Self Care Sunday – Destination Happiness

This Self Care Sunday and I am reflecting on where I find happiness.

Folks often ask me why don’t I travel and see the world more. My favorite comment is that happiness is not a destination for me. Vacations are escapes. Folks go away to escape reality. For me, I’d rather make my reality a place I don’t have to escape. I prefer to have peace and happiness right where I am.

I can appreciate exploring new places. I always love going to Washington, DC for work or going to New York for a weekend to wander around the city. However, the reality is I don’t always travel well. Four days seems to be my max. I also don’t have a travel companion right now. Perhaps if I was traveling with someone I would enjoy staying longer. Friends ask me to go on trips but the reality is most are going on “drinking” trips which isn’t how I roll anymore. I prefer to roam around a city, any city, all day until I am exhausted. Have a deliciously expensive meal at the bar with maybe one glass of deliciously expensive red wine and then be comfy in my hotel room by 9pm for an early start the next day. I haven’t found anyone who wants to travel that way.

I don’t spend a lot of money on big vacations so I made a decision a few years ago to move to a beach front condo in a high rise. I wanted to see the ocean everyday. I wanted to feel like I was on vacation at the beach everyday. I still love it. I still love the view. Who would want to escape this view?

Beach

While I’ve been reevaluating most of my life lately, I made a few decisions about how I am moving forward and what I am choosing to spend my money on.

I do not choose to spend my money on fancy vacations, jewelry or a big home. Long weekend trips, funky handmade bohemian jewelry and a condo in a high rise is all I need. Happiness isn’t a destination. It’s traveling lite through life without having a lot of baggage, stuff or expenses weighing me down.

I had a conversation with my Chiropractor about my hip rotating. Part of my hip issue is that I am an under-pronator. I have high arches and land on the outside of my foot. That’s a problem if you aren’t checking your shoes. It throws off your whole alignment. After checking all of my shoes, I threw out 12 pairs of shoes which were worn out. I was walking on a slant didn’t realize it until I invested in new shoes with cushion and support. Of course, I need to be fashionable and I am not completely giving up high heels but I will be more mindful on the type of shoe I select now. I am totally ok with buying $100 shoes if my hip doesn’t hurt everyday. It’s important for me to feel good everyday because I want to remain active for the rest of my life. I like walking 10,000 steps everyday. I want to feel good. Honestly, the new shoes and new style of sneakers already feel better. Most of my new shoes are now Clarks Brand but they have to be stylish while also offering support to my feet. Money well spent. It makes me happy. Happy isn’t is a destination. It’s feeling good and being pain free.

TIP: You can determine what type of foot you have by doing a quick wet test on your foot. Wet your foot and step down on the a piece of paper. Compare it to the middle foot patterns on the image below. Mine looks like the first one, Undepronation. My shoes get really worn out on back of the heel which pushes my hip and back out of alignment. Look for shoes (especially sneakers and casual shoes) that support your foot style.

I started using a local Gluten Free Food prep company recently, www.eatcleanorg.com I order three or four meals from them each week. I use them for dinners. I usually order the Keto meals which are higher in protein. I LOVE IT! I am eating better. It’s great having dinner ready to go for those nights. It’s worth every penny. I also buy my Green Juice; I drink it every day! And, I go through Dunkin Donuts Drive-thru every work morning for my regular order – Extra large, hot, half Dark Roast, Half Decaf and Cream(Half and Half). Happiness isn’t a destination is choosing to eat clean and begin my work day with Dunkin Donuts. Remember – Friends don’t let friends drink Starbucks! ☕️

Dunkin Donuts

I am in my second week of Intermitten Fasting. It only took a few days for me adjust to 14 hours between Dinner and Breakfast. I still drink my coffee towards the end of the fast but I do wait the full 14 hours before eating. My stomach feels good. I noticed I am not as hungry, bloated or have acid reflux as often. I am not sure I will ever get up to 16 hours of fasting three nights per week but it’s my goal. Dr. Axe is always a good source for holistic health advice. If you ever need to look something up, I recommend googling Dr. Axe for his tips on just about anything…

https://draxe.com/intermittent-fasting-benefits/

Dr. Axe, Intermittent Fasting

So often folks get caught up in the destination trap. They put their happiness into the future; attach it to an event or a relationship. Instead having the courage to let go and make changes in their life. Instead they choose to suffer through days, weeks and months and escape reality for a week of vacation. Reality is still waiting for you when you return home… How about qualifing or quantifing happiness differently? Can you rearrange your life so you don’t have to escape to find happiness? Can your destination be a journey within instead of an external escape?

Growth

ICYMI
Have you found your Center? Check out my last post below on finding my Center and my status update on my first week in my new job👇

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved
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Finding My Center

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The last year of my life has been about Finding my center again. It’s been about finding my most authetic self after all the superficial stuff fads away. In order to do this, I needed quiet, distance and time just move in my own rhythm. My focus has been on me…no one else. Things got hairy and a little scary at times 😂😂

Meme

Friday is the last day of my first week in my new job. This job brought me back to my professional “home”! I am in a new role but surrounded by familiar faces. There’s so much to learn and re-learn. I’ve been gone 14 months. Just enough time for me to be completely out of the organizational rhythm.

Just a couple of days in and I can say it’s the pace I really like. It’s the pace I missed for the last 14 months. There’s a different pace between a strategic group and a 24 hours operations group. While the slower pace was good at first because it was a break from the grind, the slow pace is one of things that bothered me most. I am an action person. I stay more engaged when I am in a steady flow of activity. My challenge will be to balance my activity so I don’t get burned out again. I need to remember to pull back and remind myself one very important question with each task, “Is this mine to worry about?” I was not always good at this in the past and took on things that really were not mine to worry about! I own that truth!

The nice thing this time around is I am focused on only one program/system area instead of being generalize and I am also not in a support role. Both were essential requirements for me to rejoin this group. It seems they found the perfect opportunity. Since it’s a new role, I will be involved in developing and maturing it. It is just the kind of challenge that motivates  me. I realized the other day the program I am now working on has 222 in its name. Hmm? 222 is my God Sign number; it’s my favorite number. Of course, that is not coincidence; it’s synchronicity. It’s Universal Flow.
222
One of my first observations is that it’s nice to be around so many folks who are so dedicated and focused on working towards a shared goal. In my last role, I was on my own a lot. It’s part of the reason I didn’t enjoy it. I am inspired by the work ethic of some of my coworkers; it helps me rise up and reach for better in myself. I am also happy they all agreed I can stay in the same cubicle – at least for now – we will see down the road. I like where I sit! It’s quiet and out of the spotlight 😂👌

So how did this happen? How did I end up working in group I thought I left? How did I end up turning down an opportunity I worked for a year to get? Well, these folks got their hooks into me two months ago and slowly reeled me in. Honestly, I seemed to bump into both of my bosses everywhere I went the last few weeks. They kept telling me it was sign 😂Maybe it was… It was annoying but it seemed to work 😂😂

I was so filled with stress and anxiety about making the right choice I couldn’t think clearly about it. I reached out to a friend for help in getting clarity. He asked one question. “Do you enjoy the work?” (I had been doing prior to making the move). After struggling to answer the question, I realized it was NO. No, I didn’t enjoy the work and admitting that felt like failure to me. Seems crazy but that’s why I did not want to admit it. You know you are growing when you can see your own crazy irrational thoughts and intuitively know it’s time to ask for help! I especially love that it was Blue Love who helped me get the clarity I needed to make this important choice 💙 I am growing and I aim to surround myself with folks who are willing to reconnect with their Center and grow too 😊

Meme

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved
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Self Care Sunday ~ New Beginnings

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This is a follow up post to last week’s Self Care Sunday post.

Professional limbo ended Thursday! After spending two months in professional limbo, it’s finally over! I was so far in the stress and anxiety of the situation that I was starting to doubt my intuition and instincts. It all came down to a friend asking me one question, “Do you enjoy the work?” I struggled to answer the question. He called me on not being able to answer the question directly 😂 It was almost as if I couldn’t bring myself to admit the answer was no. The truth was I just couldn’t say yes without caveating it. With that clarity, I took a deep breathe and declined a job offer I worked all year to get 😂 I never thought I would find myself doing that! They reached out to me again the next day to find out if I was sure 😂 I am sure.

Then on Thursday afternoon I was asked to be on a team that will work to stabilize a program. The job has everything I need. I will be able to use all of my talent and skills to benefit a team that needs help stabilizing a program. I will be able to use my strategic planning skills and the best part is I like my new teammates. I am looking forward to a new beginning in a comfortable environment that will allow me to really make an impact and do meaningful work. Just one question… Should I be worried I am starting a new job on April Fool’s Day? 😂😂😂

New beginning quote

If you recall, I mentioned last week I figured out I was not eating enough protein and was curious if it was contributing to my fatigue and joint pain. Well, this is exciting… I am noticing I have more energy and less pain since I increased my protein intake by 20 grams per day. Because I increased my protein, I decreased sugar and carbs. I was starting to get some muscle cramps. I read that can happen when you increase protein and decrease carbs. It’s mineral loss. I upped my Magnesium to 200mg of Mag Glyclinate and I started drinking 8 to 12oz of Gatorade Zero daily. It helped. Today was the first day I felt great in a long time.

I started experimenting with Intermittent Fasting. I normally I eat food between roughly 7:00am and 7:00pm. I usually get about 11 or 12 without food which gives the tummy a chance to relax and from digestion. This week I am stretching the time out to 14 hours and I hope to eventually reach 16 hours three days per week. This type of fasting for 16 hours; 8 hours of eating is supposed to be really beneficial to the digestion process. You still eat the same amount of food; you just shorten the window. I am not sure how this will work out or if I will ever get to 16 hours. 14 hours seems ok to me. But, we will see.

Intermittent Fasting

Intermittent Fasting

I started physical therapy for my shoulder this week; we decided to work my whole upper body. After I am done physical therapy, I am going to work with a personal trainer in Pilates and Yoga to get stronger. SOOO, I felt like a change… I had my hair professional colored… It is dark brown with red streaks. I love it! I may add more red the next time. A girl needs to feel sexy and desirable 😊💙

Feeling Sexy quotes

I’m so excited😆I pick up my first order on Monday from a local Gluten Free food prep company👍It will take the guess work out of dinner for a couple nights each week. I chose Gluten Free Keto meals which are higher in protein! Check out http://www.eatcleanorg.com or visit them on Instagram @eatcleanorg

#foodprep #keto

Food prep

As I reflect on the past week, I am grateful. I am grateful for a new beginning in work. I am grateful my professional limbo status finally is over. I am grateful a friend helped me get clarity so I could make this important choice. I am grateful for the wonderful experience I had the last year. I am grateful my body is feeling stronger. I am grateful for new beginnings 💙

ACTION:
Do sometthing that makes you feel good about you…If you need help, reach out to friend…Trust the magic a new beginning 💙

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May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved
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Self Care Sunday – Decisions and Adjustments

My self care is my responsibility. With this in mind, I decided to do a formal check-in on my own holistic wellness this week. In other words, I did few exercises to look at my overall holistic health. I identifed two areas I need to refocus myself and make decisions and adjustments.

First, the work/career area of my life needed to be reset. After taking a step back, I realized the professional limbo and uncertainty I’ve been in my career has been bleeding negativity and inaction into other areas of my life. It all started when I got myself stuck in limbo about six weeks ago after I made a decision but was asked to give them a little bit of time to fix things or work things out. Well, six weeks later there still isn’t clarity and it is now a political hot potato going between managers. I took the opportunity to pull the escape hatch this week. I put an end to my involvement in it. I also noticed I am starting to lose my patience with the situation so I needed to find an exit ramp so I don’t lose my temper inappropriately. I also feel like I have received everything I need from this experience and that is why things have become sticky and frustrating for me. In other words…It’s time to open to other opportunities and let go. It’s scary but it’s time to take a deep breathe and jump 🙏🤞😂

Decisions

Staying in professional limbo was killing my motivation. I am a do-er. Being paralyze hasn’t been good for my emotional well-being the last month and the anxiety was starting to make me depressed and sick. When given the opportunity to step out, I took it. I am returning to old group on April 1st. I have a meeting set up at the end of the week to discuss my new responsibilities. It felt good to take my power back and let go of a situation that was stressing me out. While I am a bit sad, it became clear to me that it was costing me too much to try and working things out. It was time to choose again. I chose again. The bottom line is it was starting to be too hard…it should not be this hard.

Law of attraction

When I get stressed out, sad or anxious, my diet is always the first to suffer😌I hit the sugar and carbs hard ☺️ 😂I start to rely on my comfort foods. Since the beginning of the year, sugar, dairy and carbs have sneaked back into daily meals and have edged out the protein and veggies.

Cheat day meme

I was suspecting that not getting enough protein was actually the source of my muscle and joint pains recently so I used a food diary, www.myfitnesspal.com, to track my food for a month. I realized that I am getting about 20 to 30 grams below the amount of protein I need every day and most of my calories were coming from carbs and dairy. Instead of making any big sweeping dietary changes, I am just going to focus on eating more protein such as Chicken Breasts, Hard Boiled Eggs, Jerky, Protein Shakes, etc. (see below for examples of good sources of protein). Eating more protein will automatically crowd out the calories from the carbs and dairy. Spiritually, Protein is a grounding food and helps to root us energetically. I’ve been feeling like maybe my Root Chakra was a little unstable lately so grounding will help that too.

Protein quotes

ACTION
The action this week is to check-in with your diet. Our dietary needs change as we age. Are you getting the nutrients your body needs?

A quick way to figure out how much protein you should be eating is to multiply your weight by .36. If you would like to see how much of each nutrient you need each day, you can use a food tracker app like www.myfitnesspal.com. It automatically tells you how much you need based upon your height and weight. Another resource is the USDA DRI Calculator for Healthcare Professionals located at https://fnic.nal.usda.gov/fnic/dri-calculator/index.php. The below screen shot is also linked to the site. You just put your information in the form and it will tell you what you need.

DRI Calculator

Sources of protein

Meatless sources of protein

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved
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Queen Of Pentacles ~ Blue Love Poetry

Queen Of Pentacles Art

Queen Of Pentacles – Blue Love Poetry
Come into
The light
And free
Your truth
Say it out loud
And release
It off your chest
Put it into the air
Give life
And energy
To its divine creation
We will always
Love you
I heard
Whispered in my ear
As I laid in dreamland

The high priestess
Sitting on a throne
Of Sorrow
Called within my heart
She beckoned me
To step forth
Out of darkness
And allow
My deepest
Hope and wishes
My most private desires
To be placed
In front of the
Confident king
As the gift of light
The light of my soul

The Empress
Within me
Commanded me to
Work hard
On righting my soul
To be in perfect
Alignment
With the
Flow of the Universe
She called on me to
Right my soul
To receive the beautiful light
Of love
Shining from a
Blossoming heart
Align myself
And allow a king
To come forward
To a queen

The Queen
Within me
Grew out of sorrow
To embody
Compassion and empathy
Transforming pain
Into strength
She stepped out
Of the shadows
Into the universal light
Of self love
She transformed

My King
Move with me
Through growth and
Transition
Meet me
Down the way
On the road
And transform
With me
Join me down road
Where we will
Meet again
Not as the wounded soldiers
Of our past
But as the
Queen and King
We stepped out
Of the shadows to be
Meet me
Down the way
Take your seat
Next to me
As a King
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NOTE
The images of Kings and Queens have been in my head. I’ve had some crazy dreams the last few days too. I do like the mental image of growing into a King and a Queen 👸

Today is my birthday. It’s a weird day. Nothing worked out as I planned it this year. I still took today off from work for a “me” day since I am still a bit stressed out by professional stuff. No matter what choice I make, I will be starting a new job on April 1st – I am just not sure which one it will be 😂😂 This situation is really complicated and involves three different groups now! So much office politics it’s crazy. I am trying to ride the wave and hope for the best. I will say this crazy situation zapped my motivation and I am not really enjoying being in the office these days. Perhaps once things settle down and I know for sure what’s going to happen, I will be re-energized by a new opportunity🤞For now, I am just trying to keep my head above water and not get depressed because no matter what happens — on 4/1/19 I am starting a new job – somewhere 😂😂

Oh, and my official board certification for Holistic Health Practitioner arrived today; this made me happy 😊

AADP

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved
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Self Care Sunday – Equanimity

Equanimity

This Self Care Sunday I’ve taken a step back to evaluate why I have been feeling extremely fatigued in recent weeks. This brought me straight to a lesson about Equanimity.

Equanimity is defined as being calm and even tempered. Spiritually it translates into having both mental calmness and clarity and being able to find happiness regardless of circumstance or situation.

Equanimity

I’ve surrendered to my body’s need for rest. I’ve been extremely fatigued lately. It seems like when I am not working, I am resting and sleeping 😴 😂It’s getting old! 😂I’ve always needed a lot of sleep but I am feeling a bit more fatigued than usual in recent weeks.

Well, one reason I am feeling fatigue is due to stress. I’ve been in a stressful situation at work. I’ve been caught in the middle of office politics. While I was handling this pretty good for a few weeks, it has gone on too long. The professional limbo and uncertainty is causing me nothing but anxiety now. It’s making me tired 😴

Another reason I am so exhausted lately is age related. My body is in transition. I haven’t come out the other side of Menopause yet so I am on the hormonal roller coaster. I will be turning 52 on Thursday and I am starting to feel 52 in some ways. I’ve always needed more rest than others so I am trying to be patient and surrender as my body tries to find homeostasis. To be on the safe side, I made all of my annual doctor appointments for the next month just to double check my blood work. However, I am betting it is just stress and the dreaded “change” wearing me out 😴😂

When I left work on Thursday, I felt like a head cold was trying to get a hold on me and on Friday morning I hurt my arm while doing lateral extensions with dumbbells. (OUCH)🤬 This means my body needs me to slow down to heal. I’ve been focusing on getting extra rest and sleep to kill of the impending head cold while I’ve been icing my shoulder. Perhaps it’s ok for me to sleep all day today😴I am not depressed or unhappy just tired and sore and binge watching “Veep” because it’s light and funny 😆 At this moment, equanimity begins with me maintaining a calm mind to help my body release and heal.

Equanimity

Truthfully, I am in such a state of surrender to my body’s need for rest and sleep, I would cancel all of my plans and stay home If I felt like that was the best thing for me to do. It really doesn’t matter. I am not attached one way or another. I just want to do what is best for my body. Actually, this is a great place to be. This is called Equamitity and I’ve spent my entire adult life hoping to achieve this awareness.

Equanimity

ACTION

Can you reflect on Equanimity? Perhaps google it and read up on it a bit. Perhaps see where in your life you can embrace it and embody it? Can you practice non-attachment and find peace regardless of the situations or outcomes?

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved
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The Well ~ Blue Love Poetry

The Well ~ Blue Love Poetry
My love for you
Is like water
Cup it
In your hands
Savor it
Drink it
Use it to
Nourish you
With affection
Let me
Be your well
I am
Filled with love
For you

My love for you
Is like water
In your body
It will sustain you
With Joy
Hope
Inspiration
And
Support
Feel it
Rejuevinate you
Drink from
My well of love
Restore yourself
With my love

My love for you
Is like water
Crashing into you
With passion
Calling you to rise
With the call
From my womanhood
Asking you to
Ride with me
On the waves
Of our desires
Come back my love
To our playfulness
Join me
In having fun
With our flirtation
Once again
Wet me
With your beautiful eyes
Do you remember when
It was fun
Let’s have fun
With each other again
Ride the wave
Back to my body and
Drink from
My well
To rekindle our passion

My love for you
Is like water
Steady and calm
Like a tranquil river
Flowing effortlessly
From my soul
To yours
Answering the call
Of your heart to
Rest and float
While we bask
In the bright
Sunshine of love
And float down
The river of life
On a raft of love
Float in the well
Of love with me
Let’s find
Peace in our surrender

The well
Of my love
Is here
To sustain you
And
Nourish you
Come drink
From the well
And be restored
By my love
Drink from
The well of
My love

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NOTE So, I’ve had this image of a well in my mind for some reason. I keep picturing reaching in the well and filling up a cup with water. I started thinking what if it was love instead of water in the well? Hmm? What if I AM a well of love? At the same time, I also had the image of my Blue Love in my mind.

Life has certainly been serious lately. I’ve been so preoccupied with personal growth, working on myself and trying to nail down my career path, that there has been no room for fun or flirtation. I miss having fun with Blue Love. I sure would enjoy some quality flirtious fun with my favorite playmate🙏😂😇 Things were simpler in the past. I am thankful for all the blessings and growth I am experiencing now. I know I needed this time for myself to heal and grow but I also miss the time we were close together and could just have fun.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved
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Self Care Sunday ~ Grieving is self care

Rumi 20 years and her death is still my reason. My sister died on March 9, 1999 around 4:30am with me and other family members by her side after two weeks on life support and a battle with a terminal illness. During those two weeks, I sat with her. I talked to her. I read the newspaper to her. But mostly I sat in silent prayer. Honoring the beautiful soul that made such an impact on my life. When it became clear to me that it was end, I made her promises and those promise are still the reasons for my choices today.

I promised her I would live the life I was capable of living. I didn’t live up to that promise for a long time. I promised her I would live up to the beauty she saw within me. I was so blinded by self doubt and bad influences in my life that I couldn’t see myself as beautiful. I also made sure I thanked her. Anything good that is me is there because she loved me and believe in me. I am who I am because that beautiful soul loved me and took care of me since the day I was born.

How exactly do you commemorate the 20th anniversary of the most painful day of your life? I am honoring her by finally living the life I am capable of living. No more playing small. I am making choices that are authentically aligned with my truth now. That’s the only way I can live now. Emotionally, I recognize a need for support so I went out to dinner with friends last night (Friday). It was a beautiful night out. I am going to philly for a day with the family on Sunday. Today, Saturday, I am honoring my body’s need to slow down. I am also allowing myself to feel melancholy for what I lost. I am reflecting and being thankful for how I’ve grown and changed in recent years. I am remembering where I came from with gratitude. I am reaffirming my commitment to embodying love and light as I moved forward in this life. Mostly, I am just missing my sister and wondering how the hell it still hurts so bad after 20 years. The pain of grief never really goes away. You just become desensitized to it. It’s like the chronic knee pain you’ve learned to live with as you get older. I’m still walking but my heart and soul are wounded. So today is a day for me to just allow myself to honor that feeling without pressing myself to be happy or social.

On a positive note, I received wonderful news on Thursday about a career related situation. It looks like the strategic risk I took a few weeks ago is going to work out better that I even imagined. It’s partly official but not totally buttoned up yet. I can’t celebrate yet. The dust should settle in the next week or two. A new beginning will hopefully be on my horizon by the end of March. The best part of this is — even if it does go sideways, I can live with it. I did the right thing for myself and for my Program. If I end up back where I used to work after all of this — well, that must be where I am meant to be. This positive news is helping to keep my spirits balanced on a tough emotional day.

Grief

ACTION
This week’s action is to honor where you are. Feel what you need to feel. Cry if you need to cry. Hit bottom if it’s the only way for you to rise up to the top again. Show yourself some love and compassion today.

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Grief

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Shine ~ Blue Love Poetry

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Shine ~ Blue Love Poetry
Divinely masculine
You are
Divinely masculine
I drink your
Your essence
Through my nipples
To nourish
My sexual fire
With the spark
Of your crystal eyes
I shine
For you

Divinely feminine
I am
Divinely feminine
I open
To your energy
And radiate
The glow of
Your masculine desires
From my hips
Like bolts
Of lightening
I spark
With desire
I shine
For you

You see me
In a way
I never allowed
Another man
To see me
You connect
With me
In a way
I’ve never been able
To experience
With another man
You are
My electricity
My spark
My Fire
I shine
For you

I am
Your Divine Feminine
I am Filled with
Love and joy
For you
I hold your
Passion
Between my hips
Wet with the anticipation
Of the day
You stand
In my energy
To breathe in
The fire of my
Life force
Into your chest
So you shine
Shine with
My love

Shine
My love
Shine
The light
Of my love
In your heart
Shine
For me
Connect
Your light
To mine
And
Shine
Shine
With our love
Shine

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Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

ICYMI: Check out my last post on finding your WHY by scolling down

Love

As Always – I will be including the Loving Kindness Prayer on every post going forward because I believe love can and will triump over evil. Light will prevail over darkness. I believe we need to put LOVE into the Universe. Love each other…

Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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What’s My WHY

What’s My Why

As I sit in professional limbo, I know one thing is for sure…I refuse to make an ego-based or an emotional decision✊

The ego and emotions have no place in making a strategic decision that will affect my career in the long term. My ego would jump at a promotion as a trophy while my emotions would pull me back to my old group/job because they feel like home. The key is for me to practice non-attachment to any outcome as I explore options and let things play out a little bit longer. I just need to steady my nerves to do this 😂 Whatever is for my highest good will rise up in my soul once I detach my emotions and ego from decision making process. Everything is always working out for my highest good even if it works out differently than I expected.

Every conversation I’ve had about this just muddied the water for me even more. I was getting myself confused because I never been one to follow external guidance. I now trust my own inner guidance system more for decisions that affect my life. I was in information and emotional overload which was making the choice more complicated.

Feeling conflicted and confused, I jumped into a hot shower last night. As the hot water pounded on my tight neck & shoulder muscles, I asked myself “What’s My WHY?”

My WHY is GROWTH. Growth is my word! I want potential for long term diversified growth opportunities in my future. This decision isn’t just about what I want to do today; it’s about how I want to position myself for long term growth in the future. Getting back to my WHY cleared up all the confusion and uncertainity I was having. The choice became clear! By the end of the night, I was relaxed and felt like the heaviness lifted.

What’s your why

For now, I need to see how the ball I put into motion plays out first; they advised I they should have a decision within two weeks (if not sooner). There are variables at play and I still feel I did the right thing. I just need to wait and see how it plays out. I also have a preferred contingency plan in place. If that goes sideways too, I still have a job to go back to 😂 It’s all good! I am ok with whatever happens because I know I lived and acted in alignment with my truth and I did what is right for the program I am representing. Wherever I end up, is where I am meant to be 😊

Every choice, every decision has a lesson in it. This one is teaching me patience. It’s also teaching me to TRUST to my intuition and use strategic thinking to evaluate choices instead of my ego. I can’t be reactive and emotional with this decision.

After all of that, I slept great last night and had a visitation dream from my deceased sister. She always comes in my dreams when I need reassurance and comfort😇✌️

If you need to make a big decision in your life, try using strategic logic to help you make the decision. Sit with yourself long enough to observe if your ego or emotions are driving your decisions. Can you practice non-attachment? Can you consider strategically aligning your choice with what you want in the future rather than reacting to the demands of your ego or attachments of your emotions? Seems to be working for me 😊✨

PS: I am feeling like a Blue Love Poem is brewing… Stop back Friday for a Blue Love note💙😊✨

Strategy

As Always – I will be including the Loving Kindness Prayer on every post going forward because I believe love can and will triump over evil. Light will prevail over darkness. I believe we need to put LOVE into the Universe. Love each other…

Remember to put a little love in the world by saying the Loving Kindness Prayer for someone special. I often like to say it for special people in my life as well for groups such as my family, friends, coworkers and all beings.

Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

I claim love as my vibration for 2019.
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Everything is always working out for my highest good 💙🦋

(C) 2019 Highest Good Holistic Health Coaching, LLC – All Rights Reserved

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