Self Care Sunday – Overstimulation is my Kryptonite

Rumi quote

I am highly sensitive and an Empath. My intuition is super charged. I can feel the heaviness of emotions around me. I am empathize to the point I take on another’s pain. I can tune into another’s heartbreak until I become incapacitated. I can feel the sadness of those around me. It’s a gift and burden. I’ve been this way since I was a little girl. People have always commented about how sensitive I was. My family used to tease me about my sensitivity until I would be in tears. I learned to hide it as I got older until I was eventually old enough to self medicate it with wine and beer.

In recent years, I’ve learned how to manage my sensitivities and embrace the gifts God gave me with good self care practices. I’ve also learned OVERSTIMULATION is my Kryptonite 🤢 Actually, it’s Kryptonite to anyone who is sensitive and empathetic. I’ve found inner peace, harmony and balance can only be found by managing external sensory stimulation.

So what is overstimulation? Overstimulation means too much sensory stimulation from lights, sounds, people, etc. It can include loud music, incessant talking, chaotic environments including work environments, bright white lights, perfumes and scents, too much screen time, too much TV especially NEWS, too much socialization, big parties and social events, not enough sleep, not enough alone time and stress even good stress can be over stimulating. When I am overstimulated, I become snarky, agitated, emotional, controlling and stressed out. When I am overstimulated, I clench my jaw subconsciously. When I am overstimulated, I worry and obsess. If I continue to be overstimulated for too long, I become depressed and can get sick.

I’ve learned as someone who is highly sensitive and empathetic it’s necessary for me practice good self care by giving myself plenty of alone time to recharge. I’ve learned to control how much TV I watch. I’ve learned to opt for quiet music instead of loud music. I’ve learned to stay in bed a little longer and to rest. I’ve learned to use soft lighting in my home and I’ve learned to be selective with whom I socialize and which social events I attend. My biggest overstimulation trigger was revealed to me a few weeks ago and it’s rocking my world.

I deactivated my Facebook account 18 days ago. 18 days ago I stopped using Instagram every day. 18 days ago I started limiting how much time I spend on Twitter. 18 days ago I took control of my Social Media habit and in doing so I realized Social Media was huge trigger of overstimulation for me. I also realized it’s an addiction. The first few days without Facebook were like detox. I kept wanted to go back but I held out. The first few days, I wanted a fix. I held out. I got through it and now, I am calmer and less keyed up because of it. Not only I am not triggered by what I see on Social Media but I’ve also greatly reduced my screen time. I’m sleeping better too.

The biggest benefit to my Social Media withdrawal is that I have more time back in my hands. I am back to reading books before going to bed instead of having my face buried in my phone. I now turn my phone off more often when I am writing or listening to music. I even started watching some shows that partial subtitles and I enjoy it. Something about watching a show with some subtitles makes me pay attention to it more which means I can’t look at my phone. It’s actually pretty relaxing. I am not sure how I feel about Facebook anymore. I am going to go 30 days without it and see how I feel about it then but I am thinking I am just going to leave it deactivated. I actually don’t think it was good for me. I also greatly reduced my time on Twitter too. I am actually happier and more relaxed without all of that noise in my life.

As I sit in my quiet room under warm blanket on a Saturday night writing this blog on my iPad Pro by the soft warm light of my Pink Himalayan Salt Lamp, I am thankful for the wisdom life has given me. I now write on Saturday nights and schedule my posts to go live at 6:00am on Sunday mornings. I am grateful I learned how to shut out the noise and tune into my inner knowledge. It’s been helping me manage my thoughts and stay calm in stressful situations. Sitting in silence is often the only way we can hear our own truth. My soul talks to me in these quiet moments. When does your soul talk to you?

SELF CARE CHALLENGE: Are you up for it? Deactivate Facebook for seven days. If you make it for seven days, go for 30 days. See if you are as addicted and overstimulated as I was.

Other updates, I had another great work week. I am designing a website for my Program and I got some good news about one of my projects that was stuck in our Legal department. I gave another successful presentation to leadership on Thursday which was fun. I enjoyed it. This has been such a great professional experience for me. It’s allowed me to really work to my skill level, use all of strengths and grow at the same time. With regards to my tummy troubles, my appointment with the Jeff Gastro is Wednesday. My local docs say Dr. Michael DiMarino at Jeff Gastro is worth the wait and he is supposedly an excellent diagnostician. I am looking forward to getting some answers and relief. While the pain isn’t horrible every day, it’s definitely not going away and hasn’t gotten better. It may even be a little worse. The waves of nausea that come on suddenly followed by a few other symptoms are uncomfortable. I pray for courage, strength and healing.

Staying tune to my hippie soul, I chose Crosby, Stills, Nash and Young for the music on this post this week. Their music speaks to my soul. I love their harmony. “Carry On” is one of my favs from them because it’s about Love. When the melody changes in the middle, is usually when I feel the need to dance, be free like a flower child and wish I still “smoked” 😂 I might need a medical script 😇 😂 I digress… in my opinion, “Deja Vu” is one of the BEST ALBUMS of all time by any artist – hands down! I also attached a link to a “Legends” VH1 documentary about them.

Music Deja Vu, CSNY

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Self Care Sunday – How do you define success?

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On this Self Care Sunday I want to discuss Career. Career is the one of the four areas of life that Integrative Nutrition Health Coaches call “Primary Food”. Career satisfaction can affect your overall happiness and it also can affect your health and relationships. It’s important to step back and evaluate career satisfaction from time to time. If you are manager, I would recommend encouraging your employees to do this too.

For me, it’s so easy for me to get caught up in constant movement. As a “do-er”, I check my boxes off and claim my productivity by accomplishments and goals achieved. In a recent professional experience, things didn’t work out quiet the way I thought they were going to. I was not going to be able to achieve the goal I had set for myself which was causing me some anxiety and making me doubt myself a bit. Being trapped in my own definition of success was undermining my enthusiasm for the work I am doing and I was starting to feel a bit deflated.

I traveled to DC to give a briefing to senior leadership on Tuesday morning. In the briefing, I discussed my honest assessment of the program I am working on and its future if it remains supported the way it stands today. As I spoke, I was careful to be confident while also be truthful about my observations of the challenges and opportunities.

As I spoke, the conversation and energy in the room shifted and became supportive even nurturing. That’s when we realized that my definition of success was different from senior leadership’s definition of success. Leadership already viewed me and my Program as successful while I was still trying to prove to myself I could be successful. Let me say that again… Leadership already viewed me and my Program as successful while I was still trying to prove to myself I could be successful. My leadership explained to me that I already accomplished more than they originally thought was possible. WOW! That hit me hard. Right as I sat there in front of them I felt the magnitude of that reality hit me. I was pushing forward so hard that I never stopped for one minute in the last nine months to really see what I accomplished or to be proud of myself. They made me stop in that 45 minute meeting. It was a powerful moment for me. It was a powerful moment in my career💙

One of the Directors pulled me into her office for a chat about career opportunities. She wants me think about what I want because there are few different type of opportunities that could be open to me. She said I’ve proven myself capable and comfortable in “high profile” roles. She wanted to know if I would be satisfied going back to something less “sexy” after this 😊 It’s an interesting question for me. The truth is I am comfortable in this type of high visibility role. I am good with stakeholder engagement, up and down the chain. I present well and handle myself well. My biggest challenge this year was my own body. The constant health issues have been frustrating and the current issue with my stomach still isn’t resolved. I told her about my current issue and that I needed to see a specialist because of a suspicious stomach biopsy. She reassured me. She told me I shouldn’t let that be my deciding factor because my health issues obviously didn’t interfere with my work performance this year. She also told me accommodations could always be made for me. Yes, it may be easier for me to go back to a desk job that has more predictability, maturity and less of an ask from me but will it be enough for me after this???? My intuition says no…😊 But, I am keeping an open mind because I think it will depend on the opportunity and if it has room for growth and diversification. I also don’t want to work in chaos again. So work environment is important to me now too. For now, I am going let go and trust that everything is always working out for my highest good. I am going to trust God and my intuition to direct me to the right choice. As opportunities present themselves I will ask myself, “Does this honor who I am?”

I also met with new GM who is now an advisor to my program. Wow! What a difference chatting with someone with fresh eyes and fresh perspective can have! Having to walk her through my whole program reenergized me. It reminded me why I was passionate about this. It reminded why I wanted to do this in the first place. Her thoughtful questions and insights helped me find an unexplored path forward. I just met her that morning and already she helped me get unstuck. She suggested I look for something I can leave as a legacy, something tangible that people can say, “Linda did this”. I laughed and said, “Being the first and standing up the program isn’t enough?” 😂😂 She laughed but said she was thinking something more like a brochure or even a webinar that folks could use after I’ve moved on…. The budget will not allow for my current role to be a full time position. However, the role will continue as a temporary assignment after I move on to something new. She encouraged me to remember that I was first. I was the trail blazer. I have been the vision setter. I need to leave a legacy as well as start thinking about a transition plan. I came home full of things to think about as well a fresh new perspective and a new to do list. As I flew home looking out of window at the spectacular clouds, I was pensive. I was thinking about the events of the day and what I accomplished this year and what I learned about myself along the way. It’s been a great year professionally and great work experience.

I learned this week it’s important for folks to agree on what success looks like. While we had conversations about the goals of the program, their view of success was actually more achievable than my own. I learned this week the value of talking to people face to face when you have an important message to relay to them. If I presented my briefing over the phone, they would not have felt my energy or passion. The conversations that took place that day never would have happened. They would have missed the subtle nuances of my facial expressions and body language. This is good advice in any situation. If you have something important to say to someone, say it in person. The message may not be received in the way you are intending through phone, text or email. I learned this week talking to someone with fresh eyes or perspective can reenergize you. It can help you see things you may have missed. I learned this week to be open to constructive guidance and accept support when it is offered. Most importantly, I learned this week to always speak from my heart with confidence, authenticity and honesty even when I am briefing the big cheese in the organization😊

I write about self awareness a lot on this blog. I write about it so much because I truly believe self awareness is the key to growth and development. I think it’s especially important to practice self awareness in our careers. I admire leaders who encourage self awareness. How can you grow if you refuse to see yourself as you are instead of how you perceive yourself to be? How can you grow if leave no room for inner reflection and self knowledge? How can you be empathetic and sensitive to the needs of others including your employees if you can’t even acknowledge your own needs and desires? It’s with this new self awareness I will be moving into the future and evaluating upcoming career opportunities.

Do you celebrate your career accomplishments? Do you honor who you are while making career decisions? What legacy will you be leaving to the folks who will step into your shoes? Do you encourage your employees to leave a legacy? When you talk to employees, do you ask thoughtful questions and give helpful insights? Do you help them define success in their careers or projects? And is your definition of success in alignment with the folks around you? Do you practice self awareness as a leader or in your life?

I chose “Blackbird” by the Beatles for this post. It was written by Paul McCartney during the Civil Rights movement after seeing a black women arrested for sitting on a bench in a “white” section of a park in the United States. As a highly sensitive, empathic feeler, the current political climate is causing me a bit of anxiety.  I worry about our Democracy and the inflammatory rhetoric used by leaders against the Press and to stoke right extremists.  And now, a “USA Today” Op-Ed full of outright lies that many will believe on the surface without questioning. He’s gaslighting our nation.  I urge people to fact check politicians.  Even worse are the rich GOPers who only care about the economy and their own economic interests; turning a blind eye to everything else because life is good for them. I’ve been pulling away from people who lack a social conscience and put money & power over people. If you recall, fair haired white people were living good lives and turning blind eyes while 600K Jews were executed. I do not think our President is a horrible human being but I do think he lacks social consciousness.  Money and power are his Gods and rulers.  He’s willing to exploit the right extremist groups to win and aligns himself with Dictators.  The Senate and/or House needs to be a different party to separate and diffuse his power as well as bring accountability & transparency back in DC. November 6th is my sister, Sandy’s, birthday. I am hoping her spirit brings us luck and change. Stop the #trumpcult 🌊#votethemout 🌊💙

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In My Dreams

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I had a wonderful dream on Monday night 😊 It was so vivid and clear that I could have sworn it was happening in real life. Around 2:30am on Tuesday Morning I had the below dream…

I walked into a room and found BlueLove sleeping. He was on his back with one arm over his head. I kissed his cheek and said, “Wake up, I’m here. It’s time to wake up.” He was startled when he opened his eyes. He slowly sat up in the bed with more or less a “WTF is going on” look on his face. He looked extremely confused and oh so cute with bed head. As he rubbed his eyes and shook his head, he looked at me and asked me “Where am I?” I said, “You are with me. You needed me. So I am here. Do you want me to get you anything!” In his grouchy morning voice, “YES! COFFEE; I need Coffee!” 😂😂☕️ I started laughing and replied, “You want me to make you coffee NOW?” He said, “Yes!” 😂 We exchanged a few other cryptic sentences in the dream which I won’t get into. Then I kissed his forehead, told him I loved him and went to go make him coffee. The dream ended with me walking away 🤔

Any professional Dream Intrepretors want to take crack at this one? I will say it’s interesting because it felt so real. His expressions were so real and him being grouchy before coffee was absolutely perfect 😂😂 Well, he wasn’t actually so much grouchy as he was confused and had no idea where he was with me😂 After I woke up, I had to wonder. You see, I believe it’s possible for people who share a deep spiritual connection to communicate subconsiously in dream state and in reality. Perhaps we did need each other and found each other in our subconscious while we were sleeping💙 In this particular dream, it seems I was sent to reassure him and calm him. It also seemed like he was brought to show me he can hear me when my heart talks to him. Who knows, maybe it was just dream…

This all made me think about dreams vs. reality. I’ve always been a dreamer, an idealist. My family would often joke that I was off chasing rainbows. I never felt like I was chasing rainbows. I truly believe the human heart and human mind are very powerful. I believe we can create amazing things in this world and our life by harnessing the power within ourselves. That’s what the last few years have been about me. I’ve been working to harness my own personal power. Every change I’ve made in the last few years has been about finding the best within me. Every decision I made, every friendship I stepped away from, every relationship I ended, every professional decision I’ve made has been making me stronger, better and wiser. While friends and coworkers say I’ve changed, the truth isn’t that I’ve changed – it’s that I’ve grown.

I’ve been relying upon intuiton more than logic to make decisions lately. I was getting signs that it was time to figure out where I am going after my temporary assignment is complete in February. I applied for a job one pay band higher in the Organization I am working in now. I made the referral list that went to the Managers😊 I did have an interview. It was good but it’s not a great fit for either of us. They prefer someone based at HQ and I don’t want to move. I actually only applied to see if I was qualified to get on the higher payband referrral list – and I was 😊 That’s been helpful. So two other opportunities came up but they will both take some time to be worked out. That actually works out fine because I still have get some advance testing on my stomach since my biopsies came back suspicious but not conclusive. I go to Jeff on 10/24. Having a delay at work will actually give time to do all that and have everything figured out before my temp assignment is done. In the meantime, I will trust everything is always working out for my highest; the love I give is returned 💙🦋

I am sharing Joni Mitchell’s “Both Sides Now” because it’s one of my favorite songs. It’s a song about dreams vs. reality. It talks about how a dreamer looks at the world versus how a realist looks at the world. I am definitely a dreamer.

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say “I love you” right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I’ve looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I’ve changed
Well something’s lost, but something’s gained
In living every day

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Broken Halo

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Early in the morning on Thursday April 19, 2018 my beautiful best friend, Karen, lost her five year battle with Peritoneal Cancer, a rare aggressive Gynecological Cancer.

Karen was diagnosed five years ago after having severe bloating and stomach pain for three months. Her first surgery was supposed to be a complete hysterectomy. However, when they went in, they found tumor wrapped around her Colon. They removed 18 inches of her Colon, her Gallbladder and her Appendix in that surgery and advised the odds of her making it were slim. She made it.

One month later Karen had complete and total hysterectomy followed by aggressive Chemo. She lost her hair and a lot of weight. Again, they advised she probably would not make it. She made it.

They gave her 18 months to live and ensure there was understanding that Peritoneal Cancer never goes into remission. Karen had a six month break from Chemo but more or less received Chemo for the last five years. She was given 18 months to live and lived five years. She had me and all that loved her convinced she would beat it. She did not.

On Saturday April 7th, Karen reached out to me to say goodbye. She told me it was almost time. I asked to be with her and hold her hand. She told me she knew I lost my sister to a terminal illness in the same fashion and didn’t want me to do another death bed vigil. She also told me she wanted me to remember her strong. We said our goodbyes over the course of three hours. Every day from April 7th to April 19th I sent Karen a message in the morning that said that I loved her and I was lucky to have been her friend. I was told by her family she treasure each messaged but it would have been too hard for her if I was there and saw her that way. She wanted me to be remember her strong.

She was the best friend I ever had. I am not sure what life looks like without her. If you are the praying type, I ask you pray the healing of my mind, body and spirit because I feel very broken and lost. I also have my own health issues going on and had 10 tubes of blood drawn this morning.

My good news from yesterday was… I got the call about Karen only hours before I was giving the most important presentation of my entire career to two Directors and two Group Managers who will determine the future of my career. My boss was standing next to me when i got the call about Karen. I never told him my best friend was dying. He was in shock when I told him this was going on the whole time I worked for him. He asked if I wanted to reschedule the presentation because my Directors would understand the situation. I told him my Directors would understand but Karen was a hardass and would not understand. She would expect me to honor her by crushing it. I hung a Post-it note on my laptop that said, “Crush it for Karen” and off I went to do my presentation. I was very relaxed. I smiled and spoke authentically. At the end, one Director (a female Director I never met in person before)said, “I am very very impressed” and the other Director(a man who works in DC I’ve met and bonded with) said, “I am pleased as punch!”. My direct supervisory followed me out of the room and said, “GREAT Job. Now go take care of yourself. I’ll see you in a week!”. I thank Karen for the inspiration. I crushed it for Karen! I left the office immediately after that meeting was over. I am officially on Leave from work until April 30th.

I spent yesterday afternoon with with Karen’s sister and her long time boyfriend and caretaker. I spent yesterday evening with a couple of friends and spent last night making phone calls to tell folks I loved them. I went to Karen’s Mom’s house this morning and then focused on caring for myself this afternoon. Now, late on Friday afternoon I am starting to allow myself to feel again. I was strong for two days. It is time for good cry again.

Karen’s services should be Tuesday with her obit in the Sunday paper. Her sister was meeting with the Rabbi today.

Karen was a Country Music lover. She once said to me, “everyone needs some country in their life Linda Long!” She took me to two Country music concerts, Kenny Chesney and Darius Rucker. In memory of my beautiful best friend, Karen Grant, I am sharing “Broken Halos” and “Somewhere With You”. I needed Country in my life today.

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Blue Joy ~ Love, Sex And Poetry

Blue Joy ~ Love, Sex And Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

When you
Walk on by
Can you feel
Your fire burning
Between my legs
Wetting me
For your lips
Readying me
For your touch
Opening me
For the push
Of your masculinity
Into my
Divine feminine
Erotic energy
My body is
Stirred by your
Soul being near
When you
Walk on by
Can you feel
The kindling
The kindling
Of the flame
In my soul
Hot between
My breasts
Pounding in my heart
Pulling my joy
Up from the bottom
Sparking gratitude
For you
In my life
When you walk
Do you call
My name
And ask me to
Rest my worries
And release my anxieties
Into your hands
Because you
Are here
To help steady
Me through
The transition
Into this new person
Stronger
Because
I broke
Wiser because
I put myself
Back together again
As you walk
On by
Our eyes
Connect
Holding on to each other
In the moment
With gratitude
For the peace
We have
When we are
Near each other
Opening up
More to
What we could be
Falling further
Into acceptance
Of how we’ve wrapped
Around each other
Listening more
To the wisdom
In our hearts
Than the logic
Of our circumstances
When you walk
On by
Look into
My eyes and
Call my name
Will I hear
Your voice say
My name
And lift
My spirits
With your joy
Those are the
Moments I miss
The most
When you are
Are away
It is when your eyes
Meet mine that
My heart
Is lighter
And fills
With the joy
Of gratitude
For you
Being in my life
I am filled
With Blue joy
When you are near
Don’t you
Forget about me
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Breathless Prana ~ Love, Sex and Poetry

  
Breathless Prana ~ Love, Sex and Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

Tasting the sweetness
Of your breath
In my mouth
Just before
You kiss me
I savor you
Your essence
As it slowly moves
Through my body
Flushing my face
Red with passion
Quickening my pulse
Leaving me breathless
As my body
Takes the nourishment
Your desire gives me
And uses it to
Restore my life force
Awakening the
The sensual goddess within
I am willing to submit
To your every command
Eager to rest
My cheek against
Your thigh
As I feed
My sensual longings
On your erection
Firm with the passion
I see in your eyes
My nipples
Sensitive under
The pressure of your fingers
I beg you to suck softly
On my breasts
Use my passion
To fuel your
Self evolution
Desire with me
Live life for me
Existence isn’t enough
I must live with you
I must love with you
Focus your energies
Harness your thoughts
With me on the creation
Of our unified Prana
As you
Slide my skirt
Up with your fingers
Slowly take
The release
My body affords
Your spirit
Finally letting go
Of what was
Holding us back
We join as one
To merge our destines
With the nourishment
Of our desire
Letting go
Of what held us back
To hold onto
What will sustain
Our unified Prana
Two flames
Become one
It starts
With a breathless kiss
Our Prana
Is in your kiss
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Listen to the whole song❤️ “Devotion/Passion Interlude” at the end is amazing❤️💋✌️🙏😇

Dance With Me ~ Love, Sex and Poetry

  
Dance With Me ~ Love, Sex and Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

Let me
Dance for you
Dance until
Sweat drips
Off my chin
And you ask
For a taste
Dance erotically
In front of you
For your pleasure
To the rhythm
Of the song
As my hips
Glide
From left to right
Pulling you
Into my trace
Dance suggestively
To bring awareness
To your hips
That I am
Stoking your fire
With the movement
Of my body
Dance without inhibitions
I am
Lowering your defenses
To the floor
As I grind
The beat of sex
Into your soul
Until you
Reach out
To pull me to you
I will
Dance closely
As my body
Moves against yours
Making friction
Sparking a fire
With my ass
As it brushes against
Your zipper
Inviting you
To dance with me
Lose yourself
In my rhythm
Until we are
Naked on the floor
Dance
With me
Lets let it all go
Tonight
Dance with me
Tonight
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NOTE:This song is soooooo much fun. “Cake By The Ocean”
I was dancing to this song in my living room tonight. I thought to myself, “hmm, if only MBE was in town. I could dance for him.”💋😈❤️😇🔥 “You move so carefully. let’s live dangerously…Let’s lose our minds. Let’s go fucking crazy.”

The Gift ~ Love, Sex and Poetry

 
The Gift – Love, Sex and Poetry
By: Linda A. Long

Offered as gift
Wrapped tightly
With a bow
She stands
In front of her lover
Brown eyes open wide
Full of passion
She remembers
The first time she felt
The sweet sensation
Of lust between her legs
For him
Surprised
By the feeling
He wasn’t really her type
As time passed
Her passions grew
Into deep primal lust
Twisted through friendship
And grew into love
She giggles to herself
As she pondered
“How did this happen?”
Laughing to herself
She thought life would have been
So much easier if they just
Fucked when it started
And got it over with
But, life had a different plan for them
Standing in front of her lover
She is relaxed
At peace finally
To be within his grasp
To be within his control
He is the compass of her soul
Her heart is set by the ticking of his
She hears him without sound
His heart beats for her and
She is drawn to him
As if being called home
His eyes reflect back to her
As if a mirror to her soul
He guides her without words
His presence not needed
For her to feel him, connect with him
She trusts him fully
Standing in front of her lover
She is stronger
With the passage of time
Their connection is deeper
With the passage of time
She is now wiser
Through life’s lessons
His heart now open with love
She touches his face gently
Soothing his embattled soul
He craved love
He needed it
He prayed for it
She appeared
As if wrapped
With a bow
Offering her body
As safe harbor and
An easy resting place
She places herself
Into his hands
The place she was always
Meant to be
For the first time
In her life
She lets herself
Completely give into love
She stands in front of her lover
Naked and exposed
But finally
Finding peace
Within the safety of his control
She stands in front of her lover
Wrapped with bow
She presents herself
To him
As a gift
She is ready for him
To open her wide
She is his gift
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Note
I watched a special on PBS about The Carpenters last night. Her voice is stuck in my head. So many beautiful songs. She had such an iconic voice.

She is one of the greatest female singers of all time yet her brother said she considered herself a drummer who could sing and not a singer. She never saw herself the way others saw her. It also made me ponder the pressure society puts on women and their appearance. A few years ago I lost a good bit of weight because I was sick. No one really knew just how sick I was. I never really talked about it. But people raved how great I looked. If they only knew how little I ate and I threw up most days. I am well now. I put back on 20lbs. I don’t kill myself working out. I eat chocolate cake occassionally. I’m heavier than I was. But I am also the absolute healthiest I’ve ever been in mind, body and spirit. I AM THE HEALIEST I’VE EVER BEEN in my entire life. My doctor would tell you my blood work is beautiful. And, I feel great. It’s about feeling good, being happy and confident. That’s what makes a woman sexy and beautiful. I also stopped spending time with people who worry more about appearances than a person’s feelings or soul.

Karen Carpenter was a sensitive soul with a beautiful voice and she died entirely too young. This is one of my favorite Carpenter songs. Honestly, I love them all but this one kind of matches the above poem.

Love, Sex & Poetry ~ Lick The Salt

  
Love, Sex & Poetry ~ Lick The Salt
By: Linda A. Long

Lick the salt
From the nape
Of my neck
Now
I am begging you
Do it now
Right now
As I sit
With my legs spread
For you
Lick my salt
At this moment
On the day
Of your birthday
I want
To feel your
Strong masculine
Dominant energy
Slide up my thighs
And take possession of
The submissive
Sexual slave that
Lives within me
A submissive slave lives
Within me
You are miles away
From me now
But I still feel
Your lust spark
A fire within my vagina
Let’s use the power
Of our thought energy
To connect
Through the miles
And share
The sexual space
In our minds
Take my hand
As I lead you
Up my thighs and
Through the maze
Of my sexual fantasies
From my eyes to yours
I’ll flash images
Of my hard nipples
Begging for your pinch
Images of me
With my vibrator
Between my legs
Images of you
Licking the salt
On my thighs
Before you spread my
Legs and taste my juice
On the walls of our minds
You will see images of me
Leading you
Into the
To the wet desire
Waiting for you
Between my legs
On this day
The day of your creation
Make monumental sexual
Memory with me
By celebrating this day
Licking the salt
Off my sweaty skin
As you fuck me
Deliriously into
The submission
Of your commanding spirit
Now possess me now
Close your eyes
And have me now
Mr. Blue Eyes
If you close your eyes
We can be together now
Lick the salt
And taste my desire
(C) 2015 Linda A. Long – All Rights Reserved
Life is best when lived passionately
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Note: Hmm? I need to go shopping. I need garter belt & stockings. MBE needs to come home some day and find me waiting for him with just a garter & stockings staring out my window at the ocean. lol 🔥💋😈❤️😉😇

Photo
Neil Buchan-Grant
http://www.fineartamerica.com ~ Nude Photography

Music: “Love Me Two Times” ~ Joan Jett (Cover)

http://youtu.be/KWOSyW-lS2g


Inconvenient Heart

 
“She had a very inconvenient heart. It always insisted on feeling things ever so deeply.” ॐ – John Mark Green

I have a lot to say this evening. I’m choking on everything I have to say this evening. It’s just that I can’t get the words out of my chest. They are shoved so far down my throat from me holding them back that they are stuck in my chest. Please bare with me as I write this therapeutic post to give myself some freedom and breath.

I’m “sensitive” and extremely empathetic. I am a good psychic too – when I allow myself to be. I spend a lot of time shutting down energies, voices, vibes and intuitions to have some peace in my life. The noise gets to be too much. I am trying to learn how to use my intuition without getting overwhelmed by all the messages I receive. I know this all may sound strange. Some of you won’t understand. But, this is my reality.

I mention this today because I’m picking up someone with a heart so heavy I want to hug her when I am near her. I picking up someone who is so anxious I have anxiety attacks when I’m near her. I’m picking up strong masculine beautiful energy telling me he needs me more than he can say right now. But mostly, I’m picking up the energy of my sister, Sandy, who passed away 16 years ago.

Sandy is whispering in my ear, “you’re not done yet. Nope, you are not done. Go on. Get up. Come on. Get ready.” She’s pushing at my back and saying, “go, go.” She’s telling me more – more is coming. More is waiting for me. Beautiful things lie ahead for me. It’s confusing. As much as I love her presence, I trying to interpret the message she is delivering to me. Is it about my health, my love life, my career, my family? For now I suppose I’ll just enjoy her being here with me. But for tonight I told her to shut up and go haunt my Mother👻 I need some peace. I’m tired of working and trying so hard. I just need to be….be nothing for a few hours.

I had a good bit of frustration this week. I pretty much reached a breaking point and had to just get stuff off my chest. I didn’t get many answers. But today someone did pull me into a conference room for a follow up conversation that made me feel a little bit better about a professional frustration. I was very grateful for heartfelt conversation we had and now I see the bigger picture. I get it. I also decided to take advantage of some free coaching sessions with a career counselor. I thought talking with an objective third party would be helpful for someone who is goal oriented like me. If for no other reason to affirm I’m in the right place, doing the right work for the right reason. I believe in looking at all areas of my life with a critical eye. It’s time for me to do it professionally. Let me be clear. I’m not unhappy. I like where I work. I like the people I work for. I’m very fortunate and lucky to work where I work. But, I also feel it’s time to stop floating along and set a plan for a destination. Unfortunately, my need for immediately clarity doesn’t align well in my work environment. I hoping I’m not writing about the same frustration a year from now😄

Just because I wasn’t miserable enough this week…I got a surprise visitor. I was rather enjoying not having a period. But, on the flip side maybe the cysts are gone now. I had blood work on Wednesday and almost passed out. They told me to go home and lie down. I had to drink some straight up Coke because my blood sugar crashed. But the good news is the blood tests confirmed I am not Diabetic or even Pre-Diabetic. My Fasting Sugar & a1c are absolutely normal. However, my Glucose crashes into the low 50s 3-5 hours after meals. Therefore, I was diagnosed with Reactive Hypoglycemia. This means: when I eat, my body over-produces Insulin which crashes my blood sugar. Simple Carbs & high Sugar meals cause a greater increase in Insulin resulting a blood sugar crash. Treatment plan: eat or have a snack every 4 to 5 hours & limit simple carbs & sugar. It’s manageable & can be controlled with dietary changes. Reactive hypoglycemia and an increase of Insulin in my body is causing me to struggle to lose weight and is causing gynecological issues too. It’s causing ovarian cysts & missed periods. Crazy when you think of it. My doctor told me three to six months of sticking to the sugar restrictions should be enough time to stabilize my blood sugar. I should notice lots of positive results.

And just because I can’t end this post without an attempt to get some erotic poetry mojo back, MBE looked really cute today. As I was standing next to him looking at him straight in the eye, I thought to myself we look good together and we’re good for each other😉❤️
(C) 2015 Linda A. Long – All Rights Reserved
Life is best when lived passionately
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Photo Credit:
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Music: Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd for Sandy