part of who I am. Writing is how I express myself. Writing is how I process emotions. Writing is how I state my truth. Writing is life to me.

Thinking through my Self Care Sunday posts and reflecting on the topics I want to write about is a labor of love and a therapeutic process for me.  I sometime write in my mind as I drive or as I walk and then I come home and let the words pour out onto the page. This process gives me an opportunity to reflect on my experiences from the last week and allows me space to sit with any emotions that may have surfaced. Writing is life to me.

My first love will always be poetry. I started writing poetry when I was 15 years old and now I can honestly say I’ve written over 400 poems. My early poetry is hand-written in journal books. The poetry I’ve written in recent years is in files on my MacBook and published by me on this website. My poetry is about life, desire, sex and self awareness but mostly I write about love – romantic love, self love, unconditional love. I write poetry about love. Writing is life to me.

In recent weeks, I’ve been sharing some of my older poetry from the Blue Love Poetry Collection. I’ve enjoyed looking through my older poetry. Each one I read reminds me of how I felt when I wrote it. It reminds me of that time of my life. It reminds me of that time and space we shared. It reminds me I am grateful for those experiences because they helped me grow into the woman I am today.   I feels good to be authentic and true about who I am and what I feel.  I write love. Writing is life to me.

I am taking a book writing course now. I am enjoying it. It’s been opening my mind to different ways to publish a book now. I was intimidated because I was focused on the traditional route of 400 pages, publishers and hardback sales. However, I’ve learned about self publishing and small publishing companies. Short books, under 100 pages or so, are actually selling well in Digital format. The biggest challenge I have is that I have a full time job that I will not be quitting any time soon and retirement isn’t for another nine years. So, having the time/energy to focus on book writing is proving challenging. For now, I am focusing on staying consistent with my Self Care Sunday Posts, building a following on Twitter under the Writing Holistically name and learning new ways to approach book writing. The reality is writing a book is a long term goal for me that I will work towards over time. Writing is life to me.

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I take care of myself and honor my needs by writing.

Writing is life to me🦋

How do you express yourself?
How do you process your emotions?
How are you honoring your truth and your needs?
What is life to you?

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Self Care Sunday – Transformations

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I was feeling called to write about transitions and transformations today and remembered the Butterfly Story (below).  I heard it for the first time almost 20 years ago. I remember I was going through a particularly rough transition and a friend thought the story would help me find some comfort. It was through this story I learned the value of the “struggle” during the transformation process. Please take a moment and read this beautiful story:

Butterfly StoryThe transformation process can straight up suck at times. It’s hard to go through the sticky and uncomfortable transitions that move us from one chapter of life to another. I remember years ago I would get stressed out and depressed during these difficult times. As I’ve matured and gained wisdom, I grown to understand sometimes the struggle, the sticky uncomfortableness, is just part of the transformation process. The struggle doesn’t last forever. At least, it’s not suppose to last forever.  From my experience, we can sometimes prolong our struggle when we are resisting the change, holding on too tight or too long or refusing to see the truth in some way.

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Transitions are exciting and scary. It’s exciting to think of a new beginning.  It’s scary to think of how life will change, what will be different and what we will let go as part of the process. I found the only way to get through the difficult transitions is to stay grounded in the awareness that I was brought to this moment for a reason. I’ve learned to keep myself grounded in knowing everything will work for my highest good and sometimes things aren’t going to work out quite the way I’ve been envisioning them.  I guess what I am trying to say is I’ve learned to let go and just trust that I will be ok in the end.

If you are going through a transition or a transformation process, please know you will be just fine. Everything will work out for your highest good, you will once again be happy but you may need to go through some crap before you get the other side. Ground yourself in knowing everything is always working out for your highest good and you will be just fine in the end.

As for myself, I remind myself to keep my hand open so I don’t hold on too tight; reminding myself that it is only by having open hands can I receive goodness and let love flow through me to others. The open hand is also an open heart. It symbolizes that I am open to receiving; I am open to all things that are good for me.

Are your hands open and ready receive all the goods things you deserve? If not, what can you let go so your hands are open and ready to grab hold of something good when it comes your way?

Since I am sharing some of my older poetry during the month of June, I am going to sneak one in on this  Self Care Sunday post. I wrote the below poem in 2013 during a difficult transition after I finally realized that letting go was the only way to move forward.

I Opened My Hand And Let Go
In opening
My hand
I let go
Of everything
I tried
To hold on to
Too tightly
Reminding myself
Where
I was
What
I overcame
Who
I am now
Changed
Forever
By the wave
That swept
Through my life
Innocently
It started
As a ripple
As one
Decision
Lead to another
And pulled
Me down
To the very
Bottom
Of my soul
To find
Authenticity
For the first time
Traveling down this
Rocky road
To peace
“Stop”
My mind
Shouted
“Go back”
My heart pounded
“This is too hard”
My body wept
“I can’t”
A small little voice
Deep within
Proclaimed
“I must”
Asserted
My soul
Not knowing
Exactly what
I was choosing
Only knowing
Life was forcing
Me to start over
I can’t remember
Consciously
Making the choice
I don’t remember
Saying
“Yes”
I can’t reflect
On the exact
Moment
It happened
It happened
Every day
With every
Choice
Letting go
One day
Holding on
The next
Having faith
Meaningful things
In my life
Will remain
Trusting what is
Rightfully mine
Will return
I opened
My hand
And let go
Finally
I see
The very best
Of me
For the
First time
I accept
I am powerful
Confidently
I stand
With tears
In my eyes
Because I
Finally
Set myself
Free
In knowing myself
I let go
By Trusting
Myself more
Than listening
To the advice
Of others
I finally found
My peace
Because
I let go
Of who
I was
And who
They wanted
Me to be
I timidly
Courageously
Started walking
My road
To peace
Through
The valley of
Of self-love
And
To the mountaintop
Of self-acceptance
I found
Happiness
Within
No longer
Needing
Validation or approval
From others
I pinned my
Happiness
To the beat of
My very own
Heart
Simply
Because
I opened
My hand
And let go

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Self Care Sunday ~ The Long Game

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This past week has somewhat been about repositioning myself for the Long Game.  

I started my book writing course on Monday.  This will be a huge project. I am not completely sure I am ready for it. That’s why this six month course is good because it gradually builds each week and is opening my awareness to different ways to approach it.  It helps to take one bite at a time and build up momentum.  I am a little ahead of some folks because I’ve been writing regularly for ten years.  For me, it will be more about focusing on having the discipline to write on specific topics and setting a schedule rather than being free form.  I think there is good a shot I will be going thorough old blogs to pull text and content as I move forward.  

Have you taken on any big projects lately? How are you managing it?  

To move forward with my book writing project, I had to change some stuff.  First, books are normally turned into publishers in Word Documents.  I’ve been using an Apple iPad Pro tablet with wireless keyboard for the last two years. It does not have Word. It is also difficult to update my website with the touch screen and the wireless keyboard constantly switches modes as I type.  I came to acceptance that I need an actual laptop with Microsoft Office but I am also an Apply Loyalist.  On Friday, I traded in my Apple iPad Pro for this pretty Rose Gold Apple MacBook Air 13″ with Microsoft Office. It’s an adjustment but it has a lot more functionality than I had with the iPad Pro. I was recently able to reduce my cell phone bill by $100/month so I felt comfortable financing the balance for 12 months rather than using my cash. Also, I need to conserve cash in case there is a government shutdown in October 🤣

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I will eventually start using my this website to discuss my book.  With this in mind, I decided I need to remove my personal politics from this website. If you read my blog regularly, you know I am Democrat. The current Administration is pushing me further left.  You also know I have my Twitter feed in the right side bar.  Since 2017, my Twitter account has been taken over by my rage at the current Administration and it doesn’t belong on this blog anymore. Removing it from this site will also protect me professionally – in my day job – just in case someone finds this site. I want this site to be focused on writing, leadership and holistic wellness. With that in mind, I set up another Twitter account to go with this blog; it will feature topics such as holistic wellness, leadership, self care, personal growth and spiritual awakening.  That twitter account is now in the right side bar.  If you want to follow my rage against the Administration Twitter account, you will need to do so on Twitter by following @HighestGoodLife.  

How are you positioning yourself for future?

On the Career front, I am in the running for three different promotions. One of them really interests me – dare I say, excites me.  I am not used to saying the word “excited” when talking about my career with this “company” but this particular opportunity is EXCITING.  I can’t really say the details yet but I did have a couple of meetings this week.  It’s looking highly likely it will happen but nothing is buttoned up yet. The hiring manager had to work on some logistics. Here a truth about me not everyone knows – I am all about the LONG GAME – meaning I am strategic. I am willing to take a set back, a loss and make sacrifices along the way to ultimately win in the long run. It seems taking a step back and letting things play out a bit worked out for my benefit in this situation.  Sometimes to win the BIG game, you have take small loses and setbacks as well as have the patience to let things play out in Divine Timing.   

Do you play the Long Game?  Can you be patient and trust that things will bloom in the future?

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This week I had the opportunity to be brave and vulnerable with someone I care about.  I almost chickened out but after giving it a lot of thought and listening to my intuition, I knew it was the right thing to do – for both of us.  In the past, I would internalize my feelings and make myself sick. Even worse, I would do things that put me in potentially awkward/uncomfortable situations and I often ended up regretting it.  I won’t do it anymore – not even for him.  That’s not good self care. However, I care very much for him and it was important to me that he understood my “why”.  To ensure I was authentic with him, I had to be vulnerable and show him my truth.  There was no other way. If nothing else, he saw I will also be honest and truthful with him. That is authenticity.  It felt good be vulnerable with him and I do trust him with my vulnerability. I was proud of myself for having the courage to do it. I was also thankful for his understanding response.  I really am just trying to practice good self care and also honor him by protecting him and our wonderful “connection”. 

When was the last time you were vulnerable and showed your authentic self to someone you love?


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Physically, I am having some challenges this week.  I’ve been so dang tired all week long.  My ears are constantly filled up – probably by allergies. I did go to the doc and he told me it’s not infection but told me to take Mucinex, Flonase and Sudafed until to breaks up.  It’s wearing me out.  I also have been cold and have had some muscle pains this week and I found out I still have a Vitamin D deficiency so I had to increase my daily intake to 5,000 for three months and get retested.  I am writing this on Saturday morning and will be planning to stay home all day in warm slippers, comfy clothes, a blanket, movies and with my new laptop all day.  I am not going anywhere today – even if it is a beach day. I just can’t do it today.  It’s all about rest and physical self care.  Sometime we have to adjust our lifestyle to take care of ourselves.

Are you willing adjust your lifestyle to be healthy and practice Self Care?

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved
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Self Care Sunday – Finding Yourself is Remembering Yourself

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The intention of my Self Care Sunday posts is to shine a light on a path of self-discovery for the readers. I hope readers are inspired to reflect on the topics I discuss and use those reflections for self-exploration.

I believe self-exploration, self-knowledge, is the key to finding true inner peace, contentment and happiness.  I believe living in authenticity (truth) and being honest about your needs, wants and desires is a powerful change agent and can spark personal and spiritual growth. Self-Knowledge grounds us in our authentic personal power.

But how does anyone really understand their self and explore their own path to inner peace, contentment and happiness if they are always surrounded by “noise”? How can we tune into our inner wisdom if we are blinded by external expectations, duties, obligations and perhaps even a little afraid to change? So many of us walk around unfulfilled because we are living someone else’s truth or we are living in our past glory instead of embracing reality as it is today. Things change, people change, relationships change and so must we surrender to the truth and change. It’s been my experience, we keep ourselves busy, we stay in constant motion, so we don’t have time to look or feel the sticky uncomfortableness of our discontentment. Believe me I’ve been there. The below meme accurately depicts me trying to block out the truth in my life 😂 #NotTodayBitch

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In my experience, I only started to hear my own inner voice when I separated myself from the noise that surrounded me. It was in the quiet moments my intuition spoke to me. My inner voice started speaking so loud that I could no longer ignore it. I knew I had to change my life no matter how much it cost me. I was choosing to walk the path to happiness even it meant I lost everything or everyone in my life. I just couldn’t live like that anymore. I just didn’t give a crap anymore. I was going to be happy!

Once I let go, I could see I was walking around half alive but mostly unfulfilled everywhere; that was no way to go through life. Once I broke free I could clearly see that I was unfulfilled and unhappy because I let my duty and obligations to family, jobs and other relationships override my relationship with myself. I didn’t honor our own needs, wants and desires. Heck, I didn’t know what my needs, wants and desires were at that time. I had to give myself time and space to sit with the sticky discontentment in my life and listen to my soul’s guidance to figure it all out. I finally saw that I was living out of alignment with my truth most of life. I can tell you for sure no one has ever found fulfillment living out of alignment of their truth.

I since learned how to honor my needs, wants and desires. I’ve learned how to take care of myself holistically. I’ve learned I am a powerful creator but mostly I’ve learned who I truly am after I wipe off the mask I wear every day. I can honestly say I love and accept myself now. I am authentically Linda now and that level of self-awareness is true authentic personal power.

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At this time, I encourage you to take some time to focus only on yourself. Not matter what anyone tells you, honoring your needs is not selfish. Folks my judge you; they may say you’ve changed. They won’t be able to manipulate you anymore once you see the truth. That’s good. You are allowed to change. I encourage you to fill your cup up first, then pour from your full cup to help others.

I give you permission to rest, heal, try new things and disconnect from the world if you need to for a while. I encourage you to set boundaries, distance yourself from unhealthy relationships, embrace new beginnings and ground yourself in self-knowledge. I say to you LOVE yourself as much as you love others. LOVE yourself unconditionally. Instead of finding yourself, I encourage you to remember who you were before duties, obligations and expectations told who to be.

Over the next few days, I’d like you to reflect upon these questions:

How can I love myself today? How can I honor my needs, wants and desires TODAY?

Then allow yourself the space to hear the answers from within. Let your authentic self speak to you in the quiet moments.  Tune into your inner wisdom.

All of your answers are within you!

I honor those of you who are brave enough to live authentically and allow yourself to see the truth in your life. I honor those of you who are courageously letting go of all you’ve known for most of your life to explore new paths to happiness.  I honor those, like me, who chose to answer the call to “wake up” to the truth in your life. I honor, celebrate and wish all of you brave individuals the ride of a lifetime as you reach for your highest good.

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As for what’s going on with me, I start a Book Writing course on Monday and I am still working through interview process for two different promotions at work. I will share that a potential 3rd option was presented to me on Thursday 😂👏👏It is so gigantic and exciting that I shouted “SHUT UP! O-M-G!” while talking to a GM on the phone. She was cracking up! Folks down the hall heard me and laughed. They had no idea why I was so excited – I can’t tell anyone the details yet – but trust me – if the 3rd option happens, it will be a dream come true for me. It will mean the seeds of a vision I planted last year while on a temporary assignment bloomed. Wish me luck because this would not only blow the other two opportunities out of the water but it will also make the decision process a heck of a lot easier for me. I should know for sure next week🤞The Universe is AMAZING! #Grateful

One last note about embracing change – I walked into the hair salon on Friday to get my greys and dark chocolate roots touched up but I unexpectedly walked out a GINGER 😂 I was told it suits my firey and passionate personality 🔥😂 I may delete the photo in a week or two to protect my privacy but I did want to share that somehow I became a redhead without really planning to do so and it’s all good 😂🔥✌️#GingersDoItBetter 🔥😂💙

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May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved
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