Erotic Token – Blue Love Poetry

Below is a repost from May 2016. I wrote it in May 2016 when I called him MBE, Mr. Blue Eyes, instead of Blue Love. 💙💙 He’s been on my mind lately. I remembered this poem today because I thinking I haven’t written a good erotic poem in a long time. Most of the stuff I’ve been writing lately have been heavy and emotional. I wanted to post something light, easy and sexy. I wanted to remember how I felt when I wrote delicious poetry that dripped of sex and flirtatiousness for him. I wanted to remember how I felt when I wrote poetry for him because that’s when I felt the most free 💙💙 I wanted to remember what it felt like to feel alive, healthy and free.


Erotic Token ~ Love, Sex and Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

Somewhere
Between the softness
Of my thighs
Is a place
That rises
In response
To your masculine
Dominant energy
Yet
Bows in submission
As you wet my lips
In erotic surrender
It’s with your strong assertive
Voice my legs
Quiver
In anticipation
Of your forceful
Entry into my
Obedient lips
Willfully parting
To your bossy inclinations
My eyes beg you
In earnest
To press me against
The wall
Bury your face
Into my cleavage
And take
Everything you want
In this instant
In this place
At this time
Right here
Pulling me down
On to the floor
Eye to eye with you
Breathlessly
Breaking me into
Surrender
As I whisper
I love you
Yielding willfully
To your direction
To worship
Your erection
And pay proper
Respect to the
Light of my erotic fire
I submit
To your erotic authority
And humble
Offer my naked body
To you
As a token
Of my devotion
Yours always
In adulation
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Note: MBE was so so cute and just the right amount of bossy to get my erotic mojo going💋🔥 Maybe he would like to see me naked in stilettos in front of him with handcuffs around my ankles pouting until he spanks me🙏💋❤️🔥😈 The power of suggestion is fierce✌️❌⭕️

Showing Up Anyway

Glenn Doyle Melton

One of my biggest issues about Facebook and Instagram is that everything on Social Media is an illusion. It’s all smoke and mirrors. You only see what the person posting wants you to see. For example, I had a conversation with a coworker a while ago. From what she told me in person, there is a A LOT of drama in her life and her family life is challenging. However, on Facebook, it’s all big smiles, family photos, beautiful pictures of happy times and long posts about her wonderful life and vacations. Her Social Media image does not match what I saw in person. My coworker isn’t the only person guilty of this. Almost everyone does it on Social Media. I bought into at first too. Folks take 35 crappy selfies and only post the one that turned out good. They use filters on their sunset photos so it looks extra beautiful and make sure you only see what’s good. Social Media robbed us of authenticity and reality.

I disengaged from a Facebook a few months ago. I have no regrets. I am still on it because my family is on it and they post photos of the kids there. I also find out where my nieces softball games are so I can go watch. I enjoy that. I don’t post. As I scroll through posts, I can’t help but wondering how did we all get conditioned to think we always have to be positive, have a beautiful back yard or live in a big home? Why is it everyone thinks your life is wonderful if you are eating dinner with 20 other people or checking into four bars every night? When did we give up our right to have a messy complicated life? Why can’t we ever be pissy, have a bad day, be sad, admit our holidays sucked and God forbid post a bad picture of ourselves on Facebook?

This post isn’t a rant about Social Media. It is about a complete lack of authencity. No one wants to own the messy parts of themselves that aren’t camera ready. No one wants to admit they have depressing thoughts sometimes. No one wants you to see their darkness anymore. I am writing this post because the truth is I am messy and complicated lately. My thoughts are sad and depressing. I am worried and scared. My tummy is bloated. I am in pain and I just am fucking over it. Why should I continue to lie and pretend I am positive and happy when I am not. I am just not…

Don’t get me wrong… There are positive things in my life. I like where I live. I am enjoying my job. My career is going great. My family loves me. Yesterday I got to watch my great niece pitch over 50mph at FastPitch Summer Nationals via North Myrtle Beach Park’s field webcam. Tomorrow is her first elimination game. Her team, Philadelphia Spirit (Fast Pitch Softball), is in seed one in her division. They are undefeated in the tournament so far. I hope I can catch part of the game. My nephew is a good dad and good coach. That makes me proud and happy because I’ve been keeping him straight since I was 10 years old. We fight like brother and sister BUT he listens to me. I get through to him and I know I played a role in making him the man he is today. That makes me happy and proud especially when I see him with his kids.

I have an appt with my Gastro doc tomorrow morning. I am hoping for answers but I don’t expect to get any tomorrow since I will need a scope and probably a cat scan. The pain is all around the left breast which is where the stomach but it is also where the heart is. My BP and Heart Rate have been stable and beautiful. Hopefully that means my heart is not the problem. Either way, I need to figure out what this is because it’s wearing me out.

I just decided it was time to be honest and show authenticity on this blog. Sometimes life sucks. These health issues are taking a toll on my stamina and wearing me down. That is nothing but the truth. Why should I act strong when I am not? Why shouldn’t I allow you to see me? Perhaps I allow folks to see me this raw, others will feel liberated and will drop their masks too. Perhaps someone reading this will see I am sad and know it is ok for them to be sad too. Maybe someone will see it’s ok to be messy and afraid. Show up anyway… Show up in life anyway… The below poem is messy and afraid Linda writing authentically about how she’s been feeling lately. Please open your mind and heart a little before reading this. Allow your compassion and empathy to feel what I am feeling rather than judging me. Then you will understand authentically how I feel.

In gratitude,
Linda

Showing Up, Anyway
By: Linda A Long

I can pretend…For your benefit…That I am well
That my…Mind, body and spirit…Are harmoniously unified
I can pretend…That I am…Determined to…Remain strong and optimistic
That I have…Control of my emotions
That I am…Filled with…Inspiration to rise up…And fight, fight
The adversary within…My own body
Undermining every…Step forward…Pulling me back…After every victory…Weighing me down
With worry, anxiety…And ceaseless attacks…On my body
Weakening my mind…And slowly…Breaking my spirit
I only fought…This long…Because I didn’t…Want you to…Think I was weak
I only fought…This long…Because I believed…I could still…Win
I believed…I could still…Live a full life
I thought…I would still have love
And be able to…Share my heart…With another
Joyfully living my life…In a state of gratitude
But…It is very hard
To be grateful…While feeling…Constantly defeated…By a body that…Attacks itself
It is hard…To be optimistic…When every day…Presents a new physical challenge
With little answers…And even less support
Everyone wants to hear…“I’m great”
No one wants…To know the truth
Or even really…Look in my eyes to see my truth
No one wants to…Stop looking at…Their phone for five minutes to have a simple Conversation
And actually mean it…When they ask…“How are you?”
I’ll just go on…Pretending…“I’m great”
And you all…Just go on…Doing whatever makes you feel good
With your heads…Buried in your phones…Too preoccupied for human compassion
Being too wrapped up…In your own life…To really care…About mine
I go on pretending…To make it easier…For everyone…Who says…“I am here for you”
But really…Just want to be here…When I am great…And not when
Life is heavy and complicated…
I’ll pretend…You care…While you feel…Good about yourself
I know the truth….But
I will keep pretending…For your benefit
If it helps you…Get through the day
Broadcasting fake friendship…On Facebook…While phone calls and texts…Go unanswered
I know who…I can really count on…I know who…Really cares about me
But…I will pretend…For your benefit
Everything is fine…Even while I silently…Want to let go
Because I am tired…
From fighting so hard…To be well…It is exhausting me
Fighting alone…Is disheartening
I am just not sure…I know my reason…Anymore
I don’t know my…Reason to fight…For this life…Anymore
And I am not sure…What difference…It makes
I am sorry…If my true thoughts
Scare you or hurt you…
It just scares me… That I don’t know what my reason…To live is anymore
The next time…You ask…“How are you?”
I’ll smile and say…“I’m great!”
Simply because…It’s what you want to hear
Not because…It’s how I feel
Know this…When I ask you…“How are you?”
I want to hear…The full truth…Even if it is…Messy, complicated and sad
Let me hear your heartache…Let me share your burden…Let me lighten your heart
I want you to know… You are loved…And have a reason… To live
Even if I can’t…Find my own reason anymore

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Blue Love Haiku #13

Blue Love Haiku #13

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Blue Love Haiku #13
By: Linda A Long
I rest in your thoughts
Riding the wave of your breathes
Filling you with love

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This is a mid-week poetry and a little bit of a self care post.

I am enjoying writing the Blue Love Haikus. They give me a quick creative outlet without saying too much. As far as the future of this blog, I am focusing on writing a Self Care Sunday post each week and writing one mid-week poetry post for now. Any additional posts will be ad-hoc as the spirit moves me.

I haven’t written about my Holistic Health Coaching business lately. That is mostly because I wanted to take the summer off. It is also because I changed full time jobs. I now have a job that I find fulfilling so I’ve been focusing on growing into that position and taking advantage of opportunities related to my full time career. I realized in recent weeks that I can’t build a Personal coaching business while also investing myself in building a new program in my full time job. I thought I would be able to manage two clients at a time in my coaching business while working full time and still have a enough time for self care. It’s not quite working out that way. After giving it a lot of thought, my intuition is telling me my energy needs to stay with my full time career. I also need to ensure I have time proper self care. Therefore, I will not be looking to grow a coaching business at this time. I contacted a local homeless shelter. We are working on an agreement for me to provide three to four hours per month of pro bono Life Coaching services to their residents/clients. This means I will still be able to work as a Life Coach but won’t have my own clients to manage. I will also have some freedom on how and when I schedule the appointments. Most importantly, I will be able to offer Life Coaching services to folks who normally would not be able to afford them. That feels good to me. We haven’t officially kicked anything off yet but I hope to have this all in place by the fall. I also decided I want my Life Coaching practice to focus on Self Care practices. While I can do Life Coaching under my Integrative Nutrition Health Coaching Certificate, I would not mind getting an official Life Coach credential as well. That’s a personal goal for my future.

It’s 4th of July. I am taking a short break to rest and write this blog. I walked four miles this morning. Afterwards I came home to clean and pack. Two coworkers and I are jumping in a car tomorrow for an overnight trip to southern Virginia (not far from Virginia Beach). We are  going to kickoff a “Get Well Plan” with a school that has a grant that is at risk. It’s a great learning opportunity for me. It’s also an opportunity for me to facilitate between the faculty and my coworkers. I’m a little nervous about traveling in a car for five hours with two people I really don’t know. We are also taking the Ferry and Cheasepeak Bay Bridge Tunnel. We are scheduled for 5:15 ferry home Friday night. I am hoping for good weather and calm seas. lol 🙂 I probably won’t be home until close to 8pm on Friday. A weekend of fun in the sun and in DC for the day on Monday.

This is the time of the year that beach town residents life myeslf get to practice our Defensive Driving Skills 😂 Oh my goodness. People and bikes darting out in front of cars. It’s scary. 😱😂 I try to walk as much as possible. Parking in my neighborhood has been insane this year. Not sure what happened. I have off-street parking but folks still come into our lot and take our spots. Guess what? Several have already been towed 🙂 I almost had someone towed on Friday night but fortunately our maintenance guy found them and told them to leave. I didn’t want to go to any barbeques off-shore today because I wanted to make sure my car is safely in my parking spot before folks starting coming into town for the fireworks later. Fireworks aren’t over until close to 10:30ish. That’s too late for me to come home from offshore on a work night. It’s now about 2:00pm and I am getting ready to head down to the beach for a couple hours.

Lastly, The below quote spoke to me 🙂 I definitely speak Butterfly 🦋 I believe in transformations, breaking free and metamorphosis. I hope to continue to surround myself with folks who are good for me. I hope I also encourage folks to transform and break free from their cocoons. My question to you is:

Do you speak Butterfly or Catterpillar?

Quote

Look for my next blog post on Sunday. It will be about ways to practice Self Care and I’ll tell you all about my road trip to Virginia in that post. To see my daily posts, follow me on:

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Blue Love Haiku #12

Blue Love Haiku #12

Blue Love Haiku #12

Blue Love Haiku #12
By: Linda A. Long

What if I told you
My hips swing to your heartbeat
As they open with lust
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I am once again writing Blue Love a mid week love poems/haiku to try to get my brain out of the linear work mode into a freer space of creativity 😊 Writing for him makes me happy 😊

Oh my goodness, what a week so far. It’s all good. LOTS of opportunities! However, so much work. Honestly, if this job wasn’t so damn rewarding and so chuck full of opportunities, I might consider alternatives😂 It’s really an exciting time in my career and I am very grateful for it all. I am grateful for all that I have and I am eagerly looking forward to more…so much more.

In a nutshell, I was asked to travel to southern virginia next Thursday and Friday with a team to visit a school with a grant that is at risk. While I was planning on taking off those days to enjoy some beach time, it was an opportunity I could not pass up. I said YES and I am taking off this Monday and Tuesday instead. I was asked to possibly present a workshop and moderate a panel discussion for my leadership at conference in front of hundreds of people in DC in September😱😂😂 We submitted the paperwork for it today. We will know in a few weeks if we were selected. I had three amazing meetings with stakeholders and walked out with tons of action items. I worked with two interns who just graduated high school and have no clue about working a real job. I had to explain things to them while they were yawning in front of me 😂😂 I told one, “Go get a Snicker!” 😂😂 Guess what? All of this and it is only Thursday. I am working tomorrow. I hope it is a slower paced day 😉

On a funny note, my mother sent me a photo of me when I was about 70lbs heavier than I am now. She said, “Hang this on your mirror so you remember how fat you were and you never go back!” 😂😂 My Mom has always been a straight shooter; tells it like it is. The photo is on my mirror as my reminder 😂 She also found my senior prom photo which actually isn’t all that bad as far as senior prom photos go…

What going well for you? How’s life? Are you living your highest good?

ICYMI: My last post was Self Care Sunday. It focused on taking care of my physical body and protecting my life force by staying away from folks from my past who were not good for me. It also included “The Emperor” – a poem I wrote for Blue Love in 2017. Blue Love is and always has been good for me 💙🦋

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Self Care Sunday – The Emperor Of My Heart

It’s Sunday; that means I am writing about Self Care. Self Care today has taken on a physical and spiritual flavor.

Physically, I am feeling good. My broken foot is almost healed. It still gets sore but overall it’s pretty much better. Unfortunately, the foot issue affected my right SI Joint and IT Band because I was walking uneven. Even with weeks of PT and Chicropratic Adjustments, I’m still experiencing daily pain and tightness in both of those areas. Strength training in the gym is helping but it may a chronic issue. Often as we get older we have aches and pains that never really go away; we just learn how to adapt and live with pain.

As I am getting older, I am learning the importance of keeping active and moving through pain most of the time. There are some days when it is appropriate to take a complete and total rest day. However, I find I feel better with some movement on most days. Staying active is self care for me. I went to the gym on Friday and walked five miles. On Saturday, I walked five miles and toured some the 48 Blocks Art installations in Atlantic City. I enjoyed both days. This is my third day off. I woke up more tired than usual and sore. I pushed through it and walked a slow three miles. As I was approaching the end of my walk, I realized my SI Joint and IT bands just weren’t loosening up which meant it was time to slow down for rest and recovery. After being social most of Friday and Saturday, I am not really up for socializing today either. It’s only 11:00am on Sunday morning. I am sitting in my new Espresso leather recliner writing this blog contemplating if I have the energy to go to the pool or beach today. I’m tuning into my body’s inner wisdom to direct my level of activity today. As of right now, it feels like it will a quiet rest and recovery day.

My spiritual self care today is focused more on protection of my life force and energy. I am feeling really good lately. I am operating on the highest level I ever have in my entire life professionally and personally. I am balanced and grounded. I feel peaceful and happy. I’ve chosen to surround myself with folks who are also operating on a level equal to mine or higher. I committed myself to working and living to my highest potential and finding my highest good. That means I need folks in my life who can push me and motivate me to reach for more and be my best. I enjoy being with folks who challenge me to rise up and reach for more within myself. I am not slowing down or going back to who I was.

Unfortunately, I can not allow some folks from my past to re-enter my life. I need to be especially vigilant in not revisiting any relationship that was unhealthy in the past. No hard feelings. I wish folks well and hope they find happiness but I can say for sure it won’t be with me. If they weren’t good for me ten years ago, my intuition is telling me they still would not be good for me now. This is good self care for me.

Life isn’t always roses and unicorns. Life has pressures, challenges and frustrations. I find the pressure, challenges and frustrations easier to deal with now because I am better at protecting my spiritual energy. I am better at making sure I am not giving too much to others. I am better at recognizing folks whose spiritual energy isn’t a match to my own. I am better aligned holistically – mind, body and spirit. I am focused on using my natural skills and abilities to spurn growth in all areas of my life. I want to joyfully pursue my highest good with people who have true honest intentions towards me and are good for me.

As I was walking in nature this morning, I was praying and tuning into my own intuition for direction and guidance. My thoughts kept returning to Blue Love. His intentions towards me are genuine and pure. His energy is balanced and healthy. Our connection is healthy and good for both of us. Wherever it goes, whatever happens between us, no matter how things play out for us – we have been good for each other. That’s what a true Soul Mate does for you. They make you better and help you grow. Having folks in my life like him is good self care for me.

I wrote this poem for Blue Love a while ago. It was on my mind today as I was walking. He is still the Emperor of my heart.

The Emperor ~ Love, Sex And Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

Who is he
Who is the
Man
The Emperor
Who is this
Man
In your
Atmosphere
The man
Who walks
With you
You wear
His essence
Like perfume
And hold
His heart
In your hands
Gingerly
Knowing
With your
Heart’s Intuition
This strong man
Has a soft
Gentle soul
Who is
The Emperor
Is he
Your King
Your partner
Your lover
The leader
Of your world
This man
This man
Who’s energy
Whirls around your
Atmosphere
Taking his place
Next to you
Demanding
To be heard
In your mind’s eye
Who is this
Formidable man
You like
His fire
You crave
His fire
The fire in his belly
Lights your match
His heart beats
In yours
Who is
The Emperor
Of your world
Matching your
Passion
You crave
His energy
His kiss
Drips off of
Your lips
In anticipation
Of his possession
He is the ruler
Of your heart
Just as you
Are the fire
In his soul
You burn
In his
Atmosphere
The Goddess
In you
Is his strength
You honor
Him with
Words of love and devotion
You inspire
Him with desire
You nurture him with
True
Real
Beautiful
Love
That is
Here
To stay
In both
Of your lives
Who is
The Emperor
Of your heart
Have faith
In this
Formidable man
Have faith
In your bond
Trust what
You see
Believe what
You sense
Until the Emperor
Is laying beside you
Have faith
And stand true
As his
Goddess
Of love
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Blue Love Haiku #11

Blue Art

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Blue Love Haiku #11
By: Linda A. Long

Dive into my soul
And drift in my peaceful waters
Rest in my heartbeat
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NOTE: This is my mid week attempt to balance my left and right brain with some love poetry for Blue Love.

I’ve been in Grants Management and Budgeting training classes most of this week. Although the classes are very detailed with little room for creativity, I am enjoying them. I’ve learned to take advantage of job related training opportunities when they are offered to me. The truth is I have no idea where my current work assignment will take me. It is in my best interest to take advantage of opportunities they offer me for exposure and to possibly set myself up to capitalize when a permanent opportunity manifests for me.

The Law of Attraction teaches it is important to TAKE PRUDENT ACTION WITHOUT DELAY. Prudent action without delay keeps you in alignment with the flow of Universal energies. It is also important to prepare yourself. Oprah often says, “Luck is when preparation meets opportunity.” So I am preparing myself so I can capitalize on more opportunities down the road. I like to strategize a few moves ahead 😂

My good news this week was the $1,500 in damages I did to a parked car is actually getting repaired with no cash out of my pocket. Turns out I have accident forgiveness. My insurace company covered it under my property damage and will not raise my rates. That was a blessing. It didn’t look like $1,500 damages. Thank God all my car needed a little paint touch up and that is already done.

So far it’s a good week and I am looking forward to my three day weekend. I am attending and volunteering at some of the 48 Blocks in AC venues this weekend. It will be nice to park the car for the weekend, walk or take the free jitneys around town to explore the venues.  48 Blocks is weekend long initiative in Atlantic City to feature art, music, dance and yoga. “Atlantic City spans 48 blocks, divided into 6 wards. With a hub in each ward, 48 Blocks highlights art, artists, & communities throughout the city.” Visit www.48blocksac.com for more info.

Remember – Blue Love Poetry

Art lovers Remember – Blue Love Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

Take a moment
Just one moment
Close your eyes
Take a long deep breathe
Breathe in
Slowly
And think of me
Breathe out
Slowly
And exhale
My name
In this beautiful
Peaceful moment
Think of me
Call me
Before you
Until you see me
Staying in
Front of you
With my eyes
Locked in an embrace
With yours
Think of me
Until you feel
My affection
For you
Softening you
With the gentle
Touch of my hand
Against your chest
Think of me
Until you are aroused

Remember
What it felt
Like to
Share a lustful moment
With me
Remember
How it felt
To share
A glance
With me
As we passed by
Remember
How it felt
To sit near me
And feel my energy
Remember
What it felt like
To know
My heart
Was racing with
Excitement for you

Take a moment
And revisit
This beautiful time
We shared
Take a moment
And remember
What it felt like
To look deep
Into my soul
As you
Have done
A hundred times
In the past
Remember
How it felt to
See my heart
And know
It was beating for you
Close your eyes
And remember
How you felt
When we
Were near each other

It’s still yours
My fire
My magic
My excitement
My energy
My passion
My lust
And desire
Is still yours
Our peace
Our friendship
Our loyalty
Our love
Is still yours
It is still yours
Close your eyes
And remember
How it felt
When I was near you
It is still yours
This pure
Unconditional Love
Is still yours
Remember
How it feels
To be loved
By me
Remember
You are loved
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