Self Care Sunday ~ What’s Your Silver Lining

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This past week has been a little like falling down the Rabbit Hole? Like WTF?, Right? This Corona Virus stuff is just surreal…

The Media is not over-hyping this and I know it for one reason. My niece works for Jefferson Health Systems which is a large network of hospitals in the Philly area. On Wednesday they decided to move all non medical employees to telework. She didn’t have a computer at home and she couldn’t take the one at work with her. She only had a cell phone and tablet at home. I didn’t want her to get laid off so I bought her a laptop and few accessories on Thursday online at Best Buy and she picked them up in Philly that afternoon.  She helps my Mom and she is very responsible kid.  I was happy to help her.  She took the laptop into work on Friday to have the software installed and already started teleworking this morning (Saturday).  She called me this afternoon when she got done work. She told me she got a work email that said, “THE ENTIRE HOSPITAL SYSTEM THROUGHOUT THE CITY WAS AT CAPACITY!” That’s scary.

As for myself, last week was my first full week of telework. It looks like I could be teleworking for a while. I am glad I am teleworking. It will at least keep me busy while I stay at home. It’s funny though. I normally get dressed up for work and put my face on every day. I like to look polished when I am at work. Since I’ve been teleworking, it’s been more like this tho… 🤣 Text before Zoom, Skype or FaceTiming because I won’t pick up without cleaning myself up a bit 🤣
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I ordered myself a desk two weeks ago. It arrived last week but it arrived in two boxes and in two different colors of wood 🤣 I sent it back and got a refund. A guy who works in my building was going to help me put it together but he has a large family and is around a lot of people. He shouldn’t be in my condo until this thing over – just in case.  I have tools and I am handy but I don’t know if I am up to putting a whole desk together myself 🤣So, I am going to wait to order another desk.  In the meantime, my dining room table has become my office. I ordered a few things on Amazon to make it more comfortable but all in all it’s a nice set up and you can’t beat my view.
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I am not even gonna lie… this thing has my anxiety running a bit high. Today, Saturday, is my birthday. It’s weird… I am social distancing while also celebrating another day of living…I may order a gluten free pizza and chocolate cake to celebrate but I am trying to very hard to not stress eat during this mess. I’m also pacing/walking every day inside and have closed my Stand, Move and Exercise Rings on my Apple Watch everyday.

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The silver lining in this for me is that it reconnected me to why I moved into this condo in the first place… The full ocean view makes me happy 💙 Every window in my condo has an Oceanview because I am on a corner of the high rise. That’s my silver lining and that brings me comfort every day. What’s your silver lining?

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Self Care Sunday ~ Self Love

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This past week I decided to make my health and wellbeing to be my first priority. I took me being slowed down by Iron Deficient Anemia to finally give in and give my body the rest it needed. Why is it so hard to slow down and take care of ourselves? Why is it so hard to show ourselves the same love we show others?

For me it was expectations. It was about me not wanting to disappoint anyone and not let anyone in my family or in work down. My ego was in charge and it was driving me into exhaustion; pushing past all of the warning signs my body was sending me. I was blocking it all out.

I had blood work done about ten days ago. I knew about a week ago I had Iron Deficiency Anemia. On my Monday morning I went into work because I had to a briefing to Execs. I told my boss before hand I was not well and may need to leave early but by noon my head was killing me, I could barely keep my eyes open and my stomach was on fire…I came home and went right to bed. I woke up on Tuesday morning so tired I could barely get the energy to get out of bed so I called in sick. I stayed in bed all day. I went to the doctor Wednesday morning; she offered me a note to stay out of work until Monday. I took the note but was thinking about working from home instead☺️ I stopped by the office to pick up my laptop. While I was there my coworker said to me, “Linda, you are crazy. You have a doctor’s note in your hand and you look exhausted. Do you think if you end up in the hospital any of those Execs are going to really care that you went above and beyond when you were sick? I’m telling ya… They won’t! Your priority is you not them. You can’t help anyone in bed. Go home and take care yourself!” 🤣 Yep, she fucked me with the truth 🤣And, that’s when I surrendered.

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Maybe it was my coworker giving me permission to let go. Maybe it was that I was truly exhausted. I’m not sure what it was but I sent my doctor’s note, put on an out of office reply and advised my boss I would not be checking emails until Monday morning. I surrender my ego and I let go into exhaustion. Today, Saturday, is the first day I actually woke up and felt rested. I got my hair colored. Stopped in Staples to pick up a couple of things I need for my new desk and even went for a 30 minute walk in the beautiful sunshine. I’m not completely better. It’s going to take a while to get Iron up but at least I am rested. I am eating iron rich foods and taking a vitamin with iron in in to help bring my levels up. My doctor will retest in six weeks.

It’s concerning my Iron dropped as much as it did because I haven’t had a period in ten months so I am losing Iron or medication (anti-acids) for my stomach may be blocking it. Here’s some information on Iron Deficiency. My main symptoms were mouth ulcers, exhaustion, muscle pain, headaches, reoccurring infections and paleness.
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Keep in mind Heme Iron is absorbed easily. Non-Heme Iron (plant based) doesn’t absorb well and needs to be combined with Vitamin C for maximum absorption.  I started eating an Iron enriched cereal with fat free fortified skim milk and blueberries for breakfast which is a combo of non-heme iron and vitamin C. This combo worked for me the last time I had an Iron Deficiency. iron-physiology-2-638

One other nutrition note:  I’ve had a nodule on my Thyroid for seven or eight years.  About a year ago, I read an article that Thyroid Nodules are often caused by Iodine Deficiencies.  I switched to using Pink Himalayan Sea Salt several years ago because it has a lot of nutrients but I discovered it did not have Iodine in it.  So I switched to using regular Morton’s Iodized Table Salt.  I only use a sprinkle – probably nothing more than 1/2 a teaspoon per day.  I just had my annual Thyroid ultrasound to check on the nodule.  Guess what, it is completely gone👍 The report said the nodule can no longer be detected.  So it was an Iodine Deficiency. Lesson learned.

Work update:  I had to check in with my boss late Friday afternoon to find out if I should/could telework on Monday. He told they were allowing liberal telework for folks with health issues.   Iron Deficiency makes me vulnerable to viruses and infections so I am teleworking for the foreseeable future  or until corona virus passes. I am safer at home.   Actually, my work is doing a company wide telework test on Wednesday, March 18th. They want anyone who can telework, employees and contractors, to work from home so they can see if the system can handle it.  My Dining Room table is my desk until the desk and task chair I ordered arrive on Wednesday 🙂 I have a great view 💫

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Self Care Sunday ~ Rest

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I am sick.  I have a massive Sinus Infection and headache again. Apparently I’ve had it a while and now I am beat up and exhausted. I went to the doctor on Thursday and was given antibiotics.  I also had blood work done that morning. I received a note from my doctor through their App on Friday night asking me to come into the office ASAP to discuss my blood test results; her staff will fit me in. I will call on Monday. I am trying to put it out of my mind for the weekend. I suspect the issues are nutritional. My usual problems are B12, Iron and Vitamin D deficiencies because my stomach doesn’t alway absorb them.

Related to nutritional issues, I am officially no longer a Vegetarian. I fell of the wagon with Red Robin Salt and Pepper Burger with Steak Fries. I am not even sorry and I don’t feel guilty. I didn’t eat meat for about 65 days. I wanted to see if my body felt better without it. Guess what? No, it didn’t. I do not feel any better and now I have nutritional issues. As I reintroduce meat back into my diet, I will also aim to have a few meatless days per week as well. If you are anyone in your life is experimenting with Vegan or Vegetarian Diets, be mindful to incorporate the below nutrients into every day or take a supplement.

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For now, I am giving into to not feeling well this weekend. I will be taking it easy most of the weekend. I want to give the antibiotic a chance to catch up. It seems like it is already working. I will only go out to get food or supplies… Otherwise, I will be home. I will not be traveling or going to places with a lot of people.

This brings me to Corona Virus. I’m sure you heard on the news, they are saying Don’t touch your face to prevent Corona Virus transmission. Try it… Don’t touch your face for one hour… Last Week Tonight with John Oliver had a great video for it…🤣

Work Update: I had a major WIN this week when I was able to obtain clearance from an outside regulatory body to use an accelerated approval process. This will save a lot of time in the schedule I am managing😄💫It was kind of a big deal 💫No one actually thought I would pull if off ☺️I am good at talking to stakeholders 😉I worked with our attorney to make sure the package I presented was tight and had a narrow focus. I also made sure I stuck to the script when I presented to them. I didn’t offer any information that was not in the official briefing.  I received a message from our attorney afterwards that said the meeting went “shockingly well”🤣✌️ So, yes, I am enjoying my win… but, remember what I said, this approval accelerates my schedule.  So, it’s time to step on the gas.  That is also why I am taking this weekend to rest and working with my doctor to address any health issues.  I have a busy six months coming up 🤣

I actually told my boss this week that I am moving forward where I can; I am no longer waiting for folks to make decisions. I’ll take my hand smacking and ask for forgiveness afterward if I go to far.  Managers who don’t have a deep understanding of what I am doing are risk adverse. They hesitate to make decisions. It’s causing a huge problem for me. I am over it…The program, my program, will not end up a train wreck on my watch or as long as I am in this job.

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Work also made sure everything is in place in case I need to telework full-time due to the Corona Virus issues. Since I am a remote employee anyway, it’s really not a big deal. I really only need to be the office on days that I have in person meetings at my office which. Most of my meeting are virtual or on the phone so that means I don’t really need to be in the physical office most days. I prefer to go in at least two or three days per week. Otherwise, I am stuck in my condo all the time. That’s not healthy.  My Emotional Intelligence 2.0 Workshop is on Tuesday. I will share thoughts and tips from that workshop in next week’s Self Care Sunday post.

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Self Care Sunday ~ Emotional Intelligence

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I participated in an Emotional Intelligence (EI) Workshop that was offered in work to non-managers as part of their efforts to encourage employees to “lead from where they are”. The course was based on the best selling book, “Emotional Intelligence 2.0” by Travis Bradberry and Jean Greaves. I really enjoyed the class. It will help me in work. It will also be beneficial in my own Holistic Health Coaching Business.

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According to Psychology Today, “Emotional intelligence refers to the ability to identify and manage one’s own emotions, as well as the emotions of others.” The four competences of EI are Self Awareness, Self Management, Social Awareness and Relationship Management. As part of the workshop we did a test or assessment to see how we scored in each area. While I was above average in each competency, my highest competency is in Social Awareness. That means I am good at reading the room and sensing the emotions of others around me. While my lowest competency was still above average, my lowest competency is in Self Management. This means I need to work on my ability to manage my emotions and coping skills. This was not a surprise me. I’ve trained myself over the years to control my reactionary impulses. However, I do sometimes let my emotions get the best of me which leads to stress and anxiety. It also leads to me holding my emotions in until I almost spontaneously combust. Those who know me really well, know I tend to hold my breadth and not breathe. I will confess, Blue Love has gotten good at knowing when I’ve gotten to that point and always encourages me to breathe for a minute or two. I am taking private yoga classes and my teacher notices I do it while holding difficult poses so she is helping me be more aware of it.

As part of the EI workshop, we worked on personal action plans and identified two or key areas we wanted to work on in the near term. The course also provide each student with a set of Job Aids as tips and actions to help facilitate awareness. I can’t share the Job Aids because they are all branded but below is the Self Management Strategies portion from one Job Aid. I’ve chosen to work on:   Breathe Right, Smile and laugh more and Focus on freedoms, rather than limitations.

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I was watching my friend Laura’s YouTube Channel, LauraGYoga, recently. Laura is a local Yoga Therapist and Occupational Therapist. She discusses the importance of Breath Work in alot on her videos and podcasts. So I bought one of the books she recommend, The The Breathing Book by Donna Farhi. I am working through some of the exercises now to learn how to stop holding my breathe. I also signed up for our Emotional Intelligence 2.0 workshop at work which is in two weeks.

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A work update:  work has been getting better. Leadership has taken steps to take some of the burden off of me. I heard a few months ago about a new non-profit being stood up to handle workforce development issues in our industry but it was stalled for a few months. It looks like it is moving forward. The project I am currently working on would fit under that umbrella. We aren’t sure if this will affect the current grant award cycle I am working on because it will take time for them to stand it up. However, future award cycle could be moved to that organization. It looks like it will be based in Virginia or DC. It will be just fine for me to move on to another project once this one gets the money out the door – the answer to my prayers actually 🤣

A yoga update: I just had my second private class on Friday. I just love the private classes.  My teacher, Heidi, is personal friend and owns a local studio, Hummingbird Yoga. She is a great teacher.  We decided to do a moderately difficult practice slowly so we could assess my stamina and weak areas.  Honestly, I did pretty good.  I keep really nice alignment in asanas(poses).  I need to build some strength.  She gave me some areas to work on at home. Saturday is a complete and total rest day for me.

While my private classes are more challenging and last an hour or longer, my home practices are usually only 30 minutes and are balanced between stretching and strengthening.  Heidi and I both believe my body could handle teacher training, if I want to do it the future.  For now, I am just enjoying being back to regular yoga practice and doing breath work. I am taking things very slowly to avoid injury or doing too much too soon. The below pose is called Flip Dog or, The Wild Thing pose.  You move into it by first starting in Down Dog Pose and slowly  flipping over. A modification for this to come into it from Side Plank.   I used to love to “flip my dog”.   I haven’t tried it yet again but I am heading that direction 🙂

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 Have you learned anything interesting this week? Have you ever taken an Emotional Intelligence Assessment? If not, there is one available on Psychology Today. You can access it by following this link: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/tests/personality/emotional-intelligence-test

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Self Care Sunday ~ Poetry & Balance

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The Fire ~ Blue Love Poetry
The fire
Still burns
In my heart
For you
No different
Than it was
All of those years ago
When we first
Noticed each other
And found
Excitement
In each others eyes

The fire
Still burns
Between my legs
When I think of you
And remember
How my breath
Quickened in your glance
And my nipples hardened
When you stood close

The fire
Still burns
While I explore
The path
To my own happiness
As you find your soul
In our separation
Nothing has cooled off
The fire still burns
For you

Our connection
Is strong enough
To allow us both
To grow
Our love is big enough
To offer us both
Space for self exploration
Our attraction
Is wild enough
To remain untamed
With the passing time

When you rest
Your head on
Your pillow tonight
Remember
My fire still burns
For you
I still burn
For you
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It’s been a while since I wrote a poem for Blue Love💙💫😘 I think I could not be creative because my damn job had me so out of balance. I just could not find my creative voice. It feels good to be me again 💫

Since returning to practicing yoga a few weeks ago, I noticed I have some space back in my body. I also have balance back in my life and I am less anxious. I guess getting back to yoga everyday freed up space for me write poetry again.
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I decided a couple of weeks ago to do private yoga classes with one of my favorite teachers. Private yoga classes are like personal training but just in yoga. I decided to buy a package of private classes because I have Hyper Mobility Syndrome. Hyper Mobility Syndrome means that I am double jointed throughout my whole body and my joints move more than they should. This makes me super flexible but it also makes me super prone to joint issues and injuries.

I always knew I was double jointed but I never knew I had a Hyper Mobility Syndrome until a Rheumatologist was evaluating me for Auto-immune issues in 2017 and diagnosed me with it in that appointment. He said it’s genetic – I’m most likely missing a gene.  Since I am getting older, I want to ensure I take proper care of my joints while practicing yoga and I also want to customize a home practice that is appropriate for my body. I can do this in my private classes. I also am enjoying the private classes because I am exploring the idea of doing my Yoga Teacher Training in the next year or so. I found out I may be able to do it over six months. The private classes will help me build strength and I can assess if my body is up to it.  This is how I feel when I my yoga teacher has me hold Down Dog for a long time…

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Lastly, my favorite yoga pose is actually a Restorative Yoga Pose. It’s called Viparita Karani Pose or Legs Up The Wall.  I generally do this every night for a couple of minutes or so.  It’s very soothing. If I don’t feel like laying on the floor I will stack pillows on the bed and put my legs up against them.

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I can’t even express how happy I am to back to practicing yoga. I’m more centered, less anxious and general more happier. That doesn’t mean my job is any less crazy than it was last month. It’s still the craziest job I ever had… It just means I am adjusting better. They are taking steps to make things better for me so I am trying to work it out with them. In the meantime, I will focus on finding my happy outside of work and in writing poetry again.  What’s your happy?

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Self Care Sunday ~ Dream Big

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I’ve I spent some time this week reconnecting with my dreams and taking action to realign with what authentically makes me happy.

Yoga makes me happy. I’ve practiced yoga for a long time. Being on the mat brings me peace. My favorite style of yoga is Yin Yoga or Gentle Flow Yoga. I like slow meditative practices like Yin because it’s includes seated postures, longer holds, breath work and meditation. Yoga isn’t about burning calories for me. It’s not exercise for me. It’s a spiritual practice. It’s how I calm myself down and find peace. That’s why I prefer to practice at the end of the day. It helps me let go of the stress of the day.

I was not practicing yoga a lot in last year because I’ve had a few injuries and illnesses in that made a regular practice challenging. Last Sunday I engaged my inner yogi and started practicing Yin or Slow Yoga for 30 minutes a day using YouTube videos in my living room on my own eco-friendly recycled rubber mat from Jade Yoga.  Guess what?  I haven’t needed Xanax this week 😄I would like to say I will practice every day for 21 to 30 days but this is where I usually get myself into trouble. I over do it. So, I’m going to take a clue from my body and after practicing yoga for seven days straight, I will most likely take Self Care Sunday as a rest day. I might walk but no yoga. Going forward I will shoot to practice yoga 3 to 5 days a week for 30 minutes while I build up stamina again. I started with Yin videos and added in a Beginners flow class too. I am an advanced yogi but I wanted to revisit some basic beginner poses as a foundation for my new practice. I’m tight. I need to take it slow so I don’t injure myself.

I am 52 years old now. My yoga needs to be different now than it was when I was 35 years old. I’ve always been super flexible thanks to being double jointed. Yoga has always come easy and effortless to me but now I am older. My body is stiffer and some days my old injuries make me feel like Tinman from restriction in the body. I am learning to make accommodations and adjustment for injuries. I stopped judging myself. Just because I don’t look perfect in a pose anymore doesn’t mean I should stop doing yoga. It means that I allow my body to work to its limit without pushing or forcing. Naturally, over time, body will open up and give me space to move. This has been a lesson about self acceptance and letting go of who I used to be on the mat for who I am now. I am older and wiser. My body is still beautiful no matter how awkward I feel moving in and out of poses. This is also why I am practicing at home without a mirror for now instead of going to a studio. Watching myself in a mirror as I practice will only lead to me judging on myself and feeling sad about how my body has changed.

yoga tinmanOver the last week, I’ve been thinking about my friend Karen who passed away in April 2018 from Peritoneal Cancer. Karen was the best friend I’ve had – the absolute best friend I’ve ever had. I definitely feel the void of her loss in my life every day. Karen hated Yoga. Karen was a gym rat. She was usually in the gym by 4:30am getting a hard core workout in before she went to work. She hated the slowness of yoga. Back in 2013 I was considering enrolling in Yoga Teacher Training and I wanted to go to a Yoga Conference in New York City to get information. Surprisingly, she offered to take the day off from work and go with me. Karen hated yoga but she loved me. She spent all day in the yoga expo talking to yogis, reading literature and doing sample classes with me. While on the train on the way home she said, “I still hate yoga but I had a lot of fun with you today!” The point of this story is… Karen was willing to do something she didn’t enjoy all day just to hang out with me and support me. I ended up not enrolling in teacher training because the schedule would have been hard to manage while also working full time. My body just doesn’t have that stamina. I still haven’t enrolled in teacher training for the same reason. I can’t do that while working full time

I’ve talked on this blog that I was going to start reintroducing one glass of red wine back into diet.  I only stopped drinking wine because my tummy didn’t always enjoy it as much as my taste buds did.  I promised Karen  before she died when I had my first glass of wine, it would be with her.  So I bought an expense bottle of Argentina Malbec and poured two glasses. I toasted Karen and took a sip… Well, it didn’t go very well 🤣After four sips, my face became red, hot and itchy and my nose was stuffy.  It seemed like an allergic reaction. I know folks may say their face turns red with wine too but this wasn’t normal. I was starting to not feel well. So, I poured it all down the drain, threw out the bottle after four sips and took a Pepcid AC to settle the reaction down.  I am glad I conducted this experiment at home and not out in public 🍷So that’s that. I will not be drinking wine – period!  Maybe I’ll try a Guinness Stout next 🤣 Or maybe I’ll just continue being a non-drinker and be ok with it instead of trying to recreate something from my past.  It’s called self acceptance. Maybe I will work on that instead of experimenting with alcohol✌️

As I indulge myself in the fantasy of escaping my current reality and living a more authentic life, I open myself up to the possibility that my dream may come true one day. One day I may hit the lottery or save up enough money to totally immerse myself into building my Holistic Health Practitioner business. Or maybe it waits until I officially retire. Either way, I would first take a few months off to decompress. I would then enroll in Yin Yoga and Meditation Teacher Training. I have a friend who did her teacher training at 62 years old after she retired from teaching high school full time👍

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I think I will start working on a draft of business plan for my Holistic Health Practice. My target market is folks over 50 years old.  Yin Yoga and Meditation Instruction as well as personal training would fit into my services perfectly. I am also a Reiki Master. I would could start teaching Reiki and practicing Reiki. Other services I would provide include: guidance on supplements, educating folks on food labels. I would go food shopping with them and show them how to work the store to spend less money and make better food choices.  Here’ a tip:  stay out of the middle isles (if possible).  All of processed junk is in the middle.

I would love to own or be a partner in an eco-friendly Organic Coffee & Tea Shop where I could offer my holistic health Practitioner services including, Yoga Classes, Reiki, Food label reading classes, Nutritional Supplement classes, etc..💫

Some times you just have to give your dreams room to breathe…What’s your dream? Are there any small steps you can take today to reconnect to it?

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Self Care Sunday ~ Exhaustion

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It’s Saturday morning. I am drinking coffee, watching AMJOY on @MSNBC and feeling totally exhausted. I find myself mentally and physically exhausted. I am mentally tired because of my damn job. 😂 I am physically tired because I had a busy week. I was in the office for 10 hour days Monday through Wednesday. I was in DC on Thursday and I drove up to Philly early on Friday to spend the day with my Mom. Friday was a nice day but I drove a lot. Today is Saturday and I have absolutely no desire to go anywhere. I especially do not feel like driving.

I am emotionally exhausted today because I care about our Nation and what is happening in our Nation upsets me. I believe POTUS should be penalized for abusing his power but let me be clear — I would feel this way about any elected official whether Republican or Democrat who abused their office or power. Unchecked power is dangerous and is a slippery slope. What will he do next now that he knows he can do whatever he wants? This isn’t a Red or Blue issue for me. It’s a Right or Wrong issue for me. Do you really want a leader with unchecked power? I DO NOT – period! It worries me…

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I don’t know what the future holds but I am not sure I would even want to be an official “manager”. While I have the knowledge, skills and abilities to work at that level, I am not sure I have drive, desire or even the stamina for it. I enjoy strategic work. I enjoy outreach work. This will be better for me…Lastly, Management had an extra seat for a leadership workshop that was already paid for so they asked me if I wanted to use the extra seat. Since it’s for an “Emotional Intelligence” leadership workshop, I accepted it and I am looking forward to it. It’s on 2/27✌️

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Personally, I am still trying to figure out the best time to go back to the Berkshire Mountains. It’s either going to be for a Kundalini Yoga workshop March 16-19th or later in April or May. The only reason I am debating. It’s still can be really cold and snowy in the Berkshires in March. I am really hoping to get outside in the Mountains this time and do the guided hikes so warmer weather would be better for me. Here’s another photo of the Berkshires which is one of my happy places.

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My plan for the rest of Saturday? I am fairly certain I will not be leaving the house today. I may not even leave the sofa and quite possibly will be heading back to bed this afternoon for a long nap. Sunday is still to be determined but I know for sure I’m teleworking on Monday ✌️😊

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Self Care Sunday ~ Happy Places


It’s taken a village to keep me sane this week ☺️ Honestly, I’m not used to asking for help or asking for support. When I do reach out, it’s because I’ve hit the limit of what I am able to handle on my own.

First, I reached out to tell my leadership that I’m at my breaking point. I straight up told them I would be looking for the exit if we didn’t find some way to lessen my burden. As a result, they invited me to few meetings so I could see what management has been up to in hopes that I see why things have been so crazy and why I need to stay with them.  To my surprise — they are actually standing up a whole new group around me; I was only the first hire.  They intend to pull other similar programs into the new group with me.  They also recognized that part of my problem is that I’ve had three Divisional Managers in five months and the temporary folks didn’t want to make any hard decisions. Lol 🙂  That’s why it’s been so crazy. They asked me to participate on the team that is planning the new group too.  It’s seems to me someone is “Empire Building”. 🤣 But, I was happy to finally know structure is coming.

I am not easily impressed by managers. They are a dime a dozen where I work.  My experience the last five months helped me to see how much I really do respect and trust the group of managers I used to work with in my former group.  With that said,  I am already impressed by my new permanent Divisional Manager; that’s saying something.  She’s been in the job for two weeks and made more decisions in the last four days than the other two did in five months.  For example, I had “creative” ideas on how I could mitigate a couple risks & tighten up the schedule. I couldn’t get any traction with the temporary actors. However, the new permanent manager gave me the go ahead to move forward and present them later this week when I am in Headquarters.  She also took one for team by getting a meeting with the senior exec to ask for support positions.  She came back with four positions – not too shabby!  👏Two of the four will support my programs because — as of 4:00pm yesterday — they confirmed I am now going to be managing THREE new programs and my budget just grew by 50%. Lol 🙂 OMG… OMFG🤣

I will try to remember to breathe… I promise ☺️Thank God I can telework one or two days per week and I only have to go to HQ every other week. I go this Thursday and then every week going forward. They said I can take the train and stay overnight if I prefer to do that instead of flying down. They said I have a budget for travel and should feel free to use it 😄That’s a relief. I may actually switch and go Wednesday to Thursday this week – that’s if I can get a room…I suppose to get through the next year I am really going to have to focus on the LONG GAME and not get caught up in the daily bullshit. Perhaps I should try to get the bullshit sucked out of my head  each day🙃

While in the middle of a full on anxiety attack Tuesday, I reached out to my “Blue Love” 💙He has a rock solid stability about him that comforts me ☺️ He must have realized I was about to totally spin out…I definitely was… ☺️ I am thankful he was a good friend to me 😘 He does have a way of diffusing my “crazy” and helps to bring my anxiety level down 😊 So when he asked me to go to my happy place for a minute, I went to three place I enjoy in my mind:
(1) Berkshire Mountains in Mass (photo at top and first photo below)
(2) Beach view from my living room window (second photo below)
(3) Blue Love’s beautiful blue eyes 😍 Yes, his dreamy blue eyes are one of my happy places 💙✌️

I want to go to  the Berkshires for a weekend this Spring. I was thinking of going in late April or early May but there is a good program at Kripalu in March I would like to attend. hmm…


my viewNext topic — I can’t make myself feel good about going on SSRI Effexor for anxiety and hot flashes. I just can’t do it. I’m trying to deal with hot flashes and anxiety naturally.  I am now using Red Maca Powder. Red Maca is good for hot flashes and is also an adaptogenic herb which can help with stress.  It has to be cycled – meaning that you take it for four days and then take two days off.  I am also eating more Avocados because they are loaded with B vitamins.  When we are under stress, our bodies tend to burn through the B Vitamins.  Adding a B-Complex or multi that has high potency B Vitamins can help. Since I’m not eating meat or fish, my doctor recommended I start taking B-12 with Folate every day. It’s a chewable. I’ve also gone back to taking the Magnesium with dinner and 1/2 a Xanax at bedtime the doctor recommended a few years ago so I don’t clench my jaw from anxiety in my sleep. So why yes to a 1/2 of a Xanax at bedtime but no to a low does of Effexor? Because I can skip Xanax when I don’t have anxiety. I can’t skip the Effexor. Guess what?  No hot flashes or night sweats this week. That may be temporary or coincidental but I’ll take it! 

How was your week? Where do you go in your mind when you need to find happiness for a minute? Where’s your happy place? How are you managing stress? How do you manage your “crazy”?

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May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Self Care Sunday ~ It’s Been A Week

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My coworker who sits in the cubicle next to mine has a saying. At the end of a challenging day she says, “It’s been a day!” When I was leaving work for the weekend on Thursday evening, I said to her, “It’s been a week!” It was a challenging week for sure.

I traveled for work in a small plane on Wednesday. It was a one day trip. I don’t normally have trouble on those flights and actually the flights were ok that day. There was a little turbulence but that is normal on that plane. The problem was I wasn’t feeling great. The antibiotic I am on is really upsetting my stomach. However, I felt like I needed to talk to leadership in person so I traveled. The first flight was actually ok but the flight home was stressful. My stomach was upset all day. I started getting anxiety about getting sick on the plane. Ended up chewing on a half of Xanax on the way to plane. While my stomach never really settled down until after I got home, the anxiety went away about 10 minutes into the 45 minute flight. I’ve never been happier for a plane to land. Lol 🙂 By the time the plane landed I believe I looked something like this…🤣

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My meeting with leadership overall went well. It was clear in the meeting my leadership wants to do whatever needs to be done to support me. It was clear they are committed to helping me in whatever way they can including resources. However, it was also clear to me many of the folks lack a basic understanding of the work. Many of the folks are new or temporary in their roles which means I am constantly bringing someone “up to speed”. It’s exhausting…The bottomline is the organization was not prepared to take on this type of program and lacks the infrastructure to provide the proper support. So now everyone is scrambling to figure things out. It sucks… The other reason I was having some anxiety that afternoon was because they dropped a bomb on me at the end of the meeting. They told me we are getting a third program which is similar to mine and they want to put it in my portfolio. I will have a portfolio of three new programs to stand up in one year without any staff but myself as of right now…. Do you see why I had anxiety that afternoon? know they want the money and shinny new high profile programs — but like, what the fuck?

I had two fires to put out on Thursday.  One was the new program.  We just don’t have enough information for me even to give a good assessment but they aren’t going to like the time it’s going to take to launch.  My boss pushed it back up to ask for more information.  All we really did was push this fire back a week probably🤣The next fire was more complicated.  I opposed a potential candidate they wanted to hire.  I knew it was coming. I was given 4-1-1 in the hallway a few months ago by someone who wanted to protect me🤣 I can’t say much more but they did understand why I opposed the selection, I had documentation.  They understood once I explained the potential conflicts it could present for the program.   I will most likely be successful in blocking the potential hire but come on…They should have known what I knew…Doesn’t anyone check references anymore?

On a positive note, I bumped into my former GM in the hallway earlier in the week. We chatted for a few minutes. It was nice to see her but she caught me at a vulnerable moment. As I was telling her everything that was going in this job, I almost cried🥺As I was saying it all out loud it became clear to me that it is really becoming too much…The gravity of that awareness makes me sad but there can also be freedom in finally accepting it.

I had a doctor’s appointment on Friday morning. I mentioned to her that not only am I in the most stressful job of my career right now but I am also having night sweat and hot flashes from Menopause. We decided to try a small dose of Effexor(SSRI) for the next 30 days. It’s recommended to help hot flashes and night sweats for women who are not candidates for hormone replacement. It’s also an anti-anxiety medication that may help me cope with job better. I have to call my doctor towards the end of the 30 days to let her know if it helps. If it does, I will stay on it at least for the next 6 to 12 months and then ween off. If it doesn’t help me, I will stop it. I will start it when I am done the antibiotic.  I am hoping the Effexor helps me.  The worst part of these dang hot flashes is that I generally like it cool.  I keep my condo around 70 degrees or under.  I often have my bedroom window cracked open at night – even in winter.  I don’t like to be hot 🔥

Lastly, committing to being a vegetarian is the easiest lifestyle change I’ve ever made. Technically, I am a lacto-ovo-vegetarian who occasionally eats fish. The main reason I will never be a Vegan is because I have long standing Vitamin D and Vitamin B-12 deficiency issues. I need to get as much nutrition through food as I can because my stomach doesn’t tolerate supplements well.  I also started ordering a few Vegetarian and Vegan dishes each week from Eat Clean Organization, a local food prep company.  I pick my order up on Mondays after work at a local Health Food Store. Their Thai Sweet Chili Cauliflower, Madras Lentils & Chana Marsala are awesome!  They make quick lunches or dinners. January is Veganuary.  Maybe give Meatless Monday a try this coming week 🙂

Below are some new items I’ve added into my diet to diversify my nutrition profile. I started eating a 1/2 of an Avocado every day.  Avocados are packed with good fats and nutrients.  It’s truly a superfood 🥑  Imagine Organic Soups are DA BOMB. They are Green and Clean products too!  I incorporated more Hemp products into my diet because Hemp is a natural source of Omega 3 Fatty Acids. Fatty Acids are good for the belly, the skin and the heart. Eating foods with Hemp in it is better than taking a Fish Oil pill for me:-) The Oatmeal tastes just like traditional Oatmeal minus the belly bloat for me.  I also included some of my snacks below.  I will share more new products in my future posts.  I’ve also started sharing photos of new recipes I’ve tried or doctored up in my twitter feed in the right sidebar 🙂

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May you be happy
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Self Care Sunday ~ Let It Happen

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Sometimes you just have to say it – speak it and let whatever is going to happen – happen! Let it happen. I say this because it became clear to me that the only way for me to move forward and get myself unstuck this week was to have the courage to speak and own my truth.

I write a lot about speaking the truth but speaking the truth isn’t always easy. Often it can lead to conflict, hurt feelings and change — but hanging out in limbo was wearing me out. I had to do something. I had to say something.

On Monday I sent my supervisor a note and asked if he had time to have a check-in meeting with me this week. He replied, “I’m free now but otherwise booked the rest of week.” 🤣I thought I would have time to prepare but I didn’t. It was “go time” so I took a deep breadth and called him.

At first we started talking about tasks and action items then eventually I started working towards the real topic I needed to discuss. Then I said it… I told him straight up the conflict this job presents me and amount of stress it is putting on me. I told him I enjoy the work and the challenge. I also stated that I know I am more than capable of doing this job successfully. However, the political agendas, oddball questionable requests from the folks above him put me in an uncomfortable position and it is no longer tolerable for me. WOW! YES, I SAID IT!
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It felt good to say it but I was also nauseous as I waited on his reply. After taking a pause, he not only said he understood but also said he feels the same way. That’s when he gave me the space to be completely 100% honest with him. I explained I don’t want to walk away from a job could be my legacy but I also have to look out for my long term holistic wellness. Me being stressed out over bullshit everyday isn’t good for me – period! I told him I don’t want to walk away – but I am also now prepared to do it. I can’t fight anymore! I felt the release of five months of stress as I said those words…Screen Shot 2020-01-11 at 8.58.31 AM
Well, things started shifting as a result of that conversation. My Supervisor and I worked with legal to establish an escalation path for my “sensitive” concerns. We addressed the fact that I am acting in two roles; I’m over it and we need to fix it. By Wednesday, my Divisional Manager asked me to come “downtown” this Wednesday to have meetings with them to do strategic planning so she can ensure I get proper support. She also assigned a management consultant to help me do strategic planning. I am meeting the consultant on Wednesday. The bottom line is – they heard me and have responded to my concerns. They also told me they are impressed that I was able to get the program under control in a relatively short period of time and understood the stress that must have put on me.

I don’t know how this will work out long term but for now it looks like we have a way forward and I am thankful for support. It was the right way for me to address my concerns.  I needed to give them an opportunity to fix it before walking away from a job that could be my legacy — but let me be clear… I AM OVER IT! I don’t give a F**K anymore! If it continues to stress me out and make me sick, I will be finding an exit ramp and have not one regret when I leave.   I am thankful I had the courage to say everything I had been holding back.   I said it… I let it happen.

So, I’ve haven’t been feeling a 100% and have had a sore throat for two weeks. I went to my ENT doctor Friday afternoon. I found out I have an infected ear and sinus; it is draining down and irritating my throat. The reason why this interesting is because the Throat Chakra, the area surrounding the ears and throat, is the area that balances the energies of speech and truth. So when you hold back words or speech or don’t speak your truth, you are creating an energetic imbalance which can lead to physical illness. I made myself sick by trying to hold everything in and not speaking my truth – literally made myself sick.
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Funny, as I was writing this I was reminded that I am also a Certified Reiki Master. I am actually certified to teach Reiki. I say I remind myself of it because I stopped practicing Reiki because I felt like I was absorbing too much energy and “seeing” too much stuff from clients. It was creeping me out🤣 If you are not familiar with Reiki, “Reiki is a Japanese technique for stress reduction and relaxation that also promotes healing. It is administered by “laying on hands” and is based on the idea that an unseen “life force energy” flows through us and is what causes us to be alive. If one’s “life force energy” is low, then we are more likely to get sick or feel stress, and if it is high, we are more capable of being happy and healthy.” Visit www.reiki.org for more information.

Today is Saturday. Considering I just started an antibiotic, Mucinex and an additional probiotic, I am not leaving the house today. I will wait and see how I feel tomorrow. Since I have to prepare a lot of documents for my meetings “downtown” later this week, I am already scheduled to work from home on Monday which gives me another day at home to heal.

What’s your truth? Are you holding something back? Is it causing you stress? Are you ready to let it happen? Take care of yourself!  Know you are divinely supported and loved. I often call upon Archangel Michael when I need protection or assistance. I don’t say any prayer in particular. I just give him a shout and say what I need help with 🙂 Give him a shot…

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