Self Care Sunday ~ In It Together

In it together

Happy Easter 🐰 Easter is not especially important to me. As a non-practicing Catholic, it’s just another Sunday. My relationship with God doesn’t require me to go to church. My relationship with God only requires me to talk to him, to trust in him and to have faith during difficult times. Easter is, however, important to my Mother. She enjoys having the family together. Since she is 80 years old, she now wonders if every holiday is her last so not being able to be with the entire family for Easter this year is challenging for her. I can’t do anything to change that this year; all I can do is talk to her and support her through this difficult time. I encourage everyone to stay connected to your loved ones during this hard time.

I’ve been teleworking for a month now. I am grateful to still be working. I am thankful for my beautiful ocean view but I really can’t wait to get back to normalcy. I don’t like teleworking full time. Yes, my commute is only 60 seconds and I wear my yoga clothes every day. Well, everyday except days have Zoom Video Meetings. I get dressed up & put on makeup on those days. Yes, I’ve been enjoying my ocean view all day while working but but work-wise – I’ve never been busier or under more pressure at any time of my career. This week has been especially bad.

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I am a Project Lead on a high profile project. I’ve been trying to move important efforts forward but slow responses is impeding my efforts at crucial times. I actually have to work through 6 layers of management to get things done and every one of them tries to “manage” something they don’t understand completely. It’s a huge problem. I can’t really say anything without potentially making a career limiting decision. I am just doing what I can do and trying my best to stop giving myself anxiety over it.

I had a zoom meeting with company wide Execs (internal stakeholders) earlier this week and let me tell you… They were grilling me🔥No joke, grilling me with my managers on the Video call with us🤣…”What is the problem? We can help you? Why is it taking so long?” 🤣 So, I chose to carefully share that the documents they were asking about are ready – have been ready…And, then I carefully explained my organization’s management review/approval cycle. And, that’s when they knew… It wasn’t easy but I managed to give them enough information so they could see I was moving things forward but it’s all stuck outside of my control.   Well, that led to an urgent action to turn something around by close of business Friday.  No one in management could do it so,  yep, I  worked all Wednesday night… I was absolutely disgusted on Thursday morning during our telecom with them that I almost cried. My direct supervisor actually called me and apologized. He told me he informed folks above him he was not giving me any more actions until further notice – in other words… find someone else☺️For clarity, my direct supervisor and I area in complete alignment – it’s above him where things get squirrelly.  The company wide Execs (internal stakeholders) now want to meet with me directly bi-weekly.

This job has been nothing but drama this week… Honestly, it’s been nothing but pressure and drama since I started it in August. Let me say this with absolute sincerity, if the right opportunity came along and I could leave my current position to do something lower profile – I would be totally up for it.   I don’t hate this job – but it’s at the point of diminishing returns. I am not going to rush into anything but I am now going to open myself up to accepting a new opportunity.  I shouldn’t be crying during telecoms from stress and pressure created by my own leadership. At 3:30pm on Thursday, I put an Out Of Office Reply on my email until 6:00am on Monday. It’s funny because New Jersey is still under a Stay At Home Order. It’s not like I am going anywhere. I just wanted to be sure folks knew I am off of the clock – don’t call me.

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Early Friday I masked up and went to a small local grocery store. I did laundry, worked on my balcony garden, cleaned, listened to music and actually had a rather nice and relaxing day. Below are some updated photos of the garden and micro greens I am growing. The greens are just about ready to eat 🤣

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The Corona Virus experience has really put things into perspective for me. Life is fragile.  If this is it, can I say I am fulfilled and happy in my life?  I can’t answer yes to either of those with complete honesty.  As far as my job goes, I am “hanging in there”.  That’s not happiness or fulfillment. God didn’t intend me to live a life the I am “hanging in there”. Working a job that that require me to take Xanax every night at bedtime is not the way God intended my life to be.  Thankfully, I had the courage to leave all unhealthy relationship behind a few years ago.  My relationships and connections are healthy, happy and balanced!  Do I wish I saw certain people more than I do? Yes!  But, overall, things are in balance.

Has the Corona experience changed your perspective?

These Chocolate Easter Bunnies are a reminder to wear a face mask when out in public; protect yourself and others 😷 No one is immune to Corona Virus – no one!

Happy Easter

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Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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Social Distancing and Rest – Friday Update

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As an introvert, social distancing comes pretty naturally to me. It’s what I do most weekends 🤣Corona Virus social distancing and self isolation is different. Not only is it about my health and it’s about protecting the most vulnerable people in our population: elderly parents, grandparents and the chronically ill. Here’s a factual news article from PBS for education purposes:https://www.pbs.org/articles/2020/02/heres-what-you-should-know-about-the-novel-coronavirus/
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Corona Virus is serious and I no longer have time for folks who make light of a pathogen that is killing the vulnerable. I have a 80 year old Mother that I worry about all day long. Believe me I am extremely grateful she has been refusing to go into a retirement home and is now safe in her private home. I still worry about her especially because healthy people are panic buying and leaving nothing on the shelves for the folks who may not be able to afford to buy 20 cases of toilet paper at a time. I bought stuff online from ShopRite for my Mom and I have it scheduled for delivery next week. My sister also takes her out shopping every Sunday so my Mom is covered.

Before you all go out and clear the shelves tonight, I ask you to think about other folks who don’t have money or family to buy stock piles for a minute. It’s one thing to stock up but it’s another to only think of yourself. It lacks self and social awareness. But go enjoy your garage full of toilet paper. I actually saw someone in CVS yesterday who had a full cart of tissues boxes stacked up and said, “I don’t want to run out”! You, my friend, can go fuck all the way off…

I am also done with these spiritual types on social media sharing stupid posts about “staying woke” and how Corona Virus is some kind of spiritual cleanser sent to raise our consciousness and we shouldn’t fear it. Well maybe, but it is definitely a pathogen dumbass!  It’s killing people. Now shut the fuck up and go sage yourself of that bullshit. I agree we should delete fear and love is all there is. However, I do not believe anyone should make light of or spiritualize a pathogen that is killing the most vulnerable people in our population. I may be spiritual but I am also pragmatic as fuck and have had with dumb shit. I’ve especially have had it with the Trump Administration.  They knew for two months this could happen and hid it to protect his re-election chances.  #WorstPresidentInHistory is also #DumbAsFuck ✌️

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As for myself, I’m home on a sick day and absolutely exhausted from anemia. I am resting and taking care of myself. I am writing this propped up in my bed on my Mac Book. I will probably watch some Hulu when I get done writing this and just give into my body’s need to rest today. I’ve prepared myself for self isolation and social distancing by subscribing to Hulu. I bought a new desk and task chair with my income tax return to make teleworking more comfortable since I know I will be working from home more in the coming weeks. My condo is L-shaped so I can pace and get my steps in everyday right in my own home. I filled my freezer, fridge and panty. If I go out at all, it will minimal. Honestly, I may try to get my hair colored tomorrow because I need to wash some grey out of my hair and make myself feel pretty.

While home, I am still practicing yoga and meditation. I am going to work on building my own home practice one that is 30 minutes and one that is 60 minutes while I am home this weekend. If you are new at yoga or want to try a slow gentle practice, the below practice is simple and accessible.  I found it on Instagram @yogarove. I did it yesterday. I liked it. It was the first time I tried Chair Yoga.
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Take care of yourself and take care of vulnerable people in your community…

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Loving Kindness Prayer💙
May you be safe
May you be healthy
May you be happy
May you be loved

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